For Hating You

I'm sorry for hating you. If you would just go away and leave us alone, I think I could get over it.

Someone Who Could Love You So Much

I'm sorry for you.

I'm sorry for the selfishness you possess, how you rocked my world and time without thinking about who it was you were with.

I wish you could've known how deeply I fell for you, how much I valued your friendship and your words, and how much I remember you whether I want to or not. I wish you could feel the memories of you that I have, rushing my eyelids at all of the worst moments in my new, happier life.

I'm sorry I could never find the words to tell you all of this. I'm sorry you are still too stupid, immature, and young to understand someone who could love you so much.

For My Past and How I Handle It

I'm sorry for my past and how I handle it. I'm sorry that I worry incessantly that you will do the horrible things they did, yet you are anything but an abusive, selfish person.

I'm sorry I don't have the true confidence to just love you without pausing, from time to time, to ask you how you feel and if you are genuinely comfortable. I'm sorry if I worry about ruining us in some fantastic, flippant gesture without knowing any better. I'm sorry that I express my gratitudes in countless "thank yous" and "I appreciates" because I am terrified that, one day, I will take you for granted when it was a blessing I did not deserve.

I'm sorry that I still don't think I'm good enough for you, even when I know we are actually meant to be. I'm sorry that there are still moments when I don't believe I deserve you or the happiness you bring to my world. I'm sorry that I still have baggage at my ankles, dragging through my days and making my choices that much harder to believe in.

I love you with everything I have. I hope this will be enough to give you all of the wonderful things you deserve.

It's Ending

im sorry its ending. im not that girl and i wish i was for you. so badly i wish i was. because youre that boy for me.

I'm Sorry She Hurt You

You're so stupid.

You're still making excuses for her.

I hate you for not choosing me first.

I hate you for not seeing through her bullshit straight away.

I'm sorry that now she'll always be hanging over my shoulder. It's all your fault, you gullible idiot.

I'm sorry she hurt you, I love you.

Really Sorry for Myself

Im really sorry for myself.. i had been waiting for 1 year 6 months for this day to come.. but i didnt get to 'shoot' back those 'arrows' u had shooted me for sooOOo long.

I had been in boss room long enough.. but it hadnt been long enough to say all i wanted to say. I am sooo sorry for myself. and also, sorry for those that had gotten that 'arrows', i should have paid by the deeds to her for you guys.. but time is not on my side.. im sorry.

J, i hope one day u will wat u deserve. And me, will be here laughing at u.

- S*****

For Crossing the Friendship Line

i'm sorry for crossing the friendship line. after so many years i held back not wanting to cross that line. the night it happened it seemed it was what you wanted. with me wanting it for so long, it did. not just once more either. but seven more times. then you got married. you know how alone i am. but i never stoped loving you.friends don't just walk away. not when they mean anything to each other.i'm sorry is all i can say. lets go back on the other side of the line and forget it ever happened. look at the life you have now-i'm happy for you and would love to share it with you.if you only knew about my life-not a good story.

For Lying By Omission

If I told you what I know, I don't know what you'd do.

I'm sorry for lying by omission.

Trust me, it's for the best.

To See You're Still a Whore

I'm sorry to see you're still a whore. You were a whore back when, and you're a whore now. Guess some things never change. You wonder why nice guys don't want you, and why you have to settle for porno freaks with diseases and bad habits? Newsflash: nice guys want women who aren't going to be fucking their best friends, their brothers, their coworkers, behind their back. You'll end up with exactly what YOU are, a whore, just one with a scabby dick. Think about that when he cheats on you the way you cheat on everybody else and see if you can forgive him, the way you expect everyone else to forgive you. You'll see it's not so easy to do.

To My Sweet Patches

Hello my precious kitty. I miss you and I'm so sorry that your life ended so soon. I can only hope you understand that we could not leave you in such pain with no hope for recovery. Please forgive me...I didn't want to let you go, but I couldn't watch you suffer either. I hope you have found peace and serenity.

I'm Sorry I'm Moving Away

Mom,

I'm sorry I'm moving away. It's just I'm an adult now, so if I want to live in another country I should be able to. I thought if you knew it was coming it'd be easier. I guess it isn't. I cry any time I think about how much you're hurting. But we'll be together again soon and I promise when you're old I'll live really close so I can take care of you.

I'm Vulnerable

I'm sorry that I like you.

I'm vulnerable.

And I don't think you will treat me right.

The Matchmaker

I'm sorry I tried to hook him up with my sister!

All Alone

I'm sorry you left me here all alone today. Who knows what you'll come home to.

I Gave Up Everything to Heal You

I'm sorry I let you take me so that you wouldn't break.

I'm sorry I let myself be your saviour, your deity, your everything.

(You were mine.)

But I'm sorry I gave up everything to heal you, so that, in turn, you would destroy every last shred of what it was to be me.

I'm sorry I cared.

I'm sorry I loved you.

I'm sorry I still do.

I Care Way Too Much

im sorry for saying it was because i didnt care anymore. I didnt think it would actually effect you. I said it because i was frusterated and can never tell what you really feel about me. im sorry. you know i care way too much.

That You Didn't Care Enough

i'm sorry you didn't care enough to fight for me.

i'm sorry you still don't care.

i'm sorry i can't go a day without hating you.

i'm sorry you had to get dragged into this.

i'm sorry you have to put up with me.

i'm sorry that i blame you.

most of all, i'm sorry that you've shaped me into the person i am today. the person i don't want to be. the person far too similar to you.

For the Haircut

I'm sorry that I gave you a haircut that wasn't what you were dreaming of. You wanted a lot of dead ends off and that required more than 3 inches to be cut.

Im sorry that I didn't give you the haircut u were dreaming of, even as I told u that I wanted you to be in the movie.

I sorry you were crying when you ran out of the Salon to your car.

You're young and beautiful and you're hair will grow, but I'm sorry I disappointed you.

That You're Still Alive

I'm sorry you're still alive.

Yours Nevermore

..I posted an apology late last year re: how I was sorry for sleeping with you in Vegas... Here I am again. I am sorry for sleeping with you again in Vegas. This time I mean it. After all, you have reunited with your ex. Hell, she is living with you..Sex with you has never been great. Maybe she can teach you. Sorry, don't mean to be petty...The truth is I liked being with you because you let me do that thing I like to do...I guess I am going to have find someone else...Is your brother available?

yours nevermore...

For Your Work Decision

I am so sorry you decided to start working with Patrick G*. That slime ball ruined it for you and I. The plan was so simple and you destroyed it with one simple step. What the F*** were you thinking man? His credentials are a fraud and his radio references are suspect. I tried to warn you! Twice! Damnit.

Please Forgive Me When It's Over

I've been on cruise for sooo very long. Even my closest friends ask me why I stayed. Then, I meet you. I've never been unfaithful, not in 18 years of marriage. You are luminous, a bright shining shaft of light, talented, intelligent and gorgeous. Me? I'm in my forties. You? 21. What you saw in me, I have no idea, but for some reason you thought you loved me. Oh god, how I wanted you. I've never wanted anything or anyone that much in my life, not even close. I turned you away though, and you didn't make it easy. It was a singular experience. I learned how much things have changed, how bold young women are now about desire and sex. Did you do all those things to change my mind? The pictures, the voice mails, the emails, what you left in my top drawer that morning. That one night I would've given in, you had me, but the cleaning people broke it up. How I wish now that I would have done all those things you asked me to do. You asked me to help you stay away, and I did. Things have changed though. Now I'm free. I heard from a mutual friend that you still are hurting and dying for me to call. Maybe I shouldn't, you're so young, so inexperienced in love. In another life you could have been my daughter. I know in the long run it would be best for me to stay away, but as I look tonight once again at the things you sent me, I know that tomorrow I'll call. I'm so sorry, more than you can know, because I'm sure you'll come to your senses and regret this someday. You are this effervescent young woman and I'm not what you need, but I do need you, and I want you, and I can't resist you any longer. I'm sorry that I want you to fill me with your spirit, with your energy, with your love. I'm sorry that I'm too weak to resist your charm, your beautiful face, your heavenly body, your funny laugh and cute mannerisms, but mostly that I cannot resist how you look at me in that erotic, hungry way. I'm sorry that I simply must have you and I can wait no longer. Forgive me. Please forgive me when it's over and understand that I tried, but I couldn't do what was best for you and stay away.

That You Might Love Me

J

I'm sorry that you might love me/want me etc. You are married and I am married and it's so wrong for you to feel this way. I wish I could talk to you. I wish I could tell you that your wife is amazing, and remind you of how much it would hurt her to know the thoughts you have in your head about me. But I could be wrong, I could be misreading you... I don't think I am. I think, I'm almost sure I'm right. And you think I'm this amazing person, this good person. You think I'm beautiful and dream of sleeping with me. I think it's wrong of you. I do think you're amazing too...but so is my husband. Get the thoughts out of your head J. They'll only hurt you. Be happy with what you have. You have it good. I promise. I'm not that great. I'm just like everyone else. Just a person. I'm sorry you're sad when you look at me.

I Failed You

i'm sorry i failed you.

again.

A Wasted Year

I am sorry I ever met you, all it did was waste a year of my time. and the sex was not even that good.

Lying and Cheating and Stealing

I am sorry I let your lying and cheating and stealing make me irrational. I should have been stronger when you told me you went away and slept with 2 or 3 men, and one of them you didn't even really want to. I am sorry I let you lie to me each night while you were out fucking around, so sorry i let that get to me Diana N*. POS hooker ho.

Sorry I Wasn't Happy

I am sorry I wasnt happy... but I loved you. Your injury prevented the use of your hands, and I was deaf. I was sad every night I couldnt communicate with you, and cried myself to sleep. All I wanted was for you to find someone who loved you for you. I did.

Clingy

im sorry for being clingy...i didnt used to be like this you just hurt me so much that ive become insecure about your feelings for me.

Sorry It Had to End Like This

JB,

I'm sorry that you don't believe me. I'm sorry that you believe what some stranger told you over me. I have apologized repeatedly for mistakes I've made in the past, but that doesn't seem to work, I'm sorry you're incapable of forgiveness. I loved you and I cared for you with all my heart, but that wasn't enough. Your insecurities and your not letting go of the past and moving on killed our relationship. I'm not saying it's all your fault, I have admitted to my mistakes and I take full responsibility for what I have done, I guess you never really cared or loved me cause if you did, you would talk to me about this instead of shutting me out....maybe this is what you wanted.

Remember that saying..."To error is human, to forgive is divine?"

I guess not.

I'm sorry it had to end like this.

TS

For This Tangled Web I Weave

I'm sorry for this tangled web I weave, that has captured us all.

I'm sorry that I'm being so selfish.

I'm sorry that you both love me.

I'm sorry for the pain.

I'm sorry that I haven't been honest to either of you.

I'm sorry that I'm acting recklessely with such fragile hearts.

I'm sorry that I'm to blame for our involvement in this twisted situation.

I'm sorry that due to my uncertainty that we are floating on a cloud of confusion.

I'm sorry for me.

I'm sorry, but my heart is divided.

I'm sorry that each of you has a piece of my heart.

I'm sorry, but I love you both.

That My Alarm Woke Me Up

Even my subconcious know I shouldn't be fantasizing about you. In my dream last night I climbed on top of you. You smiled just as our lips touched and my body pressed on top of yours. I'm sorry that at that moment my alarm woke me up.

That I Still Live Here in the Past

I'm sorry to myself. I don't feel sorry for myself, just sorry about myself. I'm sorry that I was with a boyfriend for 2 years, who I loved, who wouldn't commit to me. I'm sorry that I didn't go away to school and instead signed up for online classes, so that I could be with him in his military career, and then he left me to go across the world anyways. I'm sorry that I didn't get to go away to school and be a kid for a couple more years. I'm sorry that I held out until the moment he stepped on the plane for him to ask me to marry him. I'm sorry that I left the job I wanted to take another one, hoping he would ask me to marry him. I'm sorry that I waited and dealt with his inability to care about me for long.

I'm sorry that I have met someone amazing, who is so good to me, and yet last night I still cried over the jerk who broke my heart and who would yell at me for doing things wrong. I'm sorry that I cannot love myself enough to accept love from someone who wants to be with me.

I'm sorry that this amazing man who is in my life cannot break the shell to my heart, because I allow myself to be guarded from the hurt I went through. I'm sorry that I still miss my ex's kisses sometimes and the way he would run his hand softly down the crease in my back. I"m sorry he wasn't the one.

I'm sorry that I still live with my parents although I am 22 years old, because I didn't do the things I needed to get a job to support myself, because I thought I was moving with the military with my ex.

I'm sorry that I still live here in the past. Tomorrow is a new day.

That I'm Drinking and Using Again

I'm sorry that I'm drinking and using again. It started out innocently enough, just a little pot. And now it's gotten to this. I'm really sorry but I won't go back to rehab or detox again. I just wanna use until I die. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you. Sometimes I wish you were an addict too so we could spend our days and nights getting high together. I just really hate being sober. Anyway, please forgive me. I love you.

To Alan

Alan, I'm sorry that we fell in love twenty years ago. We both knew at the time nothing could ever come of it: you were married and 25 years older than I, and you were afraid I would leave you if we grew too close. Nothing could be further from the truth. Sadly, we'll never know in this lifetime what might have been.

We haven't seen each other for years, yet I dream about you, and you have never been out of my thoughts. Thank you for the times we kissed, and thank you for knowing better than I did that making love would have only made things worse. I'm old enough to understand that now. Still, even though we only kissed each other, those were stolen kisses, and for that I apologize to your wife.

You were the love of my life, Alan, which makes me sorriest of all. I still love you as I have never loved anyone before or since, and I will love you until I die.

Apologies About Me?

I'm sorry I think all these Apologies are about me, my ex, and our friends.

That I Can't Be More Brave

CB

I want to apologize for wanting you so much & not having the courage to tell you!

We (He & I) talk about you all the time. We think you're so beautiful, sexy, fun, & intelligent.

I'm sorry that all I have is the courage to make a comment here & there. Please forgive me for not just being able to tell you how much I adore you.

I think of you all the time. I've enjoyed talking to you & I just love your crazy personality.

It's difficult when the world wouldn't understand. & given the social situations we are normally surrounded by it's hard to determine what you would think.

I'm sorry that I can't be more brave. I'm so happy already just spending the minimal amount of time w/you that we've spent when we've helped out. I hate to think about how wonderful it would be if only I could tell you how I feel.

Love,

-You don't have to thank me, I didn't do it to get more business.

-If I cared what everyone else thought, I'd be miserable.

-Let's go get a beer sometime. (It's my life, I have to live it.)

PS-Hope you had fun at the "Adult Birthday Party!"

Love for the Closet Case

I think you are a closet case, I really do. That would explain a lot. The sex addictions, womanizing, trying to prove your manhood, marrying a woman who "doesn't like sex," etc. I could go further but I am just so hurt. I love you and sorry I always will. Get some therapy I know I am.

I'm Sorry Grandma

I'm sorry Grandma that I was irritated and impatient with you so often. You were the last person I should have been like that to. You were always there for me... for all of us. I never thought you would die. I don't know what I thought. I will NEVER forgive myself for being so selfish. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate that I have done nothing with my life. And because I am unhappy with myself, I took out my frustration on you. I am so sorry Grandma. I would do ANYTHING to have the chance to do it all over, but I know that can't happen. Instead, I will live the rest of my life with sadness, regret and a sick feeling inside of me for how I treated you. When you needed me the most I was not there for you. I am sorry. I am so sorry. I will never forgive myself. I'm sorry. I love you with all my heart.

That I Have Let Life Pass Me By

I'm sorry that I have let life pass me by. I am nowhere near where I thought I would be today. I'm a sorry ass loser.

Not Hung Up On You

I'm sorry you seem to think I'm so hung up on you. Believe me, I'm not. I know you never loved me, that you only used me and wanted to control me. I know it's hard for you to believe that somebody could get over you, and not spend the rest of their life pining about the great thing they lost. I don't feel I lost anything but a heartache. That's all you ever gave me. You never gave me love, even though you claim you did. You gave me lies, manipulation, and betrayal. Why would anyone on earth be hung up on someone like YOU? Do the world a favor and get over yourself. I'm not sorry I "lost" you. I'm sorry I ever met you.

I Messed Up Bad

I'm SORRY!!!

I messed up bad and

I am really sorry

I know that you're mad

I shouldn't have done that

especially for HER

I don't even like her that much

Now C is in the middle

And thats just not right

We need to start over

Please forgive me

Please?

For Not Being There for You

For not being there for you. I realize now the pain I've caused you. I wasn't there when you needed me. I thought I was doing the honorable thing. Giving you space. I'm sorry you were hurt through it. I know we have both grown through the experience. It's weird how bad things turn into good. I'm sorry I left things the way I did. I love you.

The Gossip

I am sorry that I gossip so much and I am sorry to everyone who has been hurt by what I said. I am trying to stop.

That I Can't Give Up

I'm sorry I didn't break up with you when I had the chance. I'm sorry you're so closed minded. I'm sorry everything has to be so black and white with you.

I'm sorry you're scared that I want to marry you. I'm sorry that I'm too afraid to tell you I don't want to marry you...not anymore.

Stupid for Being in Love With You

I am sorry. Sorry that I let myself down for far too long believing in true love. I fell in love with someone who said he's "not quite there" in regards to loving me. I'm sorry for being such a fool believing that some guy could kiss me so passionately and fuck my brains out so well and gaze into my eyes like he gave half a dump about me. I am sorry must be such a lose to allow my heart to get ripped out of my chest, put into a blender and then poured down the toilet. I am sorry I am so stupid for being in love with you. I'd print your name here but I'm even afraid to do that. Boy am I a sorry loser!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That I Could Not Love You the Way You Are

I'm sorry that I could not love you the way you are. Actually there are a lot of things about you I do love, but the main thing that concerns me is your obesity, and I tried to ignore it or get over it. I'm sorry I couldn't. I'm sorry and am going to feel bad and jealous if and when I hear you've found another girlfriend. You made me feel very special and I don't like to think you're going to make another girl feel that special someday. I still hope you get healthy. Maybe within the next year we are able to give it another chance, but I could not continue with our relationship the way things were for now. I was losing my attraction to you. I'm sorry I told you I love you so many times. I'm sorry you had your hopes set high for us and thought we'd get married some day. I'm ready to move on, but I'm sorry and I miss you and I hope you find happiness.

Sorry for Apologizing

i'm sorry for apologizing for busting you on your big lie. ironically, actually, you're the one who should apologize to me because you like to think of yourself as mister integrity. stop lying. get help for it. it is a huge problem and keeping you back from the richness in life you deserve. i forgive you. i forgive myself for loving you so darn much. i need to get something to help me sleep and take away the empty, aching, burning hole that used to be my heart.

Sorry I Haven't Been In Touch

I'm sorry I haven't been in touch. I very much value our friendship, but I'm a coward. I'm sorry I can't just look you square in the face and tell you I'm in love with someone else. I'm sorry, but I just can't believe you're capable of coping with that. I'm sorry you weren't the one. I tried so hard to make myself love you, because I knew you'd love me back, wholly. I'm sorry I didn't turn out to be the woman you'd hoped I would be. I'm sorry I hurt you. It was the last thing I wanted.

I'm Just Scared I Will Lose You

Im Just Sorry

im sorry for everything.

im sorry for being jelous im just scared i will lose you.

but at the same time i am sorry for thinking about my ex, i know how much you hate him just because he is now with your ex.i think thats the reason why.i just miss him sooo much!i dont want him back i just miss the things he used to say. it would make it so much easier if he would speak to me.

im sorry to my ex.im sorry i let you go and went with him.but i really did care for you so much because you are SUCH a nice guy and knowing ive lsot you forever it kills me but you lived to far away i though it would never work.knowing that i will never have a talk with you again its horrible to think about.i know you are happy with her and im happy with him but you will always be in my heart.

i am sorry to you too kelly.im sorry me u n her arent as close anymore and used to be the best of friends.you two make me laugh so much and knowing when we grow up we will probably NEVER talk makes me burst into tears.

im sorry to myself for getting in such a state all the time i think to my self "why cant i be happy?" but the people im loosing are the nicest people and i dont know what to do.

im grateful for this site beause i feel i cant speak to anyone about this except a page on the internet.

thank you.

I Thought You Would Be My Rock

I'm sorry I thought you would be my rock but you were so busy with your own dilemmas I don't even know who you are now.

High Expectations

im sorry i have such high expectations and im sorry that im unstable...i love you. im sorry you don't see it yet im sorry your too scared

Tired and Sad

I'm sorry I'm studying and miserable and up late and have my period doubling over in cramps and I just feel like total shit so I'm getting my ex to tell me jokes which is ALWAYS bad but it's keeping me from a nervous breakdown and i'm too dependent on him but i daren't call anyone else in my totally pathetic state, and I'm SORRY that I haven't found a friend who I feel comfortable really telling my feelings to... (I thought I had, but he doesn't want me.) and I know I should keep looking instead of talking to my ex, but i'm tired and sad. i'm sorry.

For Pushing You Away

I'm sorry for pushing you away and only making things worse. I'm sorry that i don't know when to leave you alone when you need your space. I'm sorry that i've let my insecurities get in the way of this amazing love that we have. Give me a chance to fix my self and show you how great things can really be. I know how wrong I've been and I know how to move forward. I won't let myself get in the way of 'us' ever again. I love you.

Wars and Torture and Murder

I'm sorry that I pay taxes that go toward wars and torture and murder.

I'm sorry to the entire planet that I am too afraid of imprisonment by my own government, so I do pay taxes even though I know that the money is going to hurt people and animals and the planet.

I truly am sorry.

As Far As It Did

I'm sorry I allowed it to go as far as it did. What started as a fun flirtatious friendship went further than it was ever supposed to. I am sorry that I caused strife. I am sorry that you saw me as an opportunity to make her leave you. I am sorry that you are not strong enough to realize that you are unhappy, and do something about it. I am sorry that you think you should be the center of everybody's universe. I'm sorry we almost ruined two families. I'm sorry your plan backfired and made her hang on to you tighter. I'm sorry you feel like I betrayed you. I'm sorry I took things away from you that were yours to start with. I'm sorry you lied and made her think that I was the instigator. I'm mostly sorry for the fact that I fell for it, and believed you loved me, and allowed myself to reciprocate those feelings. I'm sorry I shared so much of myself with you, just so you could put in on display in some perverted attempt at making her love you again. I'm bloody sorry I fell for it. I'm sorry I still love you.

How You Treat Me

I am sorry you treat me like shit. Not directly, but indirectly. You neglect me while looking like you spoil me. You leave me to fend for myself while making sure you look good to all your friends. You are fucking worthless. I will never forgive you for all that you have failed to do for me. I hate you for it. I'm sorry that there's nothing I can do about it.

An "Out" Apology

I am sorry I was never able to tell you about myself. I have tried to love you and the children as best as I could and would never want to hurt you. I would never change anything in my life, but I have never been able to be the man I should have been to you. I am gay and always have been. All those years ago before we married, I could never be honest enough with myself to come out. So I took the easier way out and got married. I have always loved you as my constant companion and the person who has always been there for me.

I just never was great at sex with you and you never seemed to be too concerned with it. So we stopped even pretending years ago.

I have always been true to you and always will. I just wanted you to understand that it wasn't anything you ever did. It was always me. So I just wanted to tell you and the kids that I am sorry I couldn't be more honest with you.

I love you!

I Fucked Your Husband

To Jenn:

I'm sorry I fucked your husband.

D

Sorry I've Been Crying

I'm sorry I've been crying for the past week over what you said. I was in such a good mood and was so happy to see you and then you started with the "sexiest woman here" comment, then implied I was acquainted with the size of your ... and then you made that comment about how I wasn't supposed to wear panties under that dress. And I smiled and pretended I didn't care that you were breaking your word.... but then the next night I cried myself to sleep and I've been crying every night since then. It really hurt my feelings. I'm going to tell you to stop the next time you do it. Then I'm going to tell you why, and hopefully I'll be able to do it without crying.

To Howard

I am sorry that I ever met you Howard. I am sorry that I was attracted to you Howard.

I am sorry that I slept with you Howard.

I am sorry that your life is fucked up Howard.

I am sorry that you are still married Howard.

I am sorry that I continue to talk to you Howard.

I am sorry I dont have the guts to leave you Howard.

I am sorry that I told your wife to grow up and file for divorce Howard.

I am sorry that I care for you Howard.

I am sorry that we are still together Howard.

I am sorry....Howard.

For All the Drama

I am sorry for all the drama in your life Scott. I am sorry every little lie I have told you. I am sorry that you dont believe anything I say anymore. I am sorry you were put in the situation you are in. I am sorry that you misunderstand EVERYTHING I say to you. I am sorry I dont know how to express myself better. At this point in my life...I would apologize for blowing up the WTC if it would get YOU to realize how sorry I am for everything....I pray everyday you will see my regrets and have it in your heart to forgive me. If you give me another chance....YOU WONT BE SORRY!

Sorry for Being Stupid

So, it's been, what, a year and a half? And I am understanding you better and loving you better every day. But I go back, and I read my journals from when I first found out you loved me, and I wonder - how could I have ever been that stupid? So I know that years from now, I will look stupid to myself. I'm sorry for being stupid, and for not understanding you like your wonderful self deserves.

From a (New) Lesbian

i'm sorry i cheated on you. with a girl. i know you always had that threesome fantasy but it turns out i'm not bi. I'M A LESBIAN : )

You Asked Me to Prom

i'm sorry you asked me to prom. unfortunately i can't stand you and seeing as i actually want to enjoy my night, our going together would be horrendous. you should have asked someone who has lower standards and would actually think of sleeping with you on a first date, you freaking scumbag.

That I Don't Understand Myself

I'm sorry that I don't understand myself well enough to even try to understand anyone else. I'm sorry that I feel the need to be selfish now to find myself.

I'm sorry for what you have put me through and I'm sorry for what I have put you through. I know that you have forgiven me, and that means the world to me. Unfortunately, it doesn't make any difference because I haven't forgiven myself.

I also have not forgiven you. I have tried so hard. I did the first time, but the 2nd time, I can't forgive no matter how hard i try. The wound in my heart is still fresh and it still feels like it was just yesterday.

I'm sorry for hiding things from you. I'm sorry for my secrets that you will never know about. I'm sorry for all of the things I've done that would crush you if you ever found out. And i'm sorry that I can't stop.

I'm sorry if we don't make it through this. I'm also sorry, for your sake, if we do. I'm sorry that I can't be the person I want to be. I sorry that I don't know who that person is.

I'm sorry that you can't be happy with me and I'm sorry that I don't know what true happiness is. I'm sorry for being me and I'm sorry for coming into your life.

I'm sorry that i love you with all my heart.

A Fucked Up Friendship

I'm sorry I fucked up our friendship. I told you my feelings and it went all downhill from that point. I may be an asshole, but looking back on it, you were a bitch too.

Sorry for 7/2/06

I'm sorry for July 2nd 2006.

I'm sorry that I was in McDonald's at the same time as you that day.

I'm sorry I was attracted to you.

I'm sorry we went home separatly but we talked until 3am.

I'm sorry you've had a girlfriend the entire time.

I'm sorry I had sex with you.

I'm sorry I still am having sex with you.

I'm sorry I broke my promise of having enough self dicipline to not fall in love with you.

I'm sorry you're too afarid to love me back.

I'm sorry I can't forget about you.

I'm sorry that you don't want me to.

I'm sorry that I lied - I do love you.

Sorry Ass Motherfuckers

I'm sorry I work with such sorry-ass white folks. The only reason you're on top is because of the privilege you give each other. If I did what you mofos do, I would have been fired long ago. You can be stupid, make mistakes, write "incontinent" when you mean "inconvenient", and still have respect and jobs.

Sorry ass motherfuckers.

I Can't Get Better Right Away

I'm sorry I can't get better right away. But they say it takes two years - so that means I still have another year to go. I'm sorry finding that out didn't make me feel any better.

Sorry It Isn't You

I'm sorry, but I think I want a boyfriend. When we first talked, I was thinking it would be better without one... but I've changed my mind. I keep seeing all these couples and noticing how they get so much strength from the other even if they do have some problems, and I just want to be someone's strength so he can be mine. I'm tired of going it alone, its lonely, and there's nothing that seriously wrong with me and I'm pretty hot, so Somebody's got to want the position now that I want to offer it. What I really need someone who cares about me AND wants me, not just one or the other. I found a couple of guys who cared, and you were the only one who wanted, but I'm hoping that if I keep looking, I'll find someone who does both. I'm really sorry it isn't you.

A Divorce Apology

I'm sorry we are getting a divorce. I'm sorry I cannot communicate with you. I feel like everything I say will make it worse so I choose not to talk and then you think because I never express any emotion I am a heartless bitch. I did love you before and I remember when I started falling out of love with you, I should have ended it then and I didn't - I am sorry. Why did I marry you in the first place? Fear. Fear of being alone, fear of hurting you, fear of disappointing my family. I thought I could make it work. I thought that marriage would change things and maybe married people weren't really happy --- they just decided that this was their life now and they made it work. I thought I could make it work. I'm sorry that I like someone else, and that I think I love him. I'm not going to marry him, I'm not going to be with him. I'm sorry you had to find out the way you did. I never wanted to hurt you, I've just been so unhappy for the last three years. I thought marriage might make things different. I do not enjoy your company. I only like hanging around you when we watch TV. Is that a marriage? Shouldn't I want to hang out in public with you and have fun? I don't. Your moods make me uncomfortable. I could keep apologizing forever but you think every word from me is lie. I'm sorry you don't know who I am and that I don't want you or anyone to know the real me. Maybe I am the worst person you ever met and I've crushed your world. I feel so lost. My world is also falling apart - but it is my choice and I'm so afraid. I think I'm being punished for what I'm doing to you. I'm sorry.

I Suck

I AM SORRY THAT I SUCK SO BADLY!!!

Sorry I Burned the Photos

I'm sorry I burned the photos of you and our daughter that were taken on the day of her birth. I was angry that you took such a beautiful gift and defiled it by fucking another woman when you had a wife and baby at home. Actually now that I think about it, I don't think I'm sorry at all. You're a bastard and what I'm sorry about is that I ever trusted you at all.

Dear Cousin

I'm sorry for wasting your time looking under my hood for the stuck accelerator problem that wasn't there. The car was running fine, it was I who was young and out of control and crashed into your neighbor. I couldn't admit it at the time and blamed the car and then my parents, who believed me, asked you to look at it and wasted your time and made me feel like a real schmuck, which I was. I'm sorry.

All of You Are So Pathetic

Im sorry all of you are so pathetic that you can't just apologize in person.

That You Feel Failed

I am sorry that you feel you failed.

I am sorry that you were too cowardly to understand the depth of our love.

I am sorry that your insecurities get in the way of all that's true and real.

I am sorry that you were not strong enough to present closure.

I am sorry that I can't hate you.

I am sorry that you will always be searching yet still remain empty.

I am sorry for you, you pissed on a rose all with perfect thorns.

I am sorry that fear is the heart of love.

I'm Overweight

I'm sorry I'm overweight. Thank you for continuing to love me. You say I'm beautiful and when it comes out of your mouth, I actually believe it.

For Leading You Along

I'm sorry for leading you along.

I'm so sorry it's not fair and I did, still do love you.

But we ended a long time a go we just can't seem to let it go.

But, no, I won't have sex with you.

I'm not ready but I'm sorry for making you believe I would.

Now you think I'm going to but I can't, I'm just not emotionally ready to sleep with you.

I do care about you dearly xxx

Thanks to This Site

I have found I read this website daily now and gain strength from knowing I am not alone in my suffering and that we, the suffering silent ones, have found an outlet in which we are not judged for simply feeling that which is human. That we who lack for whatever reason, the ability to tell others how we feel most deeply, have an outlet here. Life hurts but not always..and to have the good times in life, you must intimately know the pains of the downside of the existence we have on this mortal coil. It hurts to be betrayed, it hurts to hurt others, and it hurts to feel wronged. What is wonderful about this site that I will never be sorry for, is that it has been more effective than two years of therapy in keeping me from being suicidal. Its not so much that misery loves company, as it is that I am not the only one suffering, and who am I to choose to end my life, when so many others find the strength to trudge on through? And my life has been getting better. Day by day, thanks to this site. I am *not* sorry for that.

To My Husband, The Idiot

To my husband. I am sorry that you are such an idiot and you do not see the fact that I love you. I will never understand how someone can change in such a short time. One day you are showering me with all this love and then the next you are chasing after a woman that is still with her husband and used you for money before I even came into the picture. Its a shame that you will not be a part of my life anymore, because of the choices that you made. I am sorry that I tried to forgive you for you infidelity. I should have left your sorry ass behind when everyone was telling me too, but I didn't and then its sad for me because my best friend was in live with me and he begged me to come to him, but NO I respected our marriage vows, which was something that you could never do. I mean even from the damn deserts of Iraq you were calling and emailing females. I am sorry that I gave up a damn good job not once but two times for you. I will not make that mistake again, its funny how the tables turn now that I have a good job again that gives me all the perks and corporate credit cards and all that stuff, but you want to email me about a truck that you want. All of a sudden its about "we", see you ass its all about you and I am not part of your we. Do you think that I would be stupid enough to put money into an account that I do not have access to, do you think I would be stupid enough to work my ass off and give you the money for the down payment. Yeah I was stupid a few times before ny helping your sorry behind out, but I will not do it again. I read your plans for the future and not one thing in there mentioned me. I told you "I know where your heart is and it is not in this marriage", so why should I suffer because of you. One day God will bless me with the right man and to be honest I think that he already has. My best friend, the man that is willing to step up to the plate and take control, not of me, but a future. At least he never lied to me about anything and I know the kind of person that he is. You chase your dream and I really hope that you and Carrie are happy together. I can only wish you the best, because I will not walk through this life. I am sorry that I am envious of a woman that I have never met, but you want closure. I told you closure came the day that you married me, but you did not get it. What gets me is that I allowed myself to be treated like this. I am sorry to my inner soul for allowing this, because I was better than all of this SHIT that you put me through. I can only thank God for so many things that did not happen, because I would have been stuck, but he knew that there was someone better out there for me.I am so sorry that you never understood me, but that is your own fault. You never took the time to. I am sorry that you are 33 years old and your family enables you. I guess I can take blame for part of that myself, but no more. God knows when I get on my knees and pray at night that I will be OK. I hope you find what you are looking for, because in my eyes you may never be happy and for your sake I hope that you are. Like I said people like you may get ahead, but at what cost and who will you hurt along the way. I am sorry that I cried my eyes out for you as though I did something wrong, but I am glad that I have God first in my life. Its funny because I am now sitting here looking at the email conversation that we had tonight and it was all about you and not what I may need or want. I can only wish you the best. I am sorry that I ever met you, but I will say thank you for the lessons that you have taught me.

Letting Go

I'm sorry I can't let go of my anger.

To My Friends and Lovers

to A - i'm sorry you won't talk to me or be my friend anymore. i don't know exactly what i did to hurt you, but i really, really miss you.

to L - i'm sorry i love your friend, i want to be with you, but he gives me something you don't. all you ever do is say "i love you" and i hate to say it, but that gets boring after awhile... but i'll stay with you, because i don't want to leave for him. and i'll continue to push you away half the time, and worry that i should be alone instead.

to L - i'm sorry i caused you to fall in love with me, and that i've given you indications that i love you as well (though never said as much). and i'm sorry i continue to talk to you and hang out with you, which could be called leading you on. but i think i've made it clear that we can't be 'together.' we just have something special and we'll have to deal with it. i hope you find a girlfriend who can truly love you, soon.

to B - i guess i'm sorry i got drunk and kissed your friend when we were dating, but you're kind of an asshole anyway, so not really.

to A - i'm sorry i overreacted when i found out you were physically involved with L - i just loved you so much, for so long, and then you finally kissed me, and to find out immediately afterward that you had been messing around with her for months was kind of a blow, to put it mildly. but i shouldn't have sent you that fucked-up mix CD, or any letters. i should have left you alone. i'm trying to do that now. the degree of my obsession with you was scary. so i am truly, truly sorry.

Two Broken Hearts

i'm sorry i broke your heart. i'm sorry that after you broke mine, you thought you could have me back. i'm sorry i'm way too proud to even think about going back to you. i'm sorry you took away my ability to trust people. i'm sorry you were crying and i didn't care. most of all, i'm sorry that i'm really not sorry.

Sorry You Think You're Better Than Me

i'm sorry that you are ass-hole. that you're mean and angry. that i can see how you want to hit me, to hurt me, in your eyes. just because you don't actually do it, doesn't mean i can't see it, can't feel it. i can feel all the power of your rage. why are you so angry? what have i ever done to you? wanting to hurt me, thinking about it, is just as much a betrayal. don't think you're strong for restraining yourself. because you aren't strong. you are weak and pathetic. when you scream "i'm getting very angry! can you see that i'm getting angry?" i think you are the most pathetic creature i've ever layed eyes on. i have no respect for you. the more frightened i get, the more disgusted i get. you're supposed to love me, to hold me, to take care of me. it's not even supposed to be in your wildest dreams, to lay a harmful hand on me. so why do you do it? what drives you to do this? you make me sick. i'm sorry that i don't react when you touch me, but it's because the last thing i want in a million years is to feel your hands on my body when i know what they're capable of. most of all, i'm sorry that i love you so much. i'm sorry that i'm so scared of being alone. one day i'll stop being sorry because one day i'll be gone. and good luck finding another woman who will let you make her feel like she's small, stupid and insignificant. because i'm not any of those things. i'm smart and funny and happy. i'm beautiful and more put together than you'll ever be. you're sloppy, lazy and pretty much repulsive to me. i'm sorry you can't see how other men look at me, how other men want me... they crave me, and can't have me. maybe if you saw that, maybe if you could appreciate what you had, you'd stop hurting me again and again. i'm sorry you think you're better than me, because most of the time i think you're nothing. i'm sorry that i'm scared to have children with you, since no human in the world deserves to put up with the things you say, and the fear you generate. no child deserves that, so children will have to wait. if anyone should be a mother it should be me. and i'm so so sorry for myself, that i'm sitting at my computer, in the middle of the night, ranting like this, while you snore away in the bedroom. this is not how it was supposed to be.

That Anyone Was Nasty About It

I want to say I'm sorry to the woman who had that awful experience with the horrible people at the MRI. Medical machines just aren't made for the full range of sizes (and yes, it's THEIR fault, not yours) and I'm really sorry that anyone was nasty about it. Every time I hear people snicker about reinforcing a table, I want to smack them, even though at my size, I could be snickering too. I'm not real big...(enduring shrimp and other "pet" names) but I was born like that, and some people were born larger. No one deserves to have both the indignity of a scan AND have cracks made about them. That's just cruel.

That I Don't Really Know You

I'm sorry that I'm in love with you when I shouldn't be and nothing can come from it. I'm sorry that this heart of mine is so disloyal. I'm sorry my love isn't strong enough to pick one thing and really stick with it. I'm sorry that when he yells, that when he hurts me, I don't leave. I'm sorry that fighting back doesn't make it better. I'm sorry that you cherish me and tenderly care for me, and that I can't do anything in return. I'm sorry I'm so far away. I'm sorry that sometimes I use you for comfort. I'm sorry that I don't really know you.

So Arrogant

I'm sorry you're so arrogant that you don't think anyone is worth an apology.

I'm still waiting.

To Andy

Andy, I am sorry I ever met you.

That You Don't Even Notice Me

Im sorry that you don't even notice me!

im sorry that i ever noticed you

im sorry that you spent all that time fucking around with that bitch you call your "ex"? girlfirend,

im sorry that i harrassed her on myspace,

im sorry that you have to lie about "Business" trips to miami

im sorry that im mad at people i dont know when i should be mad at you

im sorry that i didnt stand up for you when people said you were gay, i was being spiteful,

im sorry that it seems like youv'e packed on a couple of pounds,and the only reason i want to see you is so that i might be finally turned off.

im sorry that when we used to hang, your breath used to smell, and i never said anything, but used to laugh about it behind your back with my friends.

most of all im sorry i couldnt tell you this to your face! ohwell at least i said sorry

I'm Sick of Competing

I'm sorry, but I think I have to break up with you. I'm sad and insecure and I'm tired of waiting for you to give her the boot. If you had the balls to have some sort of definitive conversation with her, I might be swayed to stay. But she knows all the right ways to manipulate you and you're weak, so I don't believe it will ever happen. I'm sorry my darling --- you were the one for me, but I'm sick of competing.

To My Piercer

i'm sorry i didn't tip you today when you changed my nostril screw for me. i promise to tip you next time. plase don't do a bad job on my next piercing because of this either. i'm grateful for all the beautiful art you have adorned my body with.

To the Cunts

To the cunts at Northern Kentucky Diagnostic center, I'm sorry I wasn't ultra skinny so you could stand to eat your lunch after my MRI. Sorry, I made your ugly ass take a step back from lil ole obese me. I am sorry that I wish you'd get your air fucking heads stuck in a coil and break your skinny lil fuckin neck. Oh, so sorry that you are small minded, I may be obese but I'm beautiful, just ask my husband who is sorry you didn't shove the co pay in your ass sideways.

A Perfect Situation

I'm sorry that I didn't have the presence of mind on Friday night to take your hints and make the move I should have. Such a perfect situation with all the right circumstances will probably never happen again. I'm sorry that you feel like you're "settling" for her.

That It Took So Long 2

I am sorry it took so long for me to tell you how I felt about you

I am sorry that you are too insecure to realize we could have been a perfect fit for each other years ago

I am sorry that you keep looking for affirmation and a sense of security from unavailable older women with baggage

I am sorry that I let you lead me on until you got what you wanted

And I am very sorry that you suck and that's sad

To Jess

Jess, Sorry I made you think I didn't care, and sorry I was uneccesarily bitchy at times... I wouldn't know what I would do without your friendship, I would be lost, and i care so much.. So I'm sorry... you know i love you

To All of You Who Are Hurting

I'm sorry that there are so many angry people out there, and I'm sorry that there are so many people out there who are negative and so focused on what is going wrong in their life that they cannot see all the wonderful things they have.

I'm sorry that so many people are hurting, and that sometimes it seems like it is never going to get better. But believe me, it will.

I know, who am I to tell you that your situation will get better? I don't know anything about you or what is happening in your life.

But I have been through a lot in my life, and it always seems to work out somehow - even when it looks like it never will.

I'm sorry to all of you who are hurting. My heart goes out to you, I've been there. I know how lonely it can be, but you are not alone.

You Were Married

I'm sorry you didn't tell me you were married, and I'm sorry I didn't realize it, because somehow I knew. I'm sorry that people get married when they aren't even in love and then one day it all goes bad. I'm sorry for Molly, and that I decided on you before I even knew you.

I'm sorry that you are not the first, and that the last time I knew what I was doing. I'm sorry that, even though I begged him to stay with her, he didn't. I'm sorry for her tears and everything he gave up.

I'm sorry that I kept things from you too, and for that reason I can't even be angry with you. Just incredibly sad. Most of all, I'm sorry that I can't allow myself to see you right now, because I love you.

Man-Mari

I'm sorry I called you Man-mari and that I probably hurt your feelings. It's just that your legs weren't shaved and you had thick eyebrows, so I just assumed you were a boy.

Please don't cry at night because of me!!!

I Don't Find Any of You Interesting

I'm sorry I don't find any of you interesting. I keep going out, and keep looking, but it never happens. Something tells me that "it's not you, it's me" is finally applicable. Hopefully one day I'll change, but until that day comes, I suppose this is all I can say.

Evan Dando

I'm sorry I laughed out loud at you the other day when you referenced Evan Dando, that guy from the Lemonheads.

The very fact that I--unlike everyone else in the room at the time--didn't have to ask "who's Evan Dando?" clearly goes to show that I understood your reference. And if it was a reference that made you deserve being laughed at, then I suppose I deserved to be laughed at as well for having understood the reference.

So, anyway, I'm sorry about that. I'm seriously going to try to obnoxiously laugh at you less often (and in front of fewer people) from now on.

Wasted Time

I'm sorry I wasted so much time with you, you fucking bitch.

To My Former Boss

I'm sorry I acted like a self-centered baby at work. I wish you didn't fire me, although I certainly deserved it. I miss my old workplace, the people, the sunshine coming in the office window, et cetera.

Most of all, I'm sorry for the outrageous babyish way I acted after you let me go. I cannot believe I acted like THAT in response to my termination.

What a difference a year can make; my view has totally changed. I'm okay now. I hope you are okay and not too angry at me anymore.

Easier to Hate You

You were not the one who h/u with the boy im in love with. But you knew about it and didnt tell me. You are my everything, my best friend, that one person through it all. Im not mad at him, im not mad at her...but it will never be the same between you and me. Im sorry but its easier to hate you.

The Trip to Ikea

I'm sorry I yelled at you in Ikea today. The diarrhea from all that enormous Swedish meatball platter was just about to move from my colon to my anus, and all those screaming kids were really getting on my nerves. Also, I guess I just get tired of telling you the same shit over and over and over again. But, I love you no matter.

My Herpes

I'm sorry for lying to u and saying u couldn't get my herpes if I didn't have visible sores. It's less likely but still possible and I hope u dont get it. I'm sorry because I wanted to have sex with u and knew u wouldn't go for it if u knew the truth of the risk. I'm a selfish bastard and I'm sorry. But ur kinda selfish too since u wanted the sex but didn't bother to look up how contagious this is! So its not all my fault if u didn't do ur own research is it? I'm still sorry I lied though I don't think it's all my fault.

No Chance in Hell

I'm sorry you think there is a chance for us

Because there is no chance in hell

For Being in Love with My Friend's Girlfriend

I'm sorry I couldn't see you liked me back then because I was in pain and selfish. I'm sorry I wasted my time with someone else, and now you are as well. I should've figured this out. I'm sorry she's with you, because she's obviously clueless. She only knows how to obsess and you're just a trophy for her. I'm sorry she gets jealous whenever we have conversations in front of her. You know we can't help ourselves. I'm sorry I have a hint of regret in my eyes with every hello. It's so awkward.

I'm so sorry for being in love with my friend's girlfriend.

A Sick Day

to my boss-

i'm sorry i called in sick today when i really felt fine. i just felt like staying in bed curled up with my cat and having a three-day weekend. i promise to come in on monday!

So Much Hurt Because of You

I'm sorry I loved you. I'm sorry i cared. I gave you everything you wanted without hesitating. In return all i got was hurt. How can you treat me so bad when I am so good to you. All I ever wanted was to be with you and for us to be happy. Why was it soo difficult. You knew you had me wrapped around your finger and you took advantage of that. I don't understand why you are so cruel to me. I don't deserve this. I have so much hurt because of you.

Sorry I Had Sex with You

I'm sorry I had sex with you. I was miserable and lonely and you were beautiful. But you were 17 and I was 35. And even if what we did was legal in the state where we live, it's still morally wrong. I know it fucked up your head. I know it fucked up mine. I hope you will forgive me. I hope you will find real love that doesn't have anything to do with your beautiful body and the size of your cock. I miss being liked as a person by you. I miss being someone you could admire. I miss being a good role model.

For Taking You For Granted

Mum.......

I'm sorry I cut myself and that there's nothing you could do while it was happening.

I'm sorry I don't talk to you about the things that you believe to be important, I'm sorry I'm not the perfect daughter that I always wanted to be.

I'm sorry I feel sad about things that you could live through.

But most of all I'm sorry for taking you for granted because you're my mother.

I love you.

I Like Men

Dude, I'm sorry, but I could feel when you got aroused today. Intimately. You're hung like a horse. That must be nice.

Now, I like men. You certainly appear to like women. I understand guys can't help it from happening, and politeness dictates that I not draw attention to when a grown man can't control himself. However, I think politeness also dictates you remove yourself, readjust and get calm instead of grinning in that particularly foolish manner. I don't take it personally, it's not a testament to anything other than your properly functioning sexual organs, but I also cannot concentrate with it pulsing against me. I imagine you have difficulty as well. Bodies are real dumb, they just want to procreate, and my body doesn't care that you're a total ass, it just screams HAVE BABIES. It's extraordinarily distracting and not all together pleasant in its insistence. Your body doesn't really care about the situation, it just screams IMPREGNATE FERTILE FEMALE. I imagine it's not exactly what you want to be concentrating on all the time either. Please, do both of us a favor, and next time you get a little happy... enjoy your hand in the bathroom and come back when you're calmer.

We Can't Be Buddies

I'm sorry, we can't be f-ck buddies. That first night we tried was Waay too intense. Why else would you think I would assume that was more than sex? I didn't, but at the same time... you probably didn't overreact 'cause I got scared too. See, the problem is, I already love you. Not that silly romantic love, but that I Like you, you amuse me, you balance me out, let's be good friends kind of love. I try not to sleep with my friends... but you were so calm about it, and it was So easy for us to agree, that I had thought it would be a kind of getting to know you better kind of sex. Friendly sex? That was distinctly more than friendly sex and I didn't do it alone. So I'm sorry, if you ask me over again, I'm going to have to explain why I can't and really frighten you off. If you're not frightened... I'm going to cry.

For Farting (Audio Apology)

Right click to download this MP3.

Drunk and Cheating

I'm sorry for getting so drunk one night and cheating on you. I never meant for it to go that far. I'm sorry because I will probably never get enough guts to tell you, and I have to resort to a damn website. I am sorry. It was with your best friend and his fiance. A threesome.

I'm a horrible crule person and I am sorry.

I Am Sorry You Scare Me

Teresa I am sorry that you are the fattest ugliest skankiest skeez on the planet. Your hair looks like fish net and your face -- that face -- it is so freaking demented. You scare me. I am sorry you scare me. You look like you need some woman love. You are a loser girl.

To a Boss

I'm sorry I yelled at you. Thank you for not firing me.

That I No Longer Believe in You

I'm sorry that I find myself wishing that someday, you will know how it feels to be left in the way that you left me. I'm sorry for having such a negative and angry sentiment and at the same time, I'm sorry for wishing I could press a rewind button to a time and place when we might have been able to avoid this disintegration of our relationship. I'm sorry that I'm not able to find closure on my own -- each day that passes seems to open the wound a little wider instead of healing it. I'm sorry to myself for not being able to heal. I'm sorry that I can't get through a day without crying, and I'm sorry that you didn't leave me sooner. I'm sorry that spring, my favorite time of year, has been so sad and that even the lilac bush outside of our apartment building fails to make me smile.

I'm sorry that I wore my heart on my sleeve, and I'm even sorrier that I did so for someone so selfish. I'm sorry that Billie Holiday was wrong about easy living, and I'm sorry you were so able to convince me to unlock my heart. You were too young to understand how much this has cost me, but you aren't now and I'm sorry you're hiding behind your age...that is cowardly. I'm sorry that I never finished the Tent of Miracles -- I could use one now, and I know that any will be late in coming. I'm sorry that I have had to pack up every piece of you because to do otherwise will keep you embedded in my days and I can't stomach it, that I have had to buy new sheets and new bedding, that I cannot bear to eat because all food tastes of memories. I'm sorry to my body for depriving it so...

I'm sorry to your heart. I loved it in the face of challenges, in celebration of growth, in anticipation of change, and in spite of our individual shortcomings. I believed in your heart unconditionally, and I am sorry that I did. I am sorry that you fail to see the value of my heart, and that you fail to own your actions. I am sorry that I no longer believe in happy endings, and that I no longer believe in you.

To My Former Nanny

i'm sorry if my mom got really mad and screamed at you for thinking that you stole or broke the water jug, when really, i lost it in one of my trips. i'm sorry i never admitted that i lost it and let you take the blame.

Taxes and Tools

I'm sorry I spent our tax return on tools for my wood shop. That really pissed you off, didn't it? You're just too good a woman to yell at me about it, even though that's what I deserve.

For David and Brian Reimer

..I never met you..I never knew you..I learned of you tonight watching TV, and hearing what you went through, and thinking, you David would be the one person in the world I could identify with, and let you know that your suffering had not gone unnoticed. I would have never wanted you to feel as though you had no privacy or that the world was staring down on you..I would have done everything I could to gain your trust and show you true friendship, true kindness, and I was looking up what I could find on you when I heard of your tragic end..I am sorry you killed yourself, and I hope you found grace from a higher power given what you had suffered through...I know you chose the name David because of feeling like David in David and Goliath but in reality, you were Job. I am so sorry this life was so cruel to you. If I had only known you, I would have fought for you, I would have tolerated your fears and shown you strength unheard of, I would have shown you that the world could be kind. I will burn candles for you and your brother tonight, for the guilt you felt for his death, that was not your fault and that you did not deserve, for the passionate strength you displayed as long as you could do it, and for the shattering lack and failure of human kindness in your world. And I will remember you David..even though I never met you.

Sissy

I said you were a sissy. You're not. I was wrong. I'm sorry.

That I Haven't Been a Better Friend

I'm sorry that I haven't been a better friend. I've tossed you to the side for my own selfish concerns. I don't write. I don't call. I let your children grow up without knowing them. I am a selfish, bad, bad person that is going to rot in hell but I do feel very bad about it. I wish I could change. Sorry!

Your Wife

Your wife is irresponsible, mean, selfish and lazy. I can't tell this to your face because you're my brother and I love you, but I'm really (REALLY) sorry you're not man enough to leave her. You and your kids would be so much better off without her.

I Don't Like Your Children

I'm sorry - I don't like your children. You and your ex are terrible disciplinarians and your kids are horrendous. It'll never work between us because I'm a better parent than you.

To Those I Have Betrayed

I apologize to those I have betrayed

I apologize to those I have hurt,

I apologize to those I stole from,

I apologize to those I lied to,

I apologize to those I ignored,

I apologize to those I bother

I apologize, Mom, Michelle,Frank, Becky, Megan, Andy, Joey, Nick, Ian, Zulu, to those who I cant name aloud, I'm sorry...

But to the ones I'll never apologize to, you know who you are, my life is great without your drama.... Forever more.... 13...

The Worrying

I'm sorry I keep worrying that you'll fuck me over again.

Someone I'm Really Not

I'm sorry for trying to become someone I'm really not. All I wanted was attention from someone - someone who would stay and be friends with me. I had done so much pain to you, and especially letting 2 men back into our relationship, it's going to kill us. I wish I didnt let them back inside, because they both have no life. Sometimes, I think one of them wants to use me again.

For 2 years, I have tried to be a whore, and dress like one, so I can have guys talk to me. But, I know I'm engaged and I feel so pitiful for what I've been doing to myself for 2 years. I've smoked, drank, had sex - had guys give me money if I gave them something. I just want to have a change of heart and eventually everything will be fine for us once again.

I know I made promises to you and I break them. Maybe the problem of this relationship is me.