That This Has Gone on This Long

I am so sorry this has gone on this long. I didnt know and feel ridiculous for being so stupid. I would never want anyone to feel pressured into being my friend. I did all the things only a close friend does because I trusted you were my friend. I love to give, I love to spoil my friends, I am a good friend. I dont go out of my way for casual friends. I dont easily feel the trust I felt with you. Most people wouldnt ask someone to do the things you have asked of me over the years unless the friendship was really close. I had no way of knowing. I never knew you so easily have people thinking you are their closest friend for reasons I will probably never know. I thought you were a man of character and would never hurt me for your own benefit. Maybe its me, I dont know & at this point I cant begin to figure it out. All I know is I have been a good friend to someone that doesnt care whether I live or die. Doesnt care about me or my life. Doesnt share his life with me anymore. Does nothing he used to do when he was a friend, the friend I will remember. It feels like he doesnt know the meaning of loyalty in friendship. Doesnt know he just lost someone who would have been the best friend of his life. Im sorry I never realized this until now. Im sorry you had to pretend to be a friend so as not to hurt my feelings. Its a shame you werent honest because this hurts a whole lot more. I dont need your pity. Im just fine without your fake friendship. Im sorry I didnt know sooner. My faith in you got in the way. Im sorry you never really knew me. You would never be able to do this to someone like me if you did. Im sorry I believed in you. Im sorry for anything and everything I did that may have hurt you in any way & caused you to continue this charade. Im sorry. Your loss!

For Ever Wasting Time With Other Boys

i'm sorry that i'm so lucky. i have the most amazing boyfriend ever, and i am so lucky.

i'm sorry for ever wasting my time with other boys.

i'm sorry, but i'm in love.

Old Patterns

I'm sorry that I can't help but fall into old patterns when I go home to see my family. I'm sorry that I can't thicken my skin and not get hurt when my sister is manipulative and undermining, the way she's been my whole life. I'm sorry that I get full of rage and anger when my family jokingly uses me as a punching bag because its comic relief and their way of punishing me for not living in the same town. I'm sorry that I let them get away with it and that I fall for it continually. I'm sorry that in order to survive I have to continue to maintain my life as separate from theirs, although I feel like shit when they don't know what I'm up to and don't ask. I'm sorry I'm trapped in the same script with them, when what I really want is a nice conversation with my mom and to feel part of the family. Instead I'm tense, uptight, pissed and anxious to get the fuck on a train home. The bottom line is that they'll be dead soon and I want to stop fighting and feel loved and get over my adolescent shit already. Or at least get some distance.

So Sorry I Scratched Your Car

I'm so sorry I scratched your car! I didn't hear or feel anything in the parking lot and when I got home I saw the paint on the bumper. I'm sooo sorry, I feel so guilty. I misjudged by a centimeter and I feel so stupid and terrible. I'm so sorry. I have OCD so I continually relive the moment over and over and have lost a lot of sleep and of course I had a panic attack when I realized what happened. They tell me in the grand scheme of things that scratches aren't a big deal, but I honestly feel horrible.

18 Apologies

I'm sorry I didn't do as well as I could.
I'm sorry I didn't study as hard as I could.
I'm sorry I didn't work as hard as I could.
I'm sorry I didn't handle my drink as well as I could.
I'm sorry I slept with so many men.
I'm sorry I couldn't see God.
I'm sorry I loved the wrong men.
I'm sorry I didn't watch my bank account.
I'm sorry I didn't stay away from drugs.
I'm sorry I didn't keep my promises.
I'm sorry I made others suffer when I hurt.
I'm sorry that I didn't try to help her more.
I'm sorry that I want to leave them when they're too old.
I'm sorry that I never learnt control.
I'm sorry that I hate her.
I'm sorry that I resent her.
I'm sorry I wanted.
I'm sorry I wanted anything.

Sorry Dr.

sorry dr. r but if you can't fix my health probs by the beginning of 2009 i'll have no choice left but to deliver myself to god's door. i'm sorry you haven't been able to fix this but more sorry that i have no alternatives left.

Voting for a Better Man

i am sorry for you cause you do not feel right for voting for a better man

I Can't Go Out With You

I'm sorry, but even though I thought it would work out before, and even though I still love you, I can't go out with you. I love someone else more.

I Love You Pete

I don't know if to be sorry at myself for falling in love with you Pete. I've never been IN love with anyone, nor have I fallen in love with someone so quickly. You're so amazing. I don't think the feeling is mutual tho. I shall have to grasp reality...once again. God help me recover, but you shall always have my heart.

I love you Pete.

-Rosi

My Word Against Your Beliefs

I'm sorry about what happened. I'm sorry that it is my word against your beliefs. You took things too far, and honestly, I don't believe you anymore. Your look says more then any words could. So I've given up on you completely. Those who matter gave me the second chance I know I deserve. You did not, though you pretend to for their sake. So I'm sorry. Sorry that you're missing out on this friendship.

Procrastination

I'm sorry that I procrastinate and feel guilty about it.

To Cloey

A long time ago I told you that I was seeing someone else. I'm sorry because that wasn't true. I wasn't seeing anyone. I was just afraid you didn't like me anymore and I thought we should break up and that telling you that would be the cleanest way for that to happen. I'm really sorry for hurting you. Looking back, that was a terrible idea.

You Proved You Could Crush Me Like a Fly

I just wanted you to know I can forgive. I am sorry for the way things are now. I
am no longer angry at you and I know if you were to read this I doubt you would believe it but I am not angry. I don't have the energy anymore to hate you. I still don't know why you did what you did. I just wanted you to know this. I needed to say this. I don't have any desire to do what you did to me. You proved you could crush me like a fly and you have all the power you want.

For Always Quitting

I'm sorry for always quitting. I know you think I'm hopeless. But most of all I apologise to myself. I'm really disappointed.

I Want to Be With You More Than Ever

I'm sorry I cheated on you this weekend, with the one man who you think I will cheat on you with. But in a way, it was a good thing, because this weekend I finally broke away from wanting to be with my former guy, and never want to be with him again. I'm sorry, but now I want to be with you more than ever. I wish I could tell you, and you could see this as the good thing it really is. :(

Bleeding Dollars Out Your Butts

I'm sorry, all you right-wing a$$holes who told me in 2000 and again in 2004, "Bush won, get over it," I'm so very very sorry that you'll have to spend at least the next four and possibly the next eight years getting over it yourselves. Oh, and I'm very very sorry that all you rich bastards are bleeding dollars out your butts and panicking about losing your million-dollar houses while I still amble along with my 12-year-old van and my, ah ha ha ha already paid for house. It ain't much but it's by the gods all mine.

Blow that out your a$$es. Oh, yeah, sorry!

Handling Our Finances

I am sorry that I have done such a terrible job handling our finances. I'm sorry that I don't have the nerve to tell you about the four loans totaling $1520 that I have out now. I'm sorry that we may be driving around without car insurance right now. I'm sorry that the cell phones got cut off today. We both work hard everyday, but we spend more than we bring in.

Other Plans Last Thanksgiving

I'm sorry I made other plans last Thanksgiving. I was afraid to assume you wanted to see me; I was always afraid when I was with you. You saw that and tried to help, I know, but I couldn't let it go. My fear was so strong I could barely look you in the eye.

I wonder if we had been together that day... if we might still be today. I hope your new girlfriend is with you on Thanksgiving, and I hope it is a very good day. I hope she's not afraid to be with you, nor you with her.
I hope someday that you will introduce me to the woman who makes me glad that we didn't stay together.

That I Smoke Mary Jane

im sorry i smoke mary jane, im sorry i smoke at all, im sorry i have friends who do all that bad stuff when i know i can do something much better with my life, im sorry that im with someone who is selfish and i just dont care, im too in love and i cant stop it, im sorry i left you, you were my best friend and the love of my life, im just so sorry that im not perfect.

That I Have No Faith in You

I'm sorry that I have no faith in you. I'm sorry that you will leave your job even though you won't be able to get another which will mean we will very, very shortly lose everything we have. I'm sorry that you're so selfish that you don't care what happens to me and will probably just go ahead and kill yourself. I'm sorry I let you down and you won't admit how much that made you hate me.

For Coming to Town and Not Visiting You

I'm sorry for coming to town, and not visiting you. It has caused an awkwardness between us that I wish would go away. Most of all, I wish that I could convince you that I absolutely want to see you when I come back to town in a few weeks.

Mr. Nibbles

Dear Susan,

Let me say how truly sorry I am.

You left me with the responsibility of feeding your rabbit while you were on vacation.

I gave you my word that I would take care of him... and I forgot. I forgot to feed your rabbit.

And now Mr. Nibbles is dead.

Someday, you and Mr. Nibbles will be reunited in heaven. Praise the Lord, amen. Until then, please accept my deepest apologies.

Your friend, Hank

ps: have you thought about getting a guinea pig instead?

I Actually Believed in You

I'm sorry i actually believed in you. that you were better, that you actually could help me. too bad you're just like the rest of them.

For Stealing Your Wife

Sorry for "stealing" your wife. We were/are very much in love. Our marriage wasn't meant to hurt you. She cared for you, I've heard the stories. I suppose you don't think pining for a love you can't have is torture, but I'll be the first to say it is. There's no way I could ever explain to you the depth of this but you are too hurt and justifiably so... I never loved you. I cared for you, I wanted to love you, I tried so hard, but your constant mothering, pushing for answers to your plethora of questions never lead me to anything I'd call real love. I'm ultimately sorry for the lying because it seems like you need to go through this broken soul searching place you find yourself in. I apologize, I admit my mistakes and faults. I know you'll understand, with time.

For Being the Worst Part of Me

I'm sorry for being so self-centered. Im sorry for lieing and breaking your heart. I'm sorry for never really being there when I needed to be. Im sorry for not being exactly what you've always wanted. Im human. I will make mistakes, but all I can do is ask that you accept my apologizes and still love me. I want to make this all better and the way it used to be. I want us to love each other the way we did before I lied. I wont ever do this again. It's not worth risking losing you. I never want to lose you. I do want to spend the rest of my life with you and him. I want to do everything that we said we would, no matter what stands in our way, I want to work through it. I never want to be the one that fucked things up. I never want to see you with anyone else but me and her. I want you to always be there for me. As I want to be there for you. I just want to be your everthing again. Im sorry for being the worst part of me.

And I Don't Have the Guts

I'm sorry that even though I only know you a week....that I am falling in love with you...and I dont have the guts to tell you so.

I'm Over Your Drama

I'm sorry, I can't forgive you.

I still cry inside when I think of how many boyfriends you had on the side and you thought it was okay, you didn't even try to hide them.

It still hurts too much, I don't want to be friends, not even to say hi at the gym.

I'm over your drama

That I Am Like Poison

I'm sorry that I'll never be good enough for anyone. I'm sorry that I just don't have it in me. I'm sorry that I didn't die before I was 21. I never expected to be this old. And I'm sorry that I let everybody down. I'm sorry that I like hanging out with my dog more than any human being alive. I'm sorry that I'm too selfish to share my life with others. I'm sorry that I can't seem to fit in with people. I'm sorry that I don't act girly and wear makeup and pink dresses. I'm sorry that I'll never be a good wife and mother like everyone wanted me to. I'm sorry that I hate my job, and my life. I'm sorry that I can't even remember my family's birthdays. I'm sorry that I just don't care anymore. I'm sorry that I will disappear one day and nobody will even remember me. I'm sorry for all the hurtful things I've ever said to people. I'm sorry that I ever married you, R. I knew from the beginning that it could never work but I tried to make a square peg fit into a round hole. I'm sorry for doing that to you. I'm so sorry for what I did to you, K. If I ever loved anyone in my life beside myself, it was you. And I lost you forever. I'm sorry to everyone I have ever known in my life for being a cold, heartless bitch. I wasn't acting tough. That's the way I really am. I'm sorry I am like poison to everyone I meet.

Solitary

I'm sorry I'm alone.

When I Was Too Drunk to Walk

You were a great friend and you took care of me when I needed help. I was homeless and you let me stay with you. When I was too drunk to walk, you carried me. You were always there when I asked and acted like it was nothing. I knew I'd probably never be able to repay you.

Then I slept with your boyfriend. I justified it because you both broke up days before and besides, he was my friend first. I introduced him to you. The important thing is that I knew it would hurt you and I did it anyway and it was wrong.
Is there anything I can do to make it right?

I Do Not Value What You Value

I'm sorry, Mom. I do not value what you value. I'm still trying to work this one out.

That I Judge You

I'm sorry that I judge you and that I allow your actions to make me so angry. I know that you're doing the best you can, and I'm sorry that I think it's never enough. I suspect this is more my problem than yours, but I will probably continue to judge you.

Spanish and Your Parents

I'm sorry that I cannot speak Spanish to save my own life - to your parents. That is why I cannot get along with them, and that's why they don't like me.

I Was an Abuser

I am so sorry I changed your life in a bad way. I was an abuser - physical, emotional and verbal. Your dad was right about me... I changed his son to be someone he really was not. I am sorry that you've been so aggressive towards your whole family. I want both of us to change together, and get back the love we used to have - before all the violence and carelessness happened.

An Apology to Jess

Jess, I'm sorry I screwed up. I just wanted to be where your boyfriend is. I care for you so much. I'm glad I had the chance to meet you. I never expected to find someone that's so perfect for me. There's so much I want to say to you but I love you too much to screw up what you have with this new guy. I want to be with you so bad it hurts but I don't want to hurt you. And I'm afraid that if I tell you how I feel I will hurt you. So, sorry I can't love you the way you want me to. Because I already love you more than that anyways.

It Ruined Our Friendship

I'm sorry, I told a lie so big, that it included you, it ruined our friendship, I was young and felt so alone. I didn't want to be alone, I still don't want to be alone, but I am alone. I regret what I did so long ago, I hope you can forgive me.

That You Didn't Get to Actually Live

Sorry that you didn't get to actually live.

im sorry you will never get the chance to hold your own child.

and sorry your 19th birthday is coming up
and youre not even around to celebrate.

I'm sorry im always feeling sorry for myself

im sorry only a couple of your friends came to your funeral.

i loved you more anyways,
you were like a big brother to me since i was 9 months old.

im sorry i cant tell you how i feel.

i know i love you.
and thats all i can say.

Sorry I'm Such a Jealous Bitch

I'm sorry I'm such a jealous bitch. You're the best man I've ever met, and I'm so afraid you're going to find someone else that I can't bear for you to do anything without me. I'm sorry I get upset when you want a little time to yourself. I just fucking hate that I'm stuck here without you.

That I Bring up Past Issues

I'm sorry that I bring up past issues and cause the fights that make you punch walls. I don't want you to hate me or leave me because I honestly think you are the one. I want to marry you and I'm sorry that when I push you away it seems I don't love you that much. You make me smile and laugh. I'm so sorry for the pain I cause and the damage I have done. I hope in your heart you can forgive me and spend your life with me.

I Will Probably Love You Always

I'm sorry that I'm too afraid to tell you this: that I love you, that I have loved you since the day I met you, that i will probably love you always.

Over a Heartbreak in NJ

To all the freaks, perverts, dorks, morons, idiots creeps, dopes and fools that asked me out in the last years:

I am sorry I said no to all of you. I am not a snob or stuck up like you all say but I was not going to settle for Budweiser when I only drink champagne. Plus the fact that I was still hung up on my ex for over a year...made it very difficult to find someone to connect with.
I have recently found someone that I think is worth giving a fighting chance. See he was hurt as well in a previous relationship as I was. We also have many things in common.

So in conclusion...thanks but no thanks. I finally got someone (after two years of looking) that I think is worth my time.

I wish you all the best but you are not for me.

Signed,
Over a heartbreak in NJ.

Three Years of Heartache and Depression

I'm sorry that i haven't been able to stop thinking about you. For three years. I'm sorry that i can't be the bigger person and say it was nice to know you, or that you're a good person. I still think you're a waste of consciousness. If i could do it again, i would spit in your eye instead of saying 'i love you too.' It would have saved three years of heartache and depression. Three years of second guesses, lost friends, lost relationships, lost chances. Three years of lost life. I would have saved the daily reminder that it was all a game to you, that i wasn't the only one, i was the pawn. I'm sorry i hate you.

This Whole Shitty Mess

I'm sorry that you are going through this whole shitty mess, and I have no way to help you through it. I'm sorry that I wasn't there for a whole year, wasting time with pseudo people instead of helping prevent the mess you're in now. The what-if's and the maybe's plague me constantly. What if I hadn't pushed you? What if I hadn't encouraged you & pushed you beyond the point you were able to handle? Would all of this have been avoided? I don't know, and I probably never will.

I'm Sorry I Blew It

i'm sorry i blew it. i was handed the perfect job with the perfect partner and in frustration i vented to others not you. i'm sorry that i didn't trust you the way you trusted and still seem to trust me. i'm sorry that when i aimed for supportive and encouraging what you heard was accusatory and condescending. i'm really, really sorry for that part. i always just wanted to be the best you could hope for in a partner...i'm sorry what you got is so much less.

I Can't Come Out as a Lesbian

i'm sorry i can't come out as a lesbian to my family or friends. it's not so much that i'm scared to do it, although i am, it's that i'm married and scared to lose my health coverage and way of life (husband and i are well-off). i'd never make as much on my own as my husband does by himself. it's funny how we lose ourselves in life. in case they are reading this, even though they don't know it's me, everyone, i love women and i've known far a very long time.

I Don't Do Anything but Come on Here

I'm sorry I wanted you to myself when I know you had other people who were just as important as I am to you. When all you wanted to do was runa way when i was so out of control. Im sorry I made you cry, Im sorry at times I can be a brat. Im sorry I tried to end my life and you always had to be there to pick up the peices! i'M SORRY there are times I dont do anything but come on here.

I'm Sorry it All Changed

i miss the 4 of us and how it used to be and i think im probably the only one of us still holding on but we really did love each other. I know we hurt each other probably more than anyone else in our lives will, but it was because we were so young. And were still growing up but more so growing apart and i never thought we would be like that. it was supposed to be the four of us in the treehouse but we let that slip away. and maybe its better to move on and ill probably never get my heart broken like that again, but im really not sure ill ever care as much as i did again which makes me sad. i really did love us, you. and i miss us, you.

I Didn't Die With Him

im sorry i lied...
im sorry i played along
im sorry he died
im sorry you blame me for his death
im sorry i watched while he pulled the triggee
im sorry ... i didn't die with him

For Letting You Back Into My Life

I'm sorry for letting you back into my life. I'm sorry you think i'm different. You used to love me then, I think. How do you feel about me now? I know your jealous. I'm sorry i let my friend opinions of you, and my own neediness, ruin our relationship. But it too late. Please, lets be able to be friends. I really want you in my life.

Now I Just Pray for Death

i'm sorry i got clean a few years back because a few months ago i got sick and have never gotten well. chances are if i was using i would have never even known i was sick in the first place. my body seemed healthier when i was slamming dope. if someone had told me when i was getting clean that this is how my life would turn out, constant suffering everyday and loss of quality of life, i would have used until i died. now i just pray for death instead.

I'm Sorry Grandma That I'm a Slut

I'm sorry grandma for not coming home last night.. I'm sorry you thought I was dead, I just hocked up with some random guy.. I'm sorry grandma that I'm a slut!