I Am Sorry You Do Not Appreciate Me

I am sorry you do not appreciate me. I am sorry you take my love for granted. I am sorry I feel I can not trust you...you made me feel that way by cheating on me. I am sorry you will never admit you cheated on me yet I heard from the source herself you did. I asked her and she told me. I wanted to know more but was afraid. I cannot understand why you did what you did nor will I ever understand. I am sorry I tell you that I have forgiven you however you know as well as I do that I have not forgiven you nor will I ever forgive you. Who is it that said "forgive and forget"? It was obviously someone who has not lived through what I have been living through every day for over a year. I keep playing things you said and did during that time and now I question every single thing you say and do. I am sorry you felt you had to go back to her to put some type of closure in the whole thing...she cheated on you when you were with her...you knew the pain yet you felt it was okay to make someone relive what you did?! You will never have someone who treats you as well as I have nor in reality do you deserve it. To this day I beg of you to spend some time with me. Spending time with me consists of being in the same house with me...nothing more. I am sorry I feel I need to move on and find someone who will love me for the loving individual I am. What goes around comes around. I am sorry I am losing the love I once felt for you...wait a minute...I need to step back here and realize...I shouldn't be sorry at all! I am not the one who hurt YOU...YOU hurt me...to this day your words and actions continue to kill me...emothionally and physically I am dying! I deserve better than that! I am a wonderful person! A person who needs to have a man in her life who will not cheat on her, be able to say "I love you" and above all treat her with respect...something you do not do! Do not put your guard down...as it is time for me to move on and find someone else and when I do I will no longer feel I need to keep you around.