Something at My Core

I'm really sorry I just can't seem to get it together. Ever since you cheated on me, I lost something. An important part of me, I seem to have lost my self esteem, my something, something at my core that I can't seem to recover from. And it's not at the loss of you. From the moment I met you, everyone I knew told me I was much too good for you. Yet, as good as I was to you, you never appreciated it, you never appreciated me. I guess that is part of what is at the core of all this, why did I give you so much of me? Why did I let you in so deeply? Why did I let you in far enough to hurt me so deeply? I just can't get myself together again. Like I said it's not that I want you, I don't. You cheated way too many times for me to ever trust or respect you again. I don't miss your love, cause you never really gave it. I don't miss loving you, cause you only have caused me pain, and humiliation. I'm sorry I lost myself somewhere in loving you. That is what I am so sorry for!