You're My Blondie Baby

JS-

I'm sorry that I get so easily aggravated by your constant and silly questions. I wouldn't be here if I weren't happy and I certainly wouldn't be happy if I didn't love you. I wish you got it and didn't feel the need for daily reassurance.

I love you, I'm happy with you, I can't sleep without you next to me, We HAVE come farther than before.

Just know it in your heart. Don't be such a worry wart... you're my blondie baby :)

again and forever, i love you.

CP

For Not Maning Up

I apoloogize for "not maning up" those were your words to describe how I acted, when you got pregnant. I wish so muuch that you would have had faith in me. I know I would have been a good father. I would have provided. I would have loved you. I would have become a man, I just didnt do it on your time,... not fast enough. No one stood by your side at least thats what you said, I was there during the abortion but I didnt try hard enough to convince you not to do it. I had it in my power to stop you, all I had to do was convince you that we could do it together. We could have done it together, we would have grown together, I would have realized how much I loved you,... sooner, that I couldnt be without you, that ALL I needed was you. Maybe I can convince you Ive changed, but it can never be the same. It couldn't after you told me you cheated with Chris, it couldnt after I broke up with you the first time, it couldn't after I broke my promise of marriage once, and bought the wrong size ring the second time. it couldn't after all the weed that we smoked, it couldnt after I let you down with your dog ad your dad, and it couldnt after you decided to get the abortion. If we were to become one again, if I was to become whole again, if we were meant to be intertwined souls. Are we? I am sorry for my part, in the destruction of our relationship and I prey that our friendship can overcome all of this. L.

I'm Sorry That We Didn't Work Out

I'm sorry that we didn't work out, which was a shame because we really "got" each other. I'm sorry that we'll never get married and have kids together. With my brains and your beauty (and brains), they would have been Mensa by day and models by night.

I'm sorry for contributing to the despair of an already sad girl. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy and in the end I made things worse. I'm sorry that every man in your life has failed you and wouldn't blame you if you turned to women.

I'm sorry for airing our dirty laundry. It was selfish and immature. I apologize to our friends for putting you all in the middle of our crap and the divide that lives on.

I'm sorry that I didn't read your book selections earlier because it would have helped our relationship. I'm sorry that now there's no one to feed my brain like you did.

I'm sorry that I didn't compliment you more or tell you "I love you" more often when we dated. I was trying to play it cool, but ended up playing it stupid. You have a beautiful body and I wish I told you that more often during our reluctant workouts, when you were feeling self-conscious, or when we made love.

I'm sorry for being my father's son. I'm sorry for not being more forgiving of your shortcomings. I'm sorry for losing my temper over trivial matters instead of laughing about them.

I'm sorry that in the end, I couldn't do the right thing. I tried. I swear I really, really did.

I'm sorry that forgiveness isn't a part of your nature because in the long run, it hurts you and the ones you love more than it hurts me.

I'm sorry that I let you talk me into full disclosure when we first began dating. Even though it's what couples want, it isn't what couples need.

I'm sorry that my roommates have to bear the cross of our fights. They miss you, too.

I'm sorry that I helped screw up a relationship with one of the most important people I've ever met.

I'm sorry that I never bought you a kitten. I was thinking with my head when I should have been thinking with my heart. That kitten would have been the most-loved feline in the world.

I'm sorry that we'll never get to watch our favorite shows together or take walks on the bike path since you're the only person I like to do those things with, and could have done until the End of Days.

I'm sorry that I don't get to see your family anymore, especially your brother and his girlfriend.

I'm sorry that I'll never get to see your cats again, especially since the one was finally starting to like me and he hates everyone (can't say I blame him considering his pretentious name).

I'm sorry that we never got to travel together. Now that I have my passport, instead of collecting stamps, it's just collecting dust.

I'm sorry that, besides meeting you, nothing good has come from moving to this town.

I'm sorry that it took until the end of our relationship to find my "inner-romantic." I'm sorry it took me this long in life to know that I even had it in me.

I'm sorry that I haven't figured out how to grow a TARDIS and keep you from meeting your ex. I'm sorry that doing so would have caused a paradox that probably would have blown a hole in the space-time continuum the size of Belgium and I wouldn't know what to do about that. I'm sorry that I keep dreaming that I'll hit the lottery and shameless buy your love back (via Barenaked Ladies "If I Had a Million Dollars").

I'm sorry that despite dating other people, I guess I really haven't moved on yet. I hope you haven't either, but for your sake, I hope you have. I'm sorry that despite everything that's happened, I still miss you. I'm sorry that you'll never leave my heart and I'll have to learn to live with it.

I'm sorry that you didn't wear hats more often when we dated. They suit you.

I'm sorry that your smile will haunt me forever and that I'm powerless to change that fact.

I'm sorry that I can't wish you a happy birthday in person today. I hope you're surrounded by people and felines that love and cherish you and lots of Cold Stone.

For the Constant Bitching

I'm sorry for the constant bitching of the past couple of weeks. I'm slowly learning how to filter the things I say, but it's not a skill I grew up with. Which means that I overshare a lot, and it gets worse when I feel as bad as I have lately.

Here's hoping the drugs work and I can get some sleep and some relief from the constant anxiety. The better my mental health, the better my chances of continuing to improve my boundaries.

The Man I Thought You Were

I'm sorry you weren't the man I thought you were. The man that I need.

I'll miss you.

To All the Friends I Fucked Over

To all the friends I fucked over, stole from, disappointed, and ignored throughout my junkie years, to the girlfriend who stuck with me through the failed detox and who hung on longer than anyone could have or should have and before finally giving up. I am sorry. I am an ocean of sorries. I've changed so much over the past eight years, even my credit is completely repaired. I know you can never trust me again and I accept that. It's too late to go back now, and though I have only the most distant memory of those days of unrelenting despair, I'm sad that that is your last memory of me.

Fallen in Love

im sorry i think i have fallen in love with you

I Slept with Someone Last Night

I slept with someone last night and I feel like I should tell you but it would be at the expense of what we have.

Right now neither of us has lost anything, so as long as I can keep it from you we get to keep everything.

I'm not apologising for doing it because it's a blind belief in monogamy that destroys people, but keeping it secret is making me feel guilty and two-faced. Although I haven't lied; I just haven't mentioned it. If confronted, I will tell you the truth, as I always have.

I hope you hear it with an open heart and understand it doesn't have to be the end. We have different concepts of romance. If I accepted and lived under the notions you have of it I would suffocate and end up hating you. Right now I love you and nothing - and nobody - can change that. x

Sorry I'm Annoying Everyone

I'm sorry that I kind of made you do something you didnt want to do last night. We wont do it again after this time! I hope that you'll have my back with that and I'll have yours. I'm also sorry for talking too much about deep subjects. And just for talking to much anyway. Sorry I'm annoying everyone! lol

That You Were Unfaithful to Me

i'm sorry that you were unfaithful to me and that i became this controlling, psycho bitch then! i'm sorry that you got caught and you will miss out on the greatest person that will ever enter your life! best of luck finding someone half as good as me!

The Housing Slump

To: my Ex

I am sorry that we cant sell the house sooner....but the market sucks right now....

Eventually it will happen...just not tomorrow.

There I Go Being a Bitch Again

I'm sorry about the things I said to you on Saturday. I swear I was joking and being sarcastic. Even though I told you that and I apologized and you said we were cool, I dont know.. I dont feel like its all good, and over. I really am sorry I cant say it enough. i hope you can forgive me. And maybe learn to take a joke in the meantime...

there i go being a bitch again :)

Perhaps Tomorrow

Sorry, I am not sorry for SHIT. Doesn't mean I haven't made mistakes, doesn't mean I wish I had done somethings differently but there is not manual for life.. every single life is a new beginning and somethings you just can't learn from others, you have to learn yourself. I would be sorry if I didn't learn anything from those mistakes and miscalculation, but I did so sorry is not part of my vocabulary today. Perhaps tomorrow, but today..I think not!

Lo Siento

I'm sorry that I don't appreciate my mom as much as I appreciate yours. It's just that I want you to love me and stay with me forever and I know that if your mom loves me so do you. I'm just sorry about my mom because she deservest that I love her more than anyone and sometimes I don't know if I do because of how much I love you. I'm sorry that I've put her to the side and act upset with her when we fight. I'm sorry I don't share anything with her or tell her my secrets. I'm sorry that she hardly knows me and that I never spend time with her because I'm always with you. I'm sorry that I prioritize you over her. I'm sorry because you're so ungrateful and I shouldn't do that.

Lo siento ma, siento no quererte mas ahorita que puedo. Disculpame. Te quiero mucho.

I Fell in Love with a Jerk

I'm sorry I fell in love with a jerk who can't keep it in his pants and needs reassurance from various women about his manhood. I'm sorry I cheated on you too when I felt lonely. I'm sorry that I cheated on you with Edson the same night you cheated on me with that girl because I knew it and I thought I should do something to get revenge. I'm sorry that I am now telling you I'm not staying unless you marry me and making you feel guilty when I've done just as much wrong to you as you've done to me. I'm sorry that you probably will and when you do I'm going to say no in front of everyone and embarass you like you've embarassed me. I'm sorry that you probably won't ask me and will break up with me instead. I'm sorry that I can't move on without you making this decision so that when we look back, it'll be your fault. I'm sorry that it is your fault. I 'm sorry I love you so much still and that I always will.

That I Could've Been a Better Friend

i'm sorry that i could've been a better friend, but didn't realize it until it was to late

She Was Right About You and ME

i'm sorry that i kissed you, or kissed you back, or both. i'm sorry that i didn't say yes four years ago. i'm sorry that i didn't say something before you left. i'm sorry that i make things even harder for you two. i'm sorry to her, sorry that she was right about you and me, even before i knew it.

For a Troublesome and Costly Car

I'm sorry that my car keeps having trouble and costing you guys so much money. I wish I could pay for it but I can't. I'm sorry that I've let the brakes get so bad for so long that its probably going to cost a lot more than you think. I'm sorry that I'm not better. In general.

I Was So Loud and Obnoxious

I'm sorry I was so loud and obnoxious on saturday when you got home. I dont remember everything I said, but I remember someone saying that they thought I made you mad. I thought they were kidding at the time, and now I'm not so sure. I'm sure everything is cool and all, but usually after I drink I hae a few things to apologize for, so there ya go.

I Called Your Mom the Wrong Name

I'm sorry I called your mom the wrong name! Mostly I'm sorry that I didn't acknowlege my mistake and just kept talking over you while you were telling me I was wrong. I should have said "omigosh you're right!! I'm so sorry! that's ***'s mom's name!" and gone on with the night instead of immaturely pretending like I couldnt hear you telling me I was wrong. I KNOW its not a big deal, but the way I handled it is bugging me this morning for some reason. My bad!

For Making You Read This

I'm sorry for making you read this it wasnt funny at all

Such Sexist Opinions

I'm sorry that I let what you think of me and how you look at me make me decide that I need plastic surgery. You're a jerk, and shouldn't be alloweed to voice such sexist opinions.

That I Can't Be Patient

M.-

I am sorry that I can't be patient and give you the space you need. I'm trying my best but you're not the only one who has broken parts.

I am sorry that I can't tell the things that I have got up to over the past few weeks. There have been things which would make you laugh or smile wryly and I think you would like to hear them.

I am sorry that I read every tiny nice thing you do as a sign that you will want to talk to me again soon. I hope it is soon.

C.

I Really Messed Up

I really messed up. I'm sorry.

For Telling Everyone That I Am Okay

I'm sorry for so much.

I am sorry that I am lying to everyone when I say that I am in control.

I am sorry for being the one giving the advice when I am lost myself.

I am sorry for living a lie.

I am sorry for telling everyone that I am ok.

I am sorry for being selfish by getting depressed over things that really don't matter.

Sorry I Keep Missing Him (and Others)

I'm sorry I keep missing him at times..I'm sorry I hide this fact from you..

I'm sorry I can't make you smile

I'm sorry you lost your job the day I walked into your life

I'm sorry I get mad at you when you are away

I'm sorry you wait for me for hours and I come for minutes

I'm sorry it kills me wen you hav fun wid other girls

I'm sorry I can't help my dad and mum

I'm sorry I pity my family

I'm sorry you get all tense n upset wen I blab on n on about my family problems

I'm sorry your dreams havent been fulfilled and you worry you wont come to my family like this

I'm sorry I'm so delicate and you worry I will not survive ur anger

I'm sorry I can't marry you so soon

I'm sorry I haven't been a gud daughter

I'm sorry I cudnt fulfill dad's dreams n b a dr. n make him proud

I'm sorry mum cud never b happy wid us

I'm sorry I m looking for an escape

I'm sorry I hid my name frm you in the beginning

I'm sorry I cudn't make u 'happy'

I'm sorry I cudnt teach u how simplest things in life can bring joy to one

I'm sorry I still can't let go of past, although I pretend I have

I'm sorry he's still in my memories

I'm sorry I refused to go on a drive wid u

I'm sorry I didn't let you sleep last night

I'm sorry our lil island memory cant bring a smile to you

I'm sorry I disappoint u by not doing breakfast and exercising

I'm sorry I get hurt easily at things you say and I often pretend that its ok

I'm sorry I let u knw u can b rude at times

I'm sorry we r miles apart and i cant help u

I'm sorry im typing this here instead of e-mailing it to u

luv ya baby

That We Started To Talk Again

I'm sorry we started to talk again, because now I can't get you off my mind.

For Letting You Slip Away

I'm sorry I don't think I'm good enough for you. Not really good enough for anyone right now. But even I know we could be great together. So really I owe myself the apology, for letting you slip away.

I'm sorry.

I'm Sorry You Can't Be Bothered

ML,

I'm sorry you can't be bothered to even acknowledge my presence after all these years.

Would it have killed you to send an email just to say "hey, thanks for remembering me. take care"? I guess so.

Oh well, I suppose I should probably consider this a blessing in disguise and be incredibly grateful for your arrogance.

Things always have a way of working out.

For My Atrocious Driving

So sorry for my atrocious driving on Fenetiman road in SW London. I'm normally a mellow driver and I was really pushy thinking that it was my right of way at the pinch point. Cursing the car coming the other way, it was only 10 minutes later that I realised that he had the right of way and I was being a total w**ker.

so so sorry to that other car, I hope he reads this.

I Want it All

I'm sorry for always being jealous of what other people have..I can't help it, I want it all!

For Doubting You

I am so glad that i came to my senses before i pushed you too far away.

Im sorry that i have hurt you, and im sorry that i ever doubted you.

You have been such a wonderfull boy, and i have been selfish.

Im sorry that i still love him, but i can promise you that with time that will change. I only love him still because we shared so many years together and i thought that i would never find anybody to love me like he did.

Then i found you

I adore you with my whole heart and honestly appreciate everything that you have done for me.

I know that i can always count on you to be here for me. that i will never doubt again.

I have been A bitch and it wasn't fair.

Im sorry in advance if i ever hurt you again.

I love you z.

I Pretend They're From You

i'm sorry that i read some of these anonymous posts and pretend they're from you just to placate myself.

That I Haven't Begged You Back Yet

I'm sorry i haven't begged you back yet. i don't know what to say, and I'm sure you're back with her. but you don't belong with her. you belong with me. I'm sorry i can't put the write words in an email to you. I'm afraid it's too late and you don't want me back anyway.

That I Am Happy Now

I'm sorry that I am happy now.

I am sorry that you have to read about my happy life in my blogs, livejournal, facebook, etc. I am sorry that I feel no need to edit these things just because an ex-boyfriend reads them along with my other friends and loved ones.

I am sorry that I couldn't keep on waiting around for you, while you had sex with two other girls at various points over the year that you were still romantically attaching yourself to me.

I am sorry that my giving you everything and offering do anything in my power to make you happy was not enough to keep your manparts away from your ex girlfriend.

I am sorry that being with you destroyed my childlike trust in people.

I am deeply sorry that I had the courtesy to break up with you before I did anything with someone new.

I am sorry that being at my wedding hurt your feelings.

I am sorry that my husband is also a nerd and also play with lightsabers and enjoys books and is cute.

I am sorry that I love him more than I loved you.

I am sorry that he is my perfect soul mate, and swore to prove himself trustworthy and faithful when I had lost faith in mankind.

I am sorry that I might be pregnant right now, with his baby.

Oh wait, no I'm not!

For What I Put You Through in the End

J, I'm sorry for what I put you through in the end. I regret my bad choices. I just want to explain:

We were so close then; you melted my heart with a certain tenderness. Then the time came when you had to make a choice. When I read what you wrote, I felt like you hit me with a truck.

Through it all, the only pain you recognized was the other woman's. I was void from your life as if I never existed.

The only way I could stop her ceaseless, cruel messages was to block her every way I knew how. Still she found a way in. And you stood back and allowed it. I had - had enough.

I know you feared losing her, still, it was unlike you. I didn't recognize the man I knew. I didn't particularly like him either.

I fought back the only way I knew how at the time - fire with fire.

I made the wrong choice then. How awfully foolish I was to fight for something I never had to begin with.

It was a loss to me on so many levels. I am sorry for those choices. I did Love you, and what was ours will always remain a special place I will visit - every now and then.

C.

The Path of Destruction

I'm sorry to my parents and friends that they don't know what goes behind my jokes and smiles. Jokes and smiles are only the surface. Underneath them, i am pretending that i don't hurt when i really am. I resort to smoking and alcohol more and more often, but i don't know if they think it's just me being a college student or because i am starting to lose control of myself. It's not that i'm going wild and "woohooo! college is the life". It's more like... how do i explain it... i need supplements to help me. I know that is the last thing to be associated with cigarettes and alcohol and probably the words of a soon to be addict, but those are my words. i really wish they weren't.

Friends and family... i am truly sorry because i am walking down the path of destruction and won't tell you. To my body and mind, i'm sorry as well.

In Love With My Best Friend

I'm sorry but I think I fell in love with my best friend.

I love you so much and I hope this will pass, but if not, I will always love you no matter what.

To My Brothers

I'm sorry, my "brothers", for always being so cold these past two years. I wish I could've been a better friend. I used to be able to go to you three for help or to hang out, but now we're only as close like a stranger you see everyday. I really wish things were the way it was before I fell out of place. For being a jerk, for never supporting you guys, I'm sorry.

The Biggest Mistake of My Life

I'm more than sorry that i left you, it was the biggest mistake of my life. i Just wish we could go back to that night, and i could hold you tight and promise that i'll never leave you, and i never would.

But we can''t, and now im here missing you and i know that you will never want me back.

Im sorry

I Love You Michelley

I'm sorry that I made out with the boy you like. I wouldn't have done it, and the only reason it happened was because I was drunk. I really miss you and all of our fun times, you making me laugh and me making you. I hope that you can eventually forgive me, and even though you won't see this you're the best friend I've ever had. I truly think that I lost a true friend, but I hope in time that we will become best friends again. I love you Michelley :(

If I Am Not a Good Mother

I am sorry if I am not a good mother.

I am sorry for being unfaithful to the guys I once loved.

I am sorry for making my mother cry.

I am sorry for not being smart.

I am sorry for hating my husband's family gatherings.

To Lani

Lani,

Sorry for taking your husband's time away from you and your family.

I really loved him.

I am sorry that is he unfaithful at times, but he is always with you.

I am sorry for making your life so stressful.

To Telephone Customer Representatives

I would like to say sorry to those who works as a telephone customer representative.

I am sorry for speaking rudely like you are nothing important or something lower than me.

I am sorry for making you upset and forcing you to put the supervisor on the phone and make complaints about you, so you can get fired.

I am sorry if I had someone fire for not doing a good job.

For Letting Myself Down

I would like to say sorry for myself for letting myself down all the time. I have high cholesterol and I still not watching what I am eating.

I am extremely overweight, and I apologize to myself because I don't know how to really take care of myself in this fashion.

I would like to sorry to myself because I was not educated enough about fast foods.

I would like to say sorry to myself because for being so envious to the such good looking people on television.

I would like to say sorry to myself because I made wrong decisions and just being lazy.

I would to say sorry to myself and other because I ran away from home, hated my mother, didn't graduate high school, did drugs, got fired many times on a job, lost my car, did not pay bills, received a bad credit, lost my home, disrespected by family members, thrown out of the house, got evicted, got fat, got involved with a married person, lied to social services in order to survive.

I am sorry to if I made fun of those people I hated in the past just to look cool.

I am sorry for blaming others for my problems.

I am sorry that up until this day I still have a grudge against my mother.

I would like to say sorry to those people I treated badly, rudely, everything negatively.

I am extremely sorry for everything I did to everyone.

I Just Feel Alone and Annoying

i just feel alone and annoying. like everyone wants me to shutup. i think too hard about things.

i am sorry.

A Leaked Video

im sorry guys i was the one who leaked the video in to the press, i hated the president but i hated the ministers more

To My So-Called X-Female Friend

I am sorry to my so-called X-Female friend of mine--That I have deliberatly let your BF#1 be out of the business dealings he had with my company.. It was un-ethical .. but I guess it was the only way to deal with people like u & ur trusted intimate friends & I'm happy .. it worked like it worked from your trusted "...HARI" friend with whom u played games with me.

A Missed Date

i'm really sorry i missed our date yesterday, I fell asleep and totlly forgot about it. I feel terrible about it, and I really hope your not too mad.

I Am Sorry to be Alive

I am sorry to be alive

It's all just pointless motions anymore

Love is never mutual

Life is existence

No real perks, or things to look forward to anymore...

It's all grey/black. One big circle of it.

I have kept trying to keep myself occupied with new things: classes, new hobbies, new places.

But they're all just things

Same result.

Nothing

Like rolling the dice

But never getting numbers

But hope that 'next time, it'll be different'

Never could quite make that "connection" beyond...to click with another.

"Would it kill them to at least type hi? Or pick up the phone like they used to? What changed?? We used to call/talk all the time. Why don't they care enough to at least get mad at me and tell me what I did? Did they never care?"

No.


No.

I was a mistake.


It's all pointless shit

In the end it's all

Just pixels on a screen

It's just not worth it

Dear Miki

Dear Miki, I'm sorry we aren't still friends. I thought you were a great friend and I wish we still were, but I wasn't able to be the friend you needed, I guess. I still miss you a lot.

The Tuna Fish Sandwich

I'm sorry I ate the 2 day old tuna fish sandwich in the refrigerator if it turns out that it belonged to a fellow employee and they actually wanted it even 2 days later.

I'm not sorry I ate it if it was one that had been left in the refrigerator in a guest room. But I'll never know for sure. Nobody's name was on it, just a date, and food gets abandoned in that fridge all the time. I was really, really hungry. I hope the Universe will forgive me.

That I Ever Involved You in this Mess

T,

I am sorry that I ever involved you in this mess. I had no idea it would drag on for years like we have allowed it to do. I am sorry that I was never really in love with you. I only reciprocated that day you told me because it caught me off guard and I felt sorry for you.

I grew to care about you, but have never been in love with you.

I am sorry that parts of your home life are so dissatisfying. I hope that one day you find someone who will appreciate what you have to offer. I hope that one day you will do what is right for you.

L

What It's Like to Have a Good Father

I'm sorry that I don't know what it's like to have a *good* father. But you should be sorry that you weren't and haven't ever been one.

Live your life the farthest from me, I'm glad you aren't in it. Mom is everything in one for me.

Give a cheer to single mothers!! My mom did a damn good job.

Sorry I Sent You That Text

I'm sorry I sent you that text. It wasn't by mistake at all. I just wanted you to text me back.

I'm sorry that I can't take away your loneliness the way you take away mine.