How Awesome I Am

I apologize to myself for not realizing sooner how awesome I am, and I apologize for not realizing sooner my full potential. I'm sorry for basing my self-esteem on what other people think of me.

On Front Street

I'm sorry I kind of put you on front street tonight. I dont know if you know that my friends all know what you do. What I said kind of slipped out, and my friends dont judge you at all for the things that you do; if anything they think you're cool because of it! but you know, I should not have said the thing that I said because it is your business and no one else's. I love you... and I'm sorry!

An Apology to a Stranger

It's odd to apologize to a stranger, but I'm sorry you are such a miserable human being that you felt the need to bang on my car window, scaring the wits out of me, while I was waiting for my kid in the parking lot.

I'm sorry your life is so bad that you need to scream at absolute strangers over something so trivial, something that - if you had not just scared me and screamed at me I probably would have easily explained.

Because I had a bad day too, a REALLY bad day. Though you added to mine exponentially, I'm sorry I was so shocked I couldn't ruin your day in return.

For Being an Absolute Ass

Sorry for being an absolute ass. Back in the day it didn't mean a thing to slash your tires, scratch your paint, and basically destroy anything that represented you. These days I understand all that goes around comes around thus I've paid in countless manners yet still I feel this compulsion to say sorry.

If You Really Knew it Was Me

J, it has been over three years since we have talked. Sitting here tonight- I heard your voice inside of my head.

I am sorry I still do this. If you really knew it was me, you would think I was crazy. I know you have forgotten what was ours, but, sometimes it still stirs in me.

When you had to go, I thought I had lost the strength you had so patiently helped me realize; it took a long time to sift through it without you. My purpose felt skewed, and I wasn't ready to make sense of it alone.

Time has changed things, but, it hasn't changed the memories of your Love and kindness back then. And, if I had it to do over, I would suffer the same consequences, if the alternative was to never know you at all.

I wish you all my best.

Major Roadblocks in My Way

To both of you-

For the first one, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm so confusing and pushy. I just cant let you completely go, I don't know what it is. You deserve so much better than me, and you found it, but I made you let it go. I'm sorry I made it a big deal when I saw you with her. I should have just let it go and let you be happy. Shes gone now and you expect things from me that i feel I can't do because it's not right.

For the second one, I am more than sorry. You are one of the most awesome people I have ever met, and I'm taking it for granted. You absolutely do not deserve this. I don't deserve you. I love you, but at the rate I'm going, you wont love me. I'm truly a horrible person. I want to be able to fully give my all to you, there's just major roadblocks in my way. I'm sorry he keeps calling and texting, and I'm also sorry I wont tell him to stop. I'm sorry that I lie. I'm sorry I won't just let us be normal and happy.

Professor S.

Professor S. ,

I'm sorry I led you on. You adored me and I took your classes for the easy grades. I was cruel to you and embarrassed you the last time we spoke. I'm sorry I made my true intentions so clear.

You were a kind old man who dreamed a little more than you should have. I took advantage of that and everyone knew. Everyone laughed at you when you weren't in the room.

I'm sorry you'll never know the truth. See the truth is, secretly I adored you too.

Sincerely,

You're favorite student.

To the Teachers at the School Where I Work

I'm so sorry that I was so rude to you constantly that you felt the need to complain to management and now I'm in trouble. When you yell at me and get mad at me for things that are beyond my control (and usually because you were too lazy to remember to bring the correct items to your classroom before your class started) I should take it with a smile. And perhaps even help you to fix your problem, even though it's not my job and I am very very busy.

Actually, what I'm really sorry for, is that I didn't complain first. Most of you have been consistently rude or mean to me the entire two years I've been working here and I have NEVER complained. Who doesn't complain! I should have. Then I wouldn't be in trouble now.

From an Awesome Woman

John,

I'm sorry I can't forgive you for cheating on me. I can't forgive the cruel and heartless way you went about it all. I can't stop hearing the whistling you did after you said you wanted a divorce cause you were so happily in love. I can't forget the way you bugged me everyday to get out, transfer the boys from school again, get a lawyer and get it all started. I'm sorry I let you do this to me 5 times. I'm sorry but I'm over you this time! I'm sorry it took you this long to realize that I was an awesome woman. I"m sorry, it's over

The Hamlet Essay

Ryan I'm sorry I only sent you one Hamlet essay for you to use. I realize that it was inadequate. I'm also sorry that I pretended it was mine and almost made your mind explode. Please unblock me on MSN. I'm sorry for plotting with [above] against you. I'm sorry for sending him my essay and then faking an argument which confused you enormously. Please unblock me and let me send you more essay! Lah.

For Ignoring the Signs

Tom,

I should have read the signs earlier, before I totally let down my guard and trusted you. You're a player and I should have known. You dropped little signs like flower petals, but made me feel so good that I forgot to pay attention.

The two years we had were great. Then you reconnected with your old "friend" and suddenly treated me exactly the way you treated your ex-wife when you wanted out of that relationship. When your ex questioned you on the assertion that I was just a "friend" you got irate, you felt "accused"!! Well, we WERE having an affair, remember? She WAS right, and you needed to apologize and take some responsibility rather than blame her for seeing right through you. Even back then, when I was totally in love with you, this struck me as odd, but chose to ignore it. Of course, now you did it again, to me, exact same way.

I deserve what happened, because I let it happen to your ex. Mostly, I want to apologize to her. Please spare the new girl some heart break. Get some help. Besides, this 2-year pattern is not very attractive on someone who's 47 years old.

I'm sorry for ignoring the signs. I'm sorry I helped you play the blame game behind your e-wife's back. She deserved better than that. At the very least, she deserved to hear the truth. I'm sorry I haven't come to this realization until I myself got hurt. I'll do better the next time.

I'm Sorry I Didn't Meet Him First

This apology is for your wife. I'm sorry that I fell so deeply in love with your husband. I'm sorry I let your boyfriend talk me into being with him, so you would stop feeling guilty for having men on the side and he hadn't yet. I'm sorry, that you talked him into this lifestyle. I'm sorry that he wasn't enough for you that you needed more. I'm sorry that I wish he wanted me and just me more than anything. I would never ask him to leave you or your kids, but I do wish he would and come running into my open arms. For he is really the only man I ever want again. For that I am sorry. Not sorry for you, but sorry for me that he won't walk away. Because he it too much a man to keep the committment he made to you 21 years ago. I'm sorry I didn't meet him first.

Sorry For Who I've Become

I'm sorry okay.

Does an apology count if you knew who you were going to hurt, but still did it anyway?

Does an apology count if you're pretty sure you'd do it all again if you could?

Again i'm sorry, sorry for who i've become.

Because I Couldn't Be a Good Kid

im sorry mom...

even though you never said it ... i ve always known that i was the one who gave you the heart attack two years ago... all because i couldn't be a good kid.

I Cannot Stop Thinking About Him

i cannot stop thinking about him. when i live my life it reminds me of him. i will never love any one else other than him. i know i gave him up for you, and i wish i could give him up from my heart too so i could be friends with you again girl... i miss you but i am sorry i love him more than i miss you.

I Couldn't Be Honest With You

p,

im sorry i couldn't be honest with you.

you knew i lied.

i know i lied.

and i couldnt - and still cant - be straight with you about it. it lives on, just like everything else.

its the single most important reason why i couldnt be with you - even though i love you as much now as ever - i simply dont deserve you, or probably anyone.

i convinced myself i was sparing your feelings, ego, because really it was the biggest mistake and regret ever - and god did i learn the depth of my love for you. it doesnt escape me how dysfunctional it is to only understand love through pain, guilt, loss.

i miss you every day. when i see your picture, my eyes tear up from relief of the NOT seeing your face every night/morning.

i know you will find someone that WILL BE - not just tries to be - everything you want and need in a girlfriend, wife. i will smile with my whole self when that happens.

That I Ruined My Life and Yours

Hi. Just thinking about you again. I'm sorry once more that I ruined my life and yours, for a short time. I wish I could have a do-over. More than anything. The crap we went through just to pour everything down the drain. My behavior, unbelievable. I don't feel like I can ever get over this.

Can't Stop Stealing

im so sorry for all the clothes and other things i steal from stores, i am so sorry its become a habit and i am so sorry in advance for all the others i will probably steal because i cant stop, please forgive me

For Being a Stereotypical Teenage Girl

im sorry to the world for being a stereotypical teenage girl.

i was horrible

Because of My Sucky Attitude

Girls,

to any girl that i ever made feel like shit, to any girl that i alienated or was a bitch to. that was stupid school drama, i am so sorry for how much i hurt you and no human should ever have to feel that. teenage girls can be the meanest people in the world, im so glad i have grown out of that. im sorry for hurting you, for anyone i ever hurt because of my sucky additude.

love

CB

I'm Sorry I Wasted Months on Us

I'm sorry.

I hate you.

I hate you for ripping my heart out and tearing it to pieces. Pieces that I’m still trying to put back together.

I hate you for being with me for the wrong reasons. I hate that you lied to me.

I hate that you never said the right thing. I hate that you never did the right thing. I hate you. I hate you for saying hurtful things to me and about me. I hate you for not listening to me. I hate you for not trying. I hate you for not believing in us.

Thank you for being with me. Thank you for the times that we’ve spent together. Thank you for having fun with me. Thank you for holding me. Thank you for teaching me. Thank you for helping me. Thank you for holding my hand.

Thank you for making me forget all the good things about you. Thank you for allowing everything good in you to disappear. Thank you for helping me realize why I should never take chances. Thank you for helping me realize I will never ever date one of my friends ever again. Thank you for showing me how I shouldn’t be treated. Thank you for taking everything we’ve worked on and throwing it away. Thank you for not being who you really are. Thank you for telling me you loved me when you didn’t really mean it.

It’s time for me to move on and I couldn’t do it without getting this out of my head. One day, I know that you will come back, the person who I thought you were. And one day, I will remember this. I will remember how you didn’t listen. I will remember how you didn’t try. I will remember who the real you is. I will remember how you made me cry. I don‘t want to cry again over you. I don’t want to give you the power to break my heart and tear me down, again. I don’t want you back. And I’m going to be strong. For one time in my life, I’m going to be strong.

It was you who made me strong.

I’m happy to say that I’m finally over you. I never know what I did see in you and I regret being with you. You gave me nothing, and now that’s all I got.

I'm sorry I wasted months on you.

I'm sorry I wasted months on us.

I Love You Jessica

im sorry for being so jealous when you talk to her. but i cant even explain it to you - just how much it kills me when you talk to her, hang out with her and talk about her.

you cant see it, even though ive tried so many times to explain it to you.

im sorry for putting you through so much and not being there for you when you needed me most.

just know that without you, i would die.

i love you jessica, you're my world.

You Did Not Love Me, I Guess

To M.

I'm sorry I fell in love with you. I'm sorry I loved you so much I didn't know myself anymore. I'm sorry I let you control my life, my actions and feelings and I'm most sorry this is the first day in seven years I can truely state this. You did not love me, I guess. You wanted to, maybe. I don't know. You're hopeless. I realized that because you never learned to love yourself, you could and cannot love anybody else. I give up on you, I finally let you go. I'm sorry I lied to myself in this case. So, I'm sorry all I probably wanted was to be loved. You happened to be there. It's funny as I really don't have a clue if you ever honestly did. I'm a hopeless case, as well. I'm too proud to contact you after that long period to tell you face to face. So we will never see each other again, so the past will just die. M., THAT indeed is the thing I'm most sorry for. Goodbye, take care.

- C.

That You Never Call Me Back

I am sorry that YOU never call ME back.

I am sorry I locked myself in my room forever.

I am sorry I got your name tattooed on my butt.

I am sorry I spent money our dinner.

I am sorry you lost out on me.

I am sorry for the child I never told you about.

For All the Sadness I Will Cause

I'm terribly sorry I'm misleading you. We've been together for a really long time and I love you, I do, and never want to see you sad, but the thing is, I'm not over him. I never was and I never will be. Yes, it's been years and years, and I myself have expected it to pass but the damn thing just won't go away.

I will stop acting one day, and you will find out.

I apologize for all the sadness I will cause.

That I Didn't Leave You When I Could Have

I'm so sorry that your children get on your last nerve all the time. You know what? He's TWO. You're an ADULT. Act like one.

I'm sometimes sorry that I didn't leave you when I could have.

I Am So Sorry That I Was Ever Born

I am so sorry that I was ever born. I am sorry that I put my mom through the pain of having the only man that she had ever loved, leave her because she became pregnant with me. I am sorry to my father for ruining the happy couple that was my mom and dad, before he know I was going to be born. I am sorry to the step father that came into my mother's life shortly before I was born. I did not mean to be a problem and cause my mom and you to get a divorce. I am sorry to my mom again for not being a good child and not staying in bad that night you told me to. I should have known that you were having to much stress in your life with your mom dying, my step father leaving for another woman, and like I said being an misbehaving seven year old. I am sorry that I made you mad that night and caused you to beat me like you did. I am sorry I put you through the whole process of taking all your anger out on a well deserving child, just to have the doctors save my life. You should have sued them. Oh well, you did have me taken away for 4 years and then you told them you weren't ready to take me back so you paid the foster family to keep me for another 2 years. I got some really cool scars on the insides of both my elbows and by my belly button. I am sorry your luck ran out when I was a teenager and the state made me move back in with you. I am sorry that I was out of control and had sex with that little girl. I am sorry to that girl as well, she really wasn't to fond of the idea of losing her virginity to me. They say you always remember your first time, nothing to write home about. I am sorry to the other girl who lost her virginity to me, and then I talked her into marrying me. I am really sorry for that. I am also sorry that I like my father was not ready to become a parent. I did not leave them, I just put her through living hell until she left me. I am sorry to all the women I lure in with my charmand whatever else they see in me, only to use them up and move on to the next woman. I am sorry for getting my other kids mom pregnant, as well. She has some mental problems and I have exploited them for all that they are worth. I am sorry to my three kids because I must have some evil DNA, because every terrible thing that I have done in life, they have as well and they are completely unaware of all the terrible thing I have done. By the way I am completely sorry for all of the terrible things I have done. I would spell all of them out, but first this web site does not have enough room to post everyterrible thing I have done. I know I was wrong to do all these terrible things and acts towards these people over the years. I accept full responsibility for my actions and have quietly been punishing my self for years as some kind of self regulating punishment for all the wrong things I have done. I am also sorry that this process I have selected to kill myself is taking to long to come to pass. I feel the need to step this up a bit. I have tried numerous ways to sabotage my health so that I can suffer a long and meanigful punishment for my trangressions, but I am growing very impatient. I guess like all death sentences, there is a long period of appeals and procedures that must be exhausted before the big day. Well, I don't want any more appeals, I don't want anymore second chances. I just want to die. I am not afraid to die. I see it as the only true and justifiable way to pay for all I have done wrong. So please help me, pray to whatever god or religous figurehead you worship to just kill me. I don't care how just do it. Heart failure, lightening, single car accident, chocking, harmful drug interraction, poisoning, anything that would take my life without getting anyone else in trouble for it. I would try to do it myself , but if I fail then I waste doctors valuable time saving my worthless life instead of saving someone worth it. I already wasted one group of doctors time saving my life when I was seven. Don't forget pray, pray, pray to end my life today.

Thank You

sorry

To a Grandma

Grandma,

I'm sorry I didn't call or visit you at all during the last five years of your life. My father, your son, was a heartless bastard and I couldn't face you once I realized that you were never going to stop making excuses for him.

But, he was your baby and you were his mommy and that's just what mommies do. I love you. I think about you and the smell of your freshly washed linens. I can still hear you singing the song I was named after.

I wish I had your cookie recipe or at least a picture of you. They say I look just like you did when you were young. Sadly, you my father and every single keepsake is gone.

-Amanda

That I Yelled Back at You

I'm sorry that I yelled back at you. This is probably the most heartfelt thing I can do without actually saying it. I'm sorry I do bad in school. I'm sorry for putting you and dad through so much pain throughout the years. I'm sorry for not being everything that I could be. I'm sorry that I'm not as smart as my brother, or as skinny as my friends. I'm sorry that you feel like you have to compare me to the older sibling and put me down, to "try to get your point across". I'm sorry for all the hardships you've dealt with in life, but you gotta understand, that I'm going through it too. And I'm sorry that everytime we see each other, all we do is fight because you can't seem to stand me. I'm sorry that you don't understand. And in a way, it's not your fault because your generation is different than mine, but in a way, it is, because as a kid, a parent's responsibility should be to at least try, to understand. I'm sorry that I'm too forgiving, and that all I really want you to do, is just encourage me and support me in everything that I do. I'm sorry you can't follow through on your promises. I'm sorry that you always tell me that you regret ever having me. I'm sorry that, every other parent has unconditional love towards their kid, but it never seems like you do. I'm sorry for ever wasting my time to always trying to fix our relationship, because truthfully, that's all I ever wanted. A decent relationship with you guys. And we've had plenty of good times; I just wish it wasn't temporary. I'm jealous of all the other kids when they're able to "talk" with their parents when they're in a mess or something. I don't need just a "parent", I need a "friend" when I come home. I need somebody to tell me that everything will be okay, if I ever come home crying because of a boy, or because I got in a fight with my bestfriend. I'm sorry that you don't know me. Not one bit. What's my favorite color? Do you know what my favorite subject at school is? My shoe size? I guess I could go on and on saying how much I'm sorry and all that, but honestly, the most I can say is .. now, I'm just sorry if I always make you feel like that I was a big mistake. I'm sorry.

My Countless Mistakes

I'm sorry for being a fucking maniac when I was a kid, and to every person and thing that might've been affected by it. I would give anything to take it all back.

I'm sorry for lying to people sometimes when I don't want to work. I don't mean to be deceiftul, it's just that I don't have the balls to speak my mind.

I'm sorry for not considering the feelings of one of my best friends when we ended up having sex, and that I continue to fantasize about her, despite of the fact that I truly value her friendship.

I'm sorry for taking the money from your wallet that we found. That was a major dick move, and though you were and continue to be an asshole, you didn't deserve that.

I'm sorry for trying way too damned hard to be affable in all the wrong ways during social gatherings. I know it's not attractive, and that the only attraction will come from being myself.

I'm sorry that I'm different things to different people. Know that, whatever I do, I'd like to think my heart's in the right place, at least some point along the line.

I'm sorry to everyone I ever picked on during my early years in school. I'm also sorry that I aspired to be like those who picked on me, and I hope they themselves are sorry for what they did.

I'm sorry that I'm such a goddamned flake sometimes.

I'm sorry that I tend to treat my family like shit. I love them all, but I can't seem to take any initiative to let them know it. Please, know, somehow, that I cherish and acknowledge everything you all do for me and that, someday, if everything works out, I'll give it all back to you.

I'm sorry to all the teachers whose time I waste. You're all fantastic people with good intentions, and I'm just a bored, sarcastic ne'er do well.

I'm sorry for being so critical of amatuer musicians. I'm no better then any better of you, I'm just a great deal more insecure.

I'm sorry for crudely shrugging off the humble beginnings of my friend's creative ventures. He is so fucking incredible, and I've scarcely a clue what I was thinking.

And lastly, I'm sorry to the countless people I judge every day on the basis of trivial and superficial qualities.

I am a real dick sometimes, and I'll be damned if I don't know it.

I Want to Tell the Whole World About Us

I want to tell the whole world about us. I'm sick of keeping it a secret.

And I'm sorry for not kissing you one last time.

You Caught Me Cutting Last Summer

I'm sorry you caught me cutting last summer. I'm sorry it broke your heart. I'm sorry I made you cry. I'm sorry you thought you were going to lose me like you lost your brother and dad. We all lost them, not just you. I lost my uncle and grandfather. We were both mourning. That was my way of getting through it. It may have been wrong but it wasn't going any further. I'm sorry you felt you had to take my freedom away. I'm sorry you thought that if you took my room away and made me stop talking to the friends you didnt like or you thought were making it worse would make the situation better. I'm still depressed and you dont even know. You took my closest friends away, the ones who i could pour my heart out to. I'm sorry I'm hiding my depression from you and the fact that I am sexually active and on drugs now. I'm sorry I'm lying. I'm sorry we're losing our relationship. I love you mom. I'm so sorry.

That I Never Really Hated You

Father, you came to my birthday then with flowers. It's over three years ago. I always hated you as I thought you had never loved me. Seeing you again was one of the greatest pain I ever had. That day, I remember every second of it, I yelled at you. I told you to never contact me again. I told you I never wanted to see you again. Now you live in Asia, and I know I will really never get to see you again. I don't know how you're doing but I hope you're fine and blessed. I want to say sorry. I'm so really sorry. I miss you. I always hated you and only wanted your love but.. you standing there in front me after all that had happened in the past, I could not forgive you. Yet, I always loved you and still do. This is the first time I accept it - that I never really hated you. Sorry. Will you forgive me as I forgave you at last?

What I Really Mean or Feel

I'm sorry that I am, sometimes, too afraid to say what I really mean or feel.

Other than that, I am not sorry at all.

Maybe a bit that I can't get over the fact that mum keeps getting on my back for being fat when I am not.

I ignore her sometimes when she is over to visit.

I am a tiny bit sorry about that, but not alot.

I Couldn't Say Goodbye

X, I want to say I'm sorry. I actually am. Even if you didn't believe me. Actually I'm not sure if this is my part, if I have to apologize but I want to.

I'm sorry I ran away from you and your words back then. You surely meant well. I'm sorry I tried so hard not to show my feelings and I'm sorry I never said what was on my mind, about you. You must have known I loved you but I didn't have to courage to take a move. Nor did you, I guess. However, I wish I could smile thinking of you but instead I stop breathing. I'm sorry I don't call, I'm sorry I keep hiding. I'm sorry I didn't keep my promise. I'm sorry I wasn't the person you wanted me to be, and I'm very sorry I wasn't and am not her. Sometimes I'm so sorry I want to scream my heart out.

I couldn't say goodbye, and that's my greatest apology to you. I love you. Hope you know.

I Am Her

My dear friend,

I am her. The girl you started talking to last summer on that site. I couldn't help using that account for it... I was missing you so much and just wanted to see how you were doing, if I could turn back time I wouldn't change a thing. But I am so very sorry, I feel so unspeakably guilty about it. Especially when, now that you talk to me for me, you message me on that account and treat me as another person. You have no idea and I wish I could tell you, but you would never forgive me or trust me again even one bit. You're a wonderful friend even though you're moody and didn't stick with me. You are so supportive and helpful and funny. Thanks for giving me a second chance. Yet I can never tell you how sorry I am.

I also truly regret not having been there for you for such a long period of time, even though it was by your choice. Wish I could have been a more thoughtful friend years ago.

Hope I will be a much better friend this time around. You mean a lot to me.

I Didn't Know How to Express Myself

Chris,

I'm sorry I didn't know how to express myself without making you uncomfortable. I really loved you and never meant you any harm. I don't think I'm the only one to blame... but wish you could forgive me. I miss you.

I Didn't Run After You

I guess I'm sorry I didn't run after you the last time I saw you.

And I'm sorry you've had to come back to this place.

Julia

The Logic of Self Worth

I am sorry we can never be close like we were. You were an inspiration to me to get a toe hold on my life, and take back what I allowed to be nearly destroyed.

You were so very unique in your nature, I couldn't help but love you. For a man with a PhD you knew what it was like to struggle with yourself. It was the beauty of our relationship - that I taught you about emotions, and you taught me the logic of self worth.

I will never for get you my friend.

I'm Married Now

I'm sorry I led you on, when I was really in love with my ex-fiance. I didn't mean to use you, but I realize now that I did. I'm married now, and more in love than ever. I'm happy, but for that, I'm not sorry.

To Jeff

Jeff,

I'm sorry I never found a way to tell you that the reason I "let you go so easily" (as you put it) was because I'd realized in our short time together that you had a serious problem with alcohol, that was made worse by the prescription meds you're on, some of which I looked up, and you shouldn't be drinking any alcohol at all. I was worried about you, but alcoholism is one problem I'm not prepared to handle in a relationship - I did it once, and that was enough to know. And your behavior made it so easy to let you go, and not get into the messy stuff of confronting an alcoholic....

I Probably Have Breast Cancer

I'm sorry to all my friends, co-workers, clients, family members, because I can't tell any of you what's really going on with me: I probably have breast cancer, and I don't have the emotional or financial resources to deal with it in the usual fashion. I won't be doing surgery, or chemo, or radiation, and I'm not even getting it checked out by a doctor. I have all the classic symptoms of it though. I'm just focusing on how to live my life with whatever time I have left. I just hope you all won't be too pissed whenever I can't hide this reality anymore.

Kiddo, I Apologize for Offending You

Kiddo. I apologize for offending you.

I was trying so hard to make up for being such a bonehead and screwing up your Christmas day back in 2006.

I guess I tried so hard that I screwed things up again. Please understand that I only want to be your friend.

Can we start over? I want to go back to where things are simple and we just say hello in passing on occasion. I am not trying to pry into your personal life or buy your companionship. I just want your friendship.

You taught me that I can trust people again. I want to be a better person for you and because of you.

Please kiddo, be my friend. jb

You Are a Major Cheesedick

I'm sorry I didn't call you back.

I'm sorry for thinking you were the coolest thing on planet Earth and blind to the attractive quality you had of emphasizing all my assumed shortcomings. I'm sorry you think its ubersexy to brood in your basement apartment and fake your depressive emo state mixing beats. I'm sorry I fell for your lines or thought you were actually interested in anything I had to say...but I can find comfort in the fact that:

1. I'm way cooler than you ever hope to be.

2. I wouldn't even suggest you to my dog, if I had a dog and she was single.

3. You aren't that great in bed...and your red silk sheets are a total giveaway to the fact that you are a major cheesedick.

4. Your mixes SUCK.

Sorry I Didn't Tell You or Ask You

I'm so sorry babe,

You have been there from the moment i met you. You helped me in anyway possible and i'm eternally grateful for it... And what i did to you was not only hurtful and wrong, but dissapointing and low.

I betrayed your trust by taking money and not telling you. And as you said "to add insult to injury" i lied about it again.

At that time, I thought the worst case scenario was that you would be mad at me for askin... I figured if you didnt know it wouldn't hurt anyone. I needed the money for gas and i wanted to put it back when i got paid before you knew i took it.

I'm sorry i didn't tell you or ask you. I'm sooo deepy ashamed and miserable that i put our great relationship on the brink of breakup. I understand you may not anything to do with me because your mad and hurt.. but i still will put my tail between my legs and ask for your forgiveness. I'm deeply truely sorry and i wish i could take it back...

I Really Appreciate Everything You Did

I'm sorry again, that you spent all that money on the hotel and on my gifts and then i didnt stay the whole night. I'm sorry if you're mad at me for leaving, or for forgetting to bring my gifts home. I'm especially sorry if the shirt you made me isnt still at the hotel and that i actually LOST it somewhere. I'm really sorry. I feel like i have to apologize every weekend and I'm sorry for that too. I know that we'll always be best friends, but I just hope you're not mad. Plus i really only left because you and your boyfriend were getting ready to USE the hotel room and I didnt really have anywhere to go. But i guess thats not a very good excuse. Anyway I love you and I really appreciate everything you did... REALLY even if i didnt show it so well. I tried to show it, but I dont think I did enough. I cant wait til you move home... you're my best friend and I hope you arent mad. I LOVE YOU

You Don't Know Why I Had to Do It

Im sorry you don't know why i had to do it. Im sorry you don't understand. But most of all i am sorry that we will never be like we were. Im not sorry for what you made me do...But I hate myself every day for what happened because of it. Sometimes i wonder if you ever really cared at all. I still think about you...

If You Mess With the Bull

i'm sorry that you're about to find out that if you mess with the bull you get the horns...

This Happened in the Early 70's

Dear ex-room mate:

This happened in the early 70's. We were both young single moms. We were sharing a house. You had a little boy and I had two girls and a boy. I don't remember your name...

We didn't get along, and we both wanted to keep the house and have the other move out.

I got you to move out by threatening to destroy your stereo.

I was a selfish, obnoxious bitch. I was wrong. I should never had put my wants ahead of my integrity. I should never have been willing to be so mean to get my way.

I wouldn't have done it, I was bluffing, but you believed me, and that's what counts.

I am sorry, this has weighed on my conscience all these years. I hope you can forgive me. If you recognize yourself and remember my name, you can find me in Oregon.

I Never Did Send That Email

I'm sorry, but i never did send that email asking you back. You are not worth it. And I'm sorry I didn't take of myself half as well as I took care of you, and treat myself as well as I treated you. I'm sorry to myself for allowing someone so destructive in my life and think anything good was going to come out of it. I'm sorry to the future me who is yet to come because there's now work to do to get there.

I'm Not So Sure Anymore

Im not so sure anymore

I left him to be with you, and at the time i thought that it was what i wanted. But now that i think about it, i lost so much when i lost him, i lost years of my life that i began to enjoy. Now with you, everything is such a struggle, and you really don't seem worth the anguish we go through everyday.

Im sorry that i left him, i still love him.

Im sorry that i could NEVER say that to your face, because you deserve to know.

Im sorry that you love me that much and it scares me just as much as it does you. I dont want to break your heart, so now I am stuck and i have no choice but to acceppt that i made a mistake and now i have to live the life i chose for myself.

This is not what i wanted at all.

Im sorry i thought it would be different.

Im sorry that i expected more from you.

For Abusing You for All These Years

Dear Me,

I am sorry for abusing you for all these years. I am going to start treating you a little better...

That includes:

1. stoping the really bad eating habits....

2. the alcohol consumption

3. the smoking...(its way outa control)

But most importantly I want to say I am sorry to ME for not allowing myself to get over the loss of my soulmate. If I could get over him...then those things above would surely stop. Its been 18 months since he left us..I have to figure out a way to get us over him.

So ME....just hang on a few more weeks....

For Yelling or Talking Down to You

Hey babe-

I am writing to tell you that I am sorry for "yelling" or "talking down" to you last night. I was gone for 4 days and when I came home I wanted to jump your bones then and there. But I stayed back as not to smother you. I noticed you wanted to be by me all night. I wanted to grab you in my arms and hold you, but wanted to keep my distance. I know how you used to be and how we used to be. I wish for the love of god we could meet in the middle and make this relationship last and feel somewhat of what we felt back in our past. I know I have created the monster that you have become, but I wish you deal with what has been deep down inside and we could move on. I know one cannot forget what has been done, because it will always be there inside. You can only deal with it and move on. I just want to hold you so tight, that God himself cannot pull you out of my arms for the rest of our life. I truly want to smother you in love and hugs and not expect sex afterwards, I know you don’t believe me, but I am willing to try. Please accept this public apology and I guess we will see what happens. I truly love you with all my heart and am willing to spend the rest of my like to prove it! Love, J.

I'm Sorry to See You Sad

Hey, I'm sorry to see you sad.

I wish I could make you happy.

A Phony Psychic Lady

I am truly sorry I wasted so much money speaking to a phony psychic lady celest, aka sharon klatt, celest klatt, and who knows whatever she calls herself.

You Felt the Need to Do That

I'm sorry that after all this time you felt the need to do that.

I'm sorry that i was just starting to get on with things when you came and upturned it all again.

I'm sorry that for the last two days you're all i've been thinking about again. But tonight when i saw her picture of you and her i realised that nothing's ever going to happen. I'm happy for you in some ways. But angry at her for being so ugly and short.

You could do so much better.

I'm sorry but i hope from now i can realise what my priorities are. And, they aren't you. I'm sorry. But maybe you don't care anyway.

I'm sorry on your behalf that you didn't apologise for ignoring me but felt okay with speaking to me like that... as if nothing ever happened.

The Strength to Resist That First Kiss

I'm sorry i didn't have the strength to resist that first kiss. I'm sorry I didn't have the strength to resist you for so long. because i now see who you really are-- a broken man who breaks every undeserving person in his path. I'm sorry to myself, more than anyone, that I didn't see you for who you are earlier on. Now i know what it must be like to be trapped in an abusive relationship, physical or emotional, and not be able to find your way out. I dodged a bullet, and i'm just sorry I didn't have the strength to dodge it sooner.