My Dear Grown Children

My dear grown children,
I am so sorry I plan to divorce your father soon... I have stayed in this lonley place so long for you two, now you both are grown and have your own lives I want that for myself to...this is so hard for me but I look forward to every day.
Mom

I Let Myself Like You

I am sorry I let myself like you. I am sorry I wasted so much energy on you. Now I know why people lose touch on purpose.

I am sorry that I am mad at me and that I don't hate you more.

Mr. Jones and me told each other fairy tales and I fell..for that I am sorry and I am sorry I don't hate you more than I do right now.

Screw Ups and Mistakes

I'm really sorry for all the screw ups and mistakes I've made. I'm sorry for making you feel bad and sad and hate yourself. I'm sorry i've isolated you and i'm sorry i never forgave you don't forgive you now and still blame you. I hope one day I can stop, I hope one day you will feel at home.

Like a Zombie

I'm sorry I've been like a zombie the past few weaks. The truth, wich I really know... seems to be to much to handle. So I stay in my room, with music, books and a guitar. I know you worry, and I'm sorry for that. I just wanna have FUN, and do the assignments at my own pace. Trust me, everythig goes much better then.

And to Sebastian, I love you. And i you wonder why I'm strange sometimes, just ask! Sorry for making you doubt.

Still Stuck in Your Old Ways

Sorry I'm never gonna be like you again.

im changing

and you only know the old me.

im smarter, faster, and better than you.

sorry youre still stuck in your old ways.

im never coming back home.

For Being a Conceited Bitch

To Manu and everyone around us -

I'm sorry for being a conceited bitch when I thought I deserved better than you. I'm sorry for the drama and pain I caused then, and I'm sorry for the drama and pain I'm causing now that I feel worthless and needy. There is no in between with me. I never want what I can have, and I always want what I can't get.

I could have had a great thing once, but I shoved you away. And now knowing that I did that to myself makes me angry whenever I'm around you.

I'll just stay away for a while. It'll make everything easier on both of us.

Dear Dave

Dear Dave,

I'm sorry if you're hurting right now. I did not mean for any of this to happen. Things happened so fast; one week you were just a friend who sometimes drove me places, the next you were lying next to me looking into my eyes.
It hurts when I'm with you and it hurts when I'm not. That's why I can't push you away, even if I know it might help you if I did. But I can't bring myself to loose you or this chance.Right now you are being so nice to me, but I am scared every day that you will notice that I've put you in an awful position and get angry and turn away.
Please don't. I feel terrible in every way possible, and I wish we weren't in such a mess and that I could make you happy.

I Can't Be a God

I'm sorry that I can't be a God to give you what you really deserve to have.

A Disappointing Daughter

I'm sorry for being such a disappointing daughter. I don't mean to disappoint you are much as i have recently. I make mistakes and I'm sorry they have hurt you. I hate that i lie to you, but i just wish you could undterstand me more then you do. I'm not as bad as you probably think i am. I don't drink all the time, it's just sometime me and my friends do once in a while. I know that you are extra careful about drinking because of the alcohalism in our family, but trust me i am extra careful to. I know my limits and i have many people around me that would never let me abuse it, not that i ever have. I want you to trust me again and also to stop babying me. I'm not a little kid anymore, as much as you hate how fast I am growing up. It happens, we all grow up, leave, change, so please just let me grow up and stop trying to hold me back. I know you are just trying to protect me because you love me, but I know how to take care of myself for the most part. I'm not saying I don't need you there anymore, because I do, but you don't need to make all my decisions. Once again I am sorry.

Out of Options

I'm sorry I'm out of options.

To My Everything

Dear Marshmallow,

I'm sorry for so many things, but mostly I'm sorry for only telling you I love you because it's so much more than that...if only I could explain it. I know you told me you love me, and I'm especially sorry I can't believe that, but how could I when you're always surrounded by a bunch of girls I don't even know? I'm sorry that I can't be there with you to keep you out of trouble. I just really don't want you to turn out like your father, which is just what you're trying to do. But what you don't understand, and what I don't know how to tell you, is that you are worth way too much to be like him. I can't stand always being three hours away from you...I know things would be different if I was there. But this world just doesn't want to work for me the way it should. I only live to make sure you, your brother, and the girls are safe and happy. I know you're not really mine yet, but you need to know I'm always here for you and willing to listen to anything you want to talk about...and hey, I'm sorry you won't talk about what's really important to you. You just put on an act so that people think you're cool..you've always done that. I plan on bringing out the real you. You are my soulmate, obviously, since everything that's been happening points to that. And soon we'll be together. If you would just talk to me about yourself all this would be so much easier to make you understand...but you refuse to really open up to anyone. This has to be fixed, hon. We'll work on it. And, really, there was no need to lie. You can always tell me what you really think. I can't judge you. I'm sorry you don't realize that. One more thing, I guess. I'm sorry about your brother and his unfortunate luck lately...I love him too, like he's my brother too. One thing I am NOT sorry for, though, is that I love you. I think of what this world is becoming and then I think of you. I can't believe you're alive, and that may sound weird...but I mean, youre one of the only good things in my life right now. I think you might know that, though, which is why you're so sweet to me..even if many of the things you say are lies. But it's okay, because you and I are beginning.

Love you forever,
Bri

It Is You That I Want

I'm sorry that I am so back and forth about us. I wish I could just make a decision and stick with it! I know in my heart that I love you, but my head keeps messing it up! How can I treat you this way when I said I never would again? You are the best thing that ever happened to me and I keep acting like you and your feelings are disposable! How can I ever hope to have you in my life again when I keep doing the same things over and over? Will you ever believe me when I tell you that IT IS YOU THAT I WANT??

What I've Done for My Country

I'm filled with remorse about what I've done for my country 40yrs ago.I can only say I'm sorry that I let my fellow Americans down.I followed orders.They awarded me with metals,now they have be come an anchor.So this is my cross to bear,I hope I'll be forgiven.

An Apology to Adam

Adam,
I'm sorry you think that I'm an amazing person when I'm really not. I'm sorry that every day when you say something like "you're mine forever, i'll love you forever" my insides squeeze with guilt. I'm sorry that every day since it happened I think about breaking up with you but I can't bring myself to say a word, which will make it so much more of a shock if I do.

I don't understand what has happened to me. I don't understand how a person can seemingly fall out of love with a person who would give the world to them, who is always doing the things that other girls wish their boyfriends would, who can finish their sentences for them. But I suppose I'm not in love with you, otherwise I couldn't have done this to you. It sounds like such a cliche phrase "I love you, I'm just not IN love with you" but suddenly I see the truth in it. I don't know why or how, but its true. You're so special and kind and have so much to give but the thought of being together forever feels like a sentence to me somehow.

I'm sorry for what I am going to have to do if I do it. But I can't keep living a lie and I'm making you live a lie too. Everything seems so right when we're together until I think of him and then I want him and miss him...and realise that I can't have both. I sit at home trying to decide between you and another man, and you spend your time excitedly planning beautiful evenings for me, like you did the other night. And it was beautiful, but I felt empty when you kissed me and I wished I was there with someone else. I guess the passion has just gone, after such a short time.

I've pictured a thousand times already the pain and hurt on your face when I tell you, and the fear that you will never ever look at me in the same way again. It makes me cry just to think about it, but I have to.

Adam, I'm sorry that I'm a liar and a cheat, two of the worst people in the world. Please be strong baby, you deserve so much better and one day you'll find it.

A Loaded Gun to Your Head During Sex

Im sorry i put a loaded gun to your head during sex. I know u thought it was unloaded, but the excitement about it was the only way i could cum because i was so tired of you.

Many Nights of Confusion

To Self,
Many nights of confusion in my life have left me with heartache and regret. Broken lives and unstability was just the beginning. Feelings of being unloved has ruled my life, chasing silly encouunters and regretting all. Being truly sorry means changing what was done wrong.

So, self I am sorry for everything and will become the women you want!

I'm Sorry I'm So Evil

I want to say I'm sorry to my kids for hating their father so much that I wish he would die so I don't have to go thru the trouble of getting a divorce. I'm sorry I'm so evil.

To the Ex Love of My Life

To the EX love of my life:

I am sorry that you are such a shithead...and because of it...we wont be spending Valentines day together this year...maybe next year....

ya never know.

But you have some growing up to do first...

I'm Not Spanish

I'm sorry, I'm not perfect.
I'm sorry, I'm not Spanish.
I'm sorry, I'm insecure.
I'm sorry, I'm in love.
I'm sorry, you're the one.

Dear Future Me

Dear future me;

I'm sorry that I'm screwing up your life right now. I try to do it right, but I keep messing up. Sometimes I think I've got the important things down. Other times I think I don't even know what the important things are. Please don't be too mad at me. I'll get there somehow. I'm doing the best I can with what I am/have.

Love always,
Current me

I Told a Swear to You

Dear Arezoo

It is years past on day which I told a swear to you. I am truly sorry.
I do not remember from where exactly the discussion was started. I remember that I thought you do not like me as that's why you complain. I felt break heart in the group and in revere I told you a word which you didn't deserve it. Although I became sad of what you said to me, I must not told you "Hetaera". That was not right and I just said the word which came to my mind on that moment. It is long time that I wanted to apology but I didn't know if it is approprate after such a long time or not.
Really sorry.Hope you accept my apology.

Wish you happiness and the best

To All My Friends Who I Spammed

I'm sorry to all my friends who I spammed. I didn't read the web page carefully enough, I thought it was only going to check and see if you were already in the system. I feel stupid. Really, really stupid. I feel exploited. I don't know if it's my fault of if I've been taken advantage of. I hate that I can't take it back. My friends will probably forgive me, because they know me, but I feel ultra-bad about everyone else in my address book - students of mine, co-workers, relatives, church members, my professors -oh god! why everybody???? I'm completely mortified and it won't go away. I want to apologies to them all.

I Ate the Last Cookie

I'm sorry I ate the last cookie, but...

YOU DESERVED IT.

After So Many Promises

L.C.

I'm sorry that my friendship meant so little to you that you put someone who you barely knew in front of me after you made me so many promises.

Did you know that she is now calling you her Italian boyfriend? my gawd you have never even met... what a fu*kin' wacko!

You have known her for what...a couple months? And me well just a year and a half....hmmm, something is not right here.

Did she promise you the moon and stars..a recording contract?? wtf? I don't get it.
My feelings are beyond hurt...I really thought we were friends. Like the fool I am, I believed everything you told me.

I'm sorry if you can't see what you have done to our so called "friendship"...or maybe you can and you just don't give a crap.

You obviously thought that getting it out to her was more of a priority, thinking of me a week later..but I tell you one thing, I am not holding my breath on getting it cause you have promised me so many things and have never pulled through and if I don't get it, that will be the end of our "friendship"...you proved to me that you don't care, cause if you did, I would be the one giving you praise on such an outstanding accomplishment..not her...think about it.

I'm sorry you have to be such a fu*kin' inconsiderate asshole.

D.M.

Better Off With Their Dad

I'm sorry I feel that the girls should be left with their dad, they are better off there. You have been on a downward path for quite sometime, and it's only getting worse. You continue to pick men over your daughters, and when you do get to see them, you don't take care of them like you should, doing laundry, keeping the house clean, caring enough to spend time with them and not so self absorbed on the computer. It has always been like that, and it is time to acknowledge that they deserve better. And that I know you love them,but, do you care enough to change for the better for your daughters?

For Being the Mean Person I Am Not

Dear Erica,

What is left of my heart is in this letter, and if only it were as easy as to give you this letter, I would. I never knew happiness until I was with you. I shared with you my mind, body, heart, and soul. We shared a deep feeling that simply cannot be put into words. We shared our lives together; through family, our dreams, passions, goals in life, through love.

The love in my heart for you will never change. I was told that time heals everything. I have come to believe time just makes things a little easier to deal with. However, the truth is, I still dream of you, I still look up at the stars wishing you were near me. I still look out the window hoping you will pull into the driveway. I check the caller ID ... just in case.

Most of all, I pray that you will accomplish your dreams with strength and pride and honor. I still love you and want you to have the best that life has to offer. I just wish I were still a part of that life. I never knew that someone could ever hurt as much as I do. What scares me is I am sure the pain in life gets worse. I guess I just want you by my side to ease it. You said I have hurt you in a countless ways, in ways I promised you would never be hurt. But not realizing I was doing so in ways I never knew ,or would ever do. It is only worth mentioning because it has not shaken my love for you. I want to believe in forgiving and forgetting. If you would only forgive me.

If only I knew the words to say, that I know I could have said, that would have kept you with me. Countless times, I have sought to find them, and yet still they remain unknown to me. Even if I could find them now, is it too late? Even though you moved out so quickly. I know only a short time has passed, but for me it seems only yesterday that we were laughing and holding hands, sneaking kisses and planning our lives. I know you were scared, so was I. You are probably scared still, I know I am. I wish I had you to comfort me, I wish I could comfort you as well. If only I had not been so selfish, and too hard on you.

There are so many things I wish I had not done, had not said, and at the same time, so many things I wish I had. I wish I knew the words to say to tell you how I feel, I'm certain in my heart that there is something, or was, something I should have said, and if I had I could be holding you now instead of writing this, a letter I hope you‘re reading. I know it would have been hard, but the more I think about it, the more I know we could have made it.

I loved you and the boys so much then, and still do to this day. You and the boys brought great joy to me. It would not have mattered what we had to struggle through, we could have made it ... and wouldn’t the struggle have been better then the separation? My heart tells me that it would have. At least then, we would have been together in our dispute.

My deepest and sincerest apologies to you Erica, Gordon, Brandon, to your mom Terry, and to the rest of your family, for being the mean person I am not. In addition, for the frustration and anger I may have, or have caused. Moreover, not being always being the kindhearted person, I really am, that you and your family came to see and trust. I have not only disgraced myself, but my own family as well, for my words and actions. Nevertheless I shall suffer the punishment I have dealt myself. . . .

But, if you ever need me, I'll there. . . . Please keep me in a special place in your heart ... that's where you'll stay in mine.

Sincerely.

Forrest