I Can't Be the Daughter You Always Wanted

Im sorry i can't be the daughter you always wanted, i know you dont even want a daughter, you want a son, a son that can play ball and everything,my brother did it, but now hes gang banging and everyday im worried that he would get shot and just disappear... i tried really hard to be that person you want me to be, but im sorry, i cant do it, i cant study, do art, do sports, at the same time, the pressure you give me is too big, i gave up talking to you, because everytime we talk, you start yelling at me, you dont even notice that im emo and i cut myself, i got blood all over the place and all you did is tell me to stop being so messy and how i should learn to be like other girls, no matter how hard i try, its never gunna be enough for you, im sorry i cant be perfect, im never gunna be good enough for you... I tried not to be a burdon for you, whatever problems i have, i deal with them by my own, and i put on a fake smile everyday so my mom dont get worried about me, please. stop forcing me to be a person that im not, i dont even know who i am anymore...Im sorry