Fucked Up Friendships

I'm sorry i fucked up everyone's friendships. I fucked up my friendships, my only loving relationship ever, and its all my fault. i wasn't thinking.

thanks captain Morgan, you helped too.

now my boyfriend and his best friend arent ever going to be friends again, he's never going to trust me to be out of his sights again. nothing will ever be the same between a group of about 7-8 people all tied into this mess.

i fucked up realll hard. and im sorry.

That I Put Up a Front

I am sorry that I put up a front to everyone and pretend that I am Happy. I am not happy. Not in the least. I dont know how to tell everyone that I am miserable.
I am sorry but the only way I could be happy is having you back in my life.
I can figure out a way to make things work. But this...I can not.

For that I am sorry.

Please help me get happy again.

Come home.

Some Serious Help with Your Addictions

I am sorry you had to learn the hard way that you need some serious help with your addictions. You're too young to be doing the things you have been doing, and it had to be brought to light so that hopefully you will get the help you so desperately need. No more lying, no more using people for your own personal gain, time to grow up and face the consequences.

Something at My Core

I'm really sorry I just can't seem to get it together. Ever since you cheated on me, I lost something. An important part of me, I seem to have lost my self esteem, my something, something at my core that I can't seem to recover from. And it's not at the loss of you. From the moment I met you, everyone I knew told me I was much too good for you. Yet, as good as I was to you, you never appreciated it, you never appreciated me. I guess that is part of what is at the core of all this, why did I give you so much of me? Why did I let you in so deeply? Why did I let you in far enough to hurt me so deeply? I just can't get myself together again. Like I said it's not that I want you, I don't. You cheated way too many times for me to ever trust or respect you again. I don't miss your love, cause you never really gave it. I don't miss loving you, cause you only have caused me pain, and humiliation. I'm sorry I lost myself somewhere in loving you. That is what I am so sorry for!

Reverting to the Past

C,
I'm sorry that you think we will be together sometime in the future. I am not attracted to you. I may have been 20+ years ago, but not now. Even if both our situations changed and we were available, I would not want to date you or be in a relationship with you other than as Friends.

For whatever reason, you keep reverting to the past and trying to make it become a reality between us. It is not going to happen.

I will not be getting married again nor will i commit myself to a long-term relationship unless I am 100% sure it is what I want. I am tired of trying to make others happy and do what everyone else expects.

Now it is my turn to live my life the way I want. If others are not happy by the choices I make, that is their problem.

D

Wedding Gift Apology

Dear L & E,

I want to apologize for you because I know that you can't do it yourself as you have so much to loose if you did.

My wedding "gift" from Mother was really a gift to you both as she repaid the money you owed me and didn't really give me anything. I know where her heart was in the giving: she felt it was a really big gift to me. But in fact it wasn't as it was my own money that she was giving back to me. You both received a gift of being debt free to me, that's all.

You both knew this, knew it was wrong and yet let it happen because your debt payment was more important to you than doing what was right by me. I know you know this because you said so in so many words.

I can feel by the tone of your emails that you are sorry it happened and that you regret your decision rather than doing what was right. But you still can't say you are sorry.

So I am going to say it for you here:

"I am so sorry my Brother, for not doing what was right on the day of your wedding. I should have stopped Mother from paying my debt to you and considering that payment as a wedding gift. It wasn't. It was a gift to E and I not you. What a horrible thing to happened especially on your wedding day. I know it created a huge amount of troubling feelings for you - and that it soured your wedding night and honeymoon days you spent with M. I know it also affected M's feelings like she didn't receive a wedding gift from our family. It also created friction between you and M as you contracted, didn't feel generous, and didn't want to share Mother's "gift" because you felt it wasn't a gift at all. All of this could have been avoided if I had just done what was right rather than being happy that Mother paid the debt for me. I could have told her to just give you a real gift...and then later on pay off my debt if she wanted to. But no, I did nothing.

I'm also sorry that I felt you were using me. I know the agreement we made and the generosity you showed by giving me so much money. When it grew to such a large sum because of the stock market, I was just overwhelmed by it and forgot the goodness you showed by giving it to me in the first place. I feel ashamed that I thought it was "usery". It wasn't, it was simply our agreement and in fact had the stock market gone the other way, I would have benefited not you. I'm also sorry for the times I was happy that you lost money in the stock market because your loss was my gain. I just forgot how much you cared for me to loan me the money when you didn't have much to loan in the first place.

And I'm sorry for myself that I have so little money and worry so much about my existence that I get consumed by it and forget that you matter so much to me and that I wouldn't want anything to hurt you or not be right for you. I'm sorry I can't just see what is true and follow that rather than being so contracted that I live in my own little world and forget you and your feelings.

I love you so much and I know this has created a deep wound in our relationship that may take years and years to heal. I am so sorry for that as you are my only Brother and deep down the only thing that's true is that I love you. Perhaps if I had the courage to just look and see I could call you and apologize in person to you for what I've let happen. But I just can't. That doesn't mean anything about you or how I feel about you...it just means that I can't do it right now.

I hope you'll understand all this and know that I love you as I always have.

L.

After I Left You

I am sorry for being happy after I left you... now I have less thing to think...

Aggressive, Violent

For a long time now, I've been aggressive, violent and always trying to get my way. I'm sorry for all the times that I've treated you wrong for so long, and I'm sorry for that... I'm sorry for breaking my promises to you. I want to stop being physically violent and mean, and I want to be a better person, for this relationship. I love you, and I hope you forgive me.

Your Cake and the Cupcakes

C, Im sorry i didnt eat your cake and the cupcakes were quite dry and not nice

EC

I Left U Finally

I'm sorry I left u finally..........

I Got the Last Cold Beer

I'm sorry I got the last cold beer out of the cooler. And I'm sorry the warm beers I put back in the cooler melted all the ice and they didn't get cold.

I hope you are sorry you didn't bring your own beer,ice and cooler.

Now This Third Time I'm Done

I'm so sorry I ever loved you, because you've broken me so badly. I forgave you once after you slept with my friend, forgave you a second time and now this third time I'm done. We're done.

You're my best friend and I was/am so blind, I'm an idiot. You made me relapse and I'll never forgive you for making me that weak, lonely and selfish again.

You broke your promises too many times to count and I was the best partner I could be. I regret ever meeting you, and that's a sad thing for me to admit. I hate you is the truth. I love you so much and I truly hate you... and I'm sorry for that. I truly am Cagey.

I Broke Your Heart About One Week Ago

I'm sorry I broke your heart about one week ago and you are still angry with me. also we can't see each other for a long time and I miss you more than ever...

Sellout

im sorry you sold me out.

Anyone Can Do It

It's so easy to apologise. Anyone can do it. Whoever wrote sorry seems to be the hardest word wasn't saying it right.

I say sorry so many times a day, it doesn't mean anything.
Yeah i'll probably do it again. And so will you.

Writing apologies on this site is so easy, believe me; i've done it enough times. And i continue to read other people's sad little stories.

But i can't help thinking that people that right on here are not really apologising, but looking for attention that they're never going to acknowledge from another visitor of this site somewhere across the world.

I'm just sorry that people who write on this site (including myself) feel the need to apologise anonymously. Go and say sorry. It's easy. Okay probaly sometimes it's hard, but do it anyway.

Cause lets look at this realistically.. what the hell is the point in an anonymous apology?!

Get out there and say the word! Come on guys, i wanna change the world.

Sorry I Wasted Your Time

im sorry i wasted your time

im sorry that for a year and a half we were best friends

but now you dont find me funny anymore

im sorry you dont have the balls to talk to me yourself.

im sorry i led myself to belive we were friends.

im sorry that now i have to go in to this all alone now.

im sorry im sop held up with holding on.

The Flower that Only Blooms Every Three Years

I'm sorry...
It was me that snuck up to your house at 11pm and picked the 'flower that only blooms every three years' off your tree and stuffed it carelessly into your letterbox.

Some Time Between the Dusk and Dawn

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some time between the dusk and dawn while you held me in your arms talking and sex... i fell in love with you... but im not sure i want to freak u out im sorry i cant tell you this

nd

I Miss You Now More Than Ever

I'm sorry that on most days, I silently wish that you walk out on her and never turn back. I hate that you chose her. I know I should move on, but it's impossible to forget the way you made me feel. I never thought anyone could make me as happy as you did. I can actually feel the distance grow between us with every day that passes. And my world becomes a little bit grayer. I miss you now more than ever.

That I Haven't Become Successful

I'm sorry I haven't become successful. You guys have had so many hopes and dreams for me, and I feel like everyday, I'm letting you down.

I Cherished the Time We Had Together

I'm sorry it ended the way it did. I was hurt, and didn't know what else to do. I hope you know I never meant to hurt you and I hold no grudge or ill will against you. I cherished the time we had together, and I'm glad to have known you. I hope you can accept this apology and move on with your life. I only have good thoughts and hopes for you, your family, Marissa and Jordan. I'll never forget what we had.

B.Y.

A Pathetic Site

im sorry this site is so pathetic

After Your Suicide Attempt

I am so sorry I never spoke to you again after I rescued you from your suicide attempt. Even after I wasn't angry anymore, your recklessness and lack of regard for self frightened me. For whatever it's worth--probably very little, by now-- I have always loved you, always thought of you as a very best friend. Now I hear your mother brought you home because you became suicidal again, and I have no way to tell you I love you. I hope you know it; and that I am so sorry I left it unsaid so long.

Watching You Do Drugs

Im sorry that I held out for so long, watching you do drugs. Im sorry I gave you so many chances. Im sorry you layed in my bed, than woke up in her's the next night. Im sorry you left again and again. Im sorry I wasted years for nothing. Im sorry we never went on dates. Im sorry you were a bum. Im sorry that you are sorry.

Sorry My Flatulence Runs You Out of Bed

I'm sorry my flatulence runs you out of the bed at night. I'm sorry that when you have to go sleep on the couch, you can still smell it.

My Temper Can Go Nuclear

I'm sorry my temper can go nuclear. I'm sorry I don't let you (or anyone else) see that. I'm sorry you will never know why certain things keep happening. It's not the weather or an accident. I'm sorry you will never feel the level of betrayal I did. No worries.... you will feel something. That I guarantee.

That I Upset You So Much

I'm sorry that i upset you so much last night with the things i said that you've been unable to keep it from your mind all day.

Whereas i have not thought of it once, until you told me how you felt.

I'm sorry.

Karma Is Nobody's Friend

I am sorry that you feel the uncertainty you do. You are not made in such a way to cause deliberate and damaging pain to anyone.

Sometimes, out of character we can hurt people for fear of losing what seems most precious. In the midst, we turn a blind eye to our own principles.

I'm afraid it's not the decisions you've made in the past that haunts you; it is the lasting impression you left on the people who once were so dear to you.

Perhaps not knowing how to rectify it is troubling, or you feel your efforts will be rejected. Whatever the case, try being honest with yourself - own what still matters, and make it as right as you possibly can.

And J, always remember that Karma is nobody's friend ~