Submitted apologies posted by Joe as they're received.
4.30.2007
I'm sorry, but I really do think you're getting fat. I know you think you're one of those guys who can eat anything they want and never gain weight. Perhaps you were one of those guys when you were in your 20s and 30s, but I'm here to tell you that you're not anymore. I wish you would eat healthier food. I watched you eat nothing but junk food all weekend and said nothing. I loathe being in the role of nag, but I'm really worried about you. Also,it's selfish, you see: I want you to live a long and healthy life so that I can be with healthy, vibrant, energetic man for years and years to come. How are we going to enjoy our golden years together if you're sick from poor diet choices? Think about all the wonderful adventures we can have together once all the kids have started their own lives! I want us both to be in a position to enjoy our *entire* lives to their fullest. Please start taking better care of yourself, sweetheart. Do it for me and the kids. But mostly, so it for you. I love you.
The Doormat
I'm sorry that I was so easy for you to get over, that I wasn't good enough for you. I'm also sorry that I lowered my standards in hopes of finding someone else as fast as you had. Furthermore, I'm sorry that I still talk to you, making myself into your very own doormat.
4.28.2007
How to Fix Our Relationship
I'm sorry I can't figure out how to fix our relationship, and I'm more sorry that it feels like it's the typical thing--that I can't seem to get over a phantom relationship with an ex. I'm sorry I'm not sentimental enough for you, or about our history, and that I walk around the city citing examples of cool things that I've done with other people.
More than that, I'm just sorry I can't seem to love you enough. I really want to know how to change that part of myself so that I can.
More than that, I'm just sorry I can't seem to love you enough. I really want to know how to change that part of myself so that I can.
Medical Marijuana
i sorry for faking an illness so i can get a perscription for medical marijuana. it's the only way my mom will let me smoke in the house.
That I've Forgotten
im sorry im constantly pushing you away.
im sorry im allways making other plans to avoid you.
im sorry that i havent called in weeks.
im sorry im not ready to start again.
im sorry i keep you waiting up at night.
im sorry that i cant hadle getting close to you again.
but most of all im sorry that you still love me.
im sorry that you never were taught to let go.
im sorry that every thime you see the pictures on your walls your forced to remember.
i should have been around for you when you needed help.
im sorry that ive forgotten.
im sorry im allways making other plans to avoid you.
im sorry that i havent called in weeks.
im sorry im not ready to start again.
im sorry i keep you waiting up at night.
im sorry that i cant hadle getting close to you again.
but most of all im sorry that you still love me.
im sorry that you never were taught to let go.
im sorry that every thime you see the pictures on your walls your forced to remember.
i should have been around for you when you needed help.
im sorry that ive forgotten.
Genital Herpes
Im sorry I gave you genital herpes.......I wish it was me who was licking your clit.....then you kept fucking me, and it still felt good. My wish had come true... now we both endure the pain together.....but im still sorry. -To Leslie
Sorry it Took Me So Long
im sorry it took me so long
im sorry it took me so damn long.
im sorry it took me so much time to get over you when i really never have.
im sorry that when i look in the mirror and dont like what i see i can allways fine a away to take out my agression, hate, angst, and distain for the whole world out on you.
your my best friend.
the love of my life.
and i would know what to do with out you.
sorry.
im sorry it took me so damn long.
im sorry it took me so much time to get over you when i really never have.
im sorry that when i look in the mirror and dont like what i see i can allways fine a away to take out my agression, hate, angst, and distain for the whole world out on you.
your my best friend.
the love of my life.
and i would know what to do with out you.
sorry.
I Love U Dad
I never got to say i love u dad
Its been over a decade since u departed from our lives, but i still miss u. Im so sorry for all i did, and to this day i am sorry for not getting a chance to say i love u before u left... Until we meet again... I love u dad... RIP MRT
Its been over a decade since u departed from our lives, but i still miss u. Im so sorry for all i did, and to this day i am sorry for not getting a chance to say i love u before u left... Until we meet again... I love u dad... RIP MRT
Such a Fool
I'm sorry that I was such a fool as to fall in love with you. I'm equally sorry that you had never learned how to truly accept unconditional and profound love. I'm sorry that you did not show up last evening, because if you had, I wouldn't have to be sorry now for the pain you're probably feeling when I said goodbye.
That I Feel Empty Everyday
I'm sorry that I feel empty everyday.
I'm sorry that I can't pass through Berwick without crying.
I'm sorry that you didn't believe that I didn't cheat on you, because I did not, and never would.
I'm sorry that six years later you still consume my days and nights, even though I tried to forget, seems that my heart has a memory too.
I'm sorry that I will never see you again, and more sorry that even if I did, you could never love me again.
I'm sorry to people who eat strawberries, whom I throw dirty looks to because it reminds me of that bath we took on my birthday. I'm sorry that all trainstations are tainted with your memory.
I'm sorry for not having the balls to stop loving you.
I'm sorry that for the rest of my days you will haunt me.
x
I'm sorry that I can't pass through Berwick without crying.
I'm sorry that you didn't believe that I didn't cheat on you, because I did not, and never would.
I'm sorry that six years later you still consume my days and nights, even though I tried to forget, seems that my heart has a memory too.
I'm sorry that I will never see you again, and more sorry that even if I did, you could never love me again.
I'm sorry to people who eat strawberries, whom I throw dirty looks to because it reminds me of that bath we took on my birthday. I'm sorry that all trainstations are tainted with your memory.
I'm sorry for not having the balls to stop loving you.
I'm sorry that for the rest of my days you will haunt me.
x
Awful and Beautiful Memories
You still come downstairs several times a day. You're so light on your feet. I love your long, sweeping winter coat that brushes the top of each step as you go. I have to hear these lovely sounds every day. Every single day.
Everything transpires as though nothing happened. When we sit amongst the others in the board room, they'd never know of our long talks over glasses of cheap house red, or our walks through the snow to the train station, or the way you held me right in the midle of downtown traffic inside the blurring city lights.
I'm sorry for the fact that I can't push these awful and beautiful memories out of my head.
And you'll never know.
Everything transpires as though nothing happened. When we sit amongst the others in the board room, they'd never know of our long talks over glasses of cheap house red, or our walks through the snow to the train station, or the way you held me right in the midle of downtown traffic inside the blurring city lights.
I'm sorry for the fact that I can't push these awful and beautiful memories out of my head.
And you'll never know.
Honest and Happy
R,
I'm sorry, all I want for you to is to be honest with me, and happy. But you seem so down lately all I want to do is make you happy but I'm getting so frustrated and feel selfish when there is nothing I can do to help you.
I really really care about you.
But at this point I'm leaving it up to you reach out I can't try anymore.
A.
I'm sorry, all I want for you to is to be honest with me, and happy. But you seem so down lately all I want to do is make you happy but I'm getting so frustrated and feel selfish when there is nothing I can do to help you.
I really really care about you.
But at this point I'm leaving it up to you reach out I can't try anymore.
A.
Choosing to Die
I'm sorry you keep choosing to die. You have every tool, every opportunity and plenty of supportive people who love you to help you but instead you choose death every single time.
I'm sorry but i can't be part of your life anymore. Not even as a friend. It hurts too much to keep watching you kill yourself over and over. It sucks thinking you're dead when I don't hear from you for days at a time.
I don't deserve to worry about you all the time. You don't deserve my concern and care when you are so obviously unconcerned and careless with yourself.
I'm sorry i ever got to know you well enough to like you so much. I wish you were an asshole so i could hate you but you're not and that sucks too.
Most of all, i'm sorry for your sons that have to suffer while you keep choosing your addiction over them.
Please choose to live. They deserve to have a father-you deserve to have a life.
I'm sorry but i can't be part of your life anymore. Not even as a friend. It hurts too much to keep watching you kill yourself over and over. It sucks thinking you're dead when I don't hear from you for days at a time.
I don't deserve to worry about you all the time. You don't deserve my concern and care when you are so obviously unconcerned and careless with yourself.
I'm sorry i ever got to know you well enough to like you so much. I wish you were an asshole so i could hate you but you're not and that sucks too.
Most of all, i'm sorry for your sons that have to suffer while you keep choosing your addiction over them.
Please choose to live. They deserve to have a father-you deserve to have a life.
4.27.2007
Sorry I Pushed You Away
So, I don't like you. It's nothing you did or said... um... it's just who you are. I wish I could say it to your face, but some people (all men) would call that "catty." I disagree. You see, some girls (like you) are a waste of my attention because they're unreliable: they steal men, not have my back if I showed up sobbing when some guy had dumped me, and not tell me if I have something gross coming out of my hose. Now for men, these girls are are Always there, always perfect, and always hot. I know this is you, because I've SEEN how you treat your current girl friends, and how devoted you are to the guys. So while I respect your devotion to men, and I do beleive you are honestly friends with them, I have no interest in being friends with you no matter how nice and ingratiating you are in my prescence.
I sense that you understand this and are not sorry too since it makes me look bad.... and that is where we come down to what I am sorry about.
I Am sorry if my attitude towards you makes me appear like a bitch. You see, this guy who I like quite hopelessly, is cordial to you and I fear he would not understand if I explained since you've only been wonderful to him. I would be pretending to like you just in order to please him, but you're so offensively useless to girls, I'm sorry, I just can't.
On a side note to the guy I like hopelessly: Hello captain obvious. That giving me my watch back...not subtle. I'm sorry I pushed you away when you were hugging me. It was one of those we've-had-sex-hugs and you were going to broadcast that everyone. It really didn't help that when I started to squirm and you said "Sorry, I forgot." You didn't forget, and you left stubble rash on my neck ON PURPOSE. And you've gone back to staring.
I sense that you understand this and are not sorry too since it makes me look bad.... and that is where we come down to what I am sorry about.
I Am sorry if my attitude towards you makes me appear like a bitch. You see, this guy who I like quite hopelessly, is cordial to you and I fear he would not understand if I explained since you've only been wonderful to him. I would be pretending to like you just in order to please him, but you're so offensively useless to girls, I'm sorry, I just can't.
On a side note to the guy I like hopelessly: Hello captain obvious. That giving me my watch back...not subtle. I'm sorry I pushed you away when you were hugging me. It was one of those we've-had-sex-hugs and you were going to broadcast that everyone. It really didn't help that when I started to squirm and you said "Sorry, I forgot." You didn't forget, and you left stubble rash on my neck ON PURPOSE. And you've gone back to staring.
A Family Influence
I am so sorry that I let my family influence my life. I am so sorry that I had you arrested for something that did not happen. I am sorry that I allowed them to convince me to do so. I wish I could turn back time back to that day in November, and re-do everything that happened. I am so sorry that you had to leave. I am sorry that you cant trust me, I pretty much deserve that. However, if you let me, I will spend the rest of my life making this up to you Scott....You are my life, my love, my heart and soul. These last six months without you have been pure hell. Please allow me to appologize, and make this up to you. Please don't shut me out. Please forgive me....I love you...forever and always. D
The Way You Wanted to be Loved
I'm sorry I never loved you the way you wanted to be loved. I'm sorry that your type of love was so different than that of my own. I'm sorry that took you for granted, and I began to doubt us from time to time. I'm sorry for hurting you because I did not show my love to you physically. I wanted to love you forever, and I wanted us to be together forever.. but I became "complacent" as you would say, and now the love is completely lost. Recently you've hurt me because you've found yourself in the arms of another, and now you two are falling for each other. The love that was once mine now belongs to another. The love that was for you has now dissipated, and I've moved on. I've dated your friends, but I've found myself to be single again because no one treats me the way you treated me.. and I know they cannot love me the way you loved me. I am sorry that we could not work out, if only I had tried harder. If only I had listened to what you said instead of ignoring the signs. Now it's too late, and I'm sorry that you're with someone else. I'm sorry.. because you still tell me that yo think of me sometimes when you're with her because what we had meant so much to you. Time, oh time, so much of you has passed. Now I walk along this path alone looking for someone else to love me the way you did, and I hope that they can look at me the way you did, treat me the way you did. I'm sorry we weren't forever.
4.25.2007
That I Still Dream of You
I wish I didn't still love you. I am sorry I wasn't good enough for you -- even though I felt you were unfair and very selfish. I could have tried harder to do things your way. I'm sorry, I just got tired of doing it. I am sorry I couldn't handle all your crap, because I loved you so much anyway.
I am sorry I still feel this way over three years later! I'm sorry I still can't get over our relationship. I know you have, and that kills me more than anything.
I'm sorry to my new fiance that she has no idea how I still feel about you and she never will. She loves me like I loved you. I couldn't break her heart like you broke mine. I'm sorry that, even though I will take care of her and be "satisfied," I'll never love her like I loved you.
I'm sorry that you and I will never be together again. I'm sorry for both of us. I finally gave up.
I'm sorry that I still dream of you.
TVF
I am sorry I still feel this way over three years later! I'm sorry I still can't get over our relationship. I know you have, and that kills me more than anything.
I'm sorry to my new fiance that she has no idea how I still feel about you and she never will. She loves me like I loved you. I couldn't break her heart like you broke mine. I'm sorry that, even though I will take care of her and be "satisfied," I'll never love her like I loved you.
I'm sorry that you and I will never be together again. I'm sorry for both of us. I finally gave up.
I'm sorry that I still dream of you.
TVF
What I Did Last Week
Im sorry I did what I did last week . Im sorry I blamed it on you. I m sorry that i dont think that Im good enough for you and Im sorry that im doing all that i can to make this not work . it would be nice if it worked , but i dont think i will let it and i am sorry
To Hannah
I'm sorry that I can't fucking get over you. I'm sorry that I love you so much that I bend over backwards for you. I'm sorry that I even fucking exist. I wish I could find someone else, just like you, who is NOT a manipulative bitch. I'm sorry that I love you. I really am. I love you, Hannah.
Apologizing for Things I Didn't Do
I'm mad at myself, not you. I'm mad for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn't do, for getting attached, for making you my life, depending on you, wasting my time on you, thinking about you, following you, changing for you, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you, and most of all... for not hating you which I know I should... but I can't. I'm sorry
Bad Hypocrite
I'm sorry that I either helped others or others helped me with homework assignments. If this is what people call "cheating", then yes, I'm guilty. I'm also we got lazy and didn't change the answers. Bwahaha. Whatever. I still get a A/B in the class unless the dumb teacher decides I should fail because I've been caught twice.
I'm also sorry that I've used someone to make me feel better and then discarded them. I'm sorry I accused someone of doing it when I did it some time later to someone else. Bad hypocrite, bad.
I'm also sorry that I've used someone to make me feel better and then discarded them. I'm sorry I accused someone of doing it when I did it some time later to someone else. Bad hypocrite, bad.
More Sorry for Me
J.
I love you. I've never felt this way before. You made me feel for the first time in my life. I gave you my virginity. You think that your not worth my time, and that i should find someone that is. I am sorry you feel that way. Sadly i am more sorry for me, because i love you, i dont know how you feel, and because you still love your ex. I'm sorry that i want to leave, but wont, and that in the end, you will just be hurt even more by me.
I love you. I've never felt this way before. You made me feel for the first time in my life. I gave you my virginity. You think that your not worth my time, and that i should find someone that is. I am sorry you feel that way. Sadly i am more sorry for me, because i love you, i dont know how you feel, and because you still love your ex. I'm sorry that i want to leave, but wont, and that in the end, you will just be hurt even more by me.
Let it Go
I'm sorry that I will never be enough for you. I'm sorry that, despite my many attempts to connect with you emotionally, I always fall short. I'm sorry that I still let you get to me. It has been two years since we broke up and I'm sorry we still talk. I'm on an emotional rollercoaster when it comes to you. I'm sorry that I have held firmly to the delusional idea that we can still be friends and that I have grasped on to any pathetic and weak resemblance of such. You have a way of continuing to hurt me over and over again and I'm sorry I have continued to take it. I don't need this in my life, and I'm sorry I haven't had the courage to cut off all contact with you and allow myself time to heal. I'm not sorry we had the relationship we did, but I am sorry that it has taken me this long to let...it....go........
4.24.2007
From a Roommate
I'm sorry Karen that I am not good enough of a roommate for you and that you always feel the need to treat me like I dont know what the heck I am doing half the time. Just because I am disabled doesnt mean that I am retarded. You leave me with your kid every night and dont worry about her but when it comes to soda and cheese you freak out like its the end of the world. get over it please.
A Failed Marriage
I'm sorry that I gave up on our marriage. I was an utter fool who could not see what was right in front of him. I'm so sorry that you cried while I talked to another woman on the phone and told her I loved her where you could hear it. I should never had said what I said that Sunday morning. I hate myself for what I have done and what I have thrown away. I hope you can see me in a better light one day, at least for the sake of our children.
I miss you so much, and my life feels all but over.
I miss you so much, and my life feels all but over.
4.23.2007
You Deserve What You Want
i am just so sorry for everything. I love you and I want to be enough for you but I also know that I shouldn't change who I am for you. I have to change for me and right now those changes are farther off than you would like. You deserve what you want and I deserve to be loved the way I am.
The New Guy at Work
I am sorry that I can't stop thinking about the new guy at work. I know that I have the most wonderful man on earth. I am sorry that we both flirt with each other, and I am sorry that I sometimes wish it would go farther.
For the Way it Happened
I'm sorry that I hurt you. It's the right thing to be apart but I will always be sorry for the way it happened because I loved you with my entire soul. I hope someday you'll see that.
Your Life is Shit
I'm sorry it's fun to laugh at you. You're a drunk, you've lost your daughter and your job, you go on drunk mid-night rampages and impotently scream at your ex-girlfriends' houses, and you get arrested for knocking over park toys. I should feel sorry for you but it's all your fault and when you scream, you cry and you slur and you weave all over without falling down like a Weeble-Wobble and it's just too funny. I'm sorry your life is sh*t and I'm sorry it amuses me.
Sorry and Humiliated
I'm sorry and humiliated that I allowed you to see me totally shit-faced. I completely regret having spent that time with you. Even though nothing inappropriate went on, I should never have believed it was okay to spend time with you that way. I'm sorry you believed it was okay to profess your love for me when you know I could never, in a million years, do anything about it.
That I Was Never Good Enough for You
I'm sorry that I was never good enough for you and that you had to find someone else (many someone elses) to fill the void that I somehow had left in your heart during our marriage. I'm sorry that I didn't love me enough to stop you from beating on me and belittling me as much as I let you. I'm sorry I didn't forcce you to get hte help you so desperalty needed; for that would mean telling on you and betraying our relationship. I'm sorry that I became a person that I hated and felt was never good enough or ever would be. I'm NOT sorry for leaving you, I'm not sorry for making sure my kids were safe from you, I'm not sorry for demanding in court that you care for your children and your financial obligations, for walking out of your life and never looking back. I am sorry for the woman you married so quickly after our divorce, for her children who will one day become the object of your anger. I'm sorry for not wanting our children in the middle of that again. I'm sorry that filing assault charges against you didn't wake you up...that you continue to try to tear me down even tho it is killing your children. I'm NOT sorry for being strong, independent, and far above anywhere else you settle your lying, cheating, abusive, controling, manipulative self.
A-Rod
I'm sorry that even the mighty A-Rod was unable to carry his ailing team to one lousy victory over those scruffy Red Sox this weekend.
In Love with Your Boyfriend
I'm sorry that I am in love with your boyfriend. I'm sorry that he loves me too and you know this but won't let go of him. I'm sorry I can't find someone else who makes me laugh like he does. I'm sorry that he met you first.
That I Dream the Same
I'm sorry that I dream too, that I dream the same. I'm sorry that our situations keep us apart.
And I'll give up forever to touch you, cause I know that you feel me somehow. You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and I don't want to go home right now. And all that I taste is this moment, and all that I breathe is your life. When sooner or later it's over, I just don't want to miss you tonight.
XO
And I'll give up forever to touch you, cause I know that you feel me somehow. You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and I don't want to go home right now. And all that I taste is this moment, and all that I breathe is your life. When sooner or later it's over, I just don't want to miss you tonight.
XO
Not Allowed to Fall in Love
I'm sorry I'm not allowed to fall in love with you, that I have to hide my true thoughts for the sake of our friendship, that I'm not allowed to put them into words for the one person who needs to know.
I am sorry this has created so many awkward silences, I'm not usually this quiet - in my head I'm saying so many things but can't let them out. From the outside I must seem bored.
I am sorry this has created so many awkward silences, I'm not usually this quiet - in my head I'm saying so many things but can't let them out. From the outside I must seem bored.
A Deadly Combo
I'm sorry you were a teenage prostitute, and still believe you are worthless.
I'm also sorry you're stupid. What a deadly combo.
I'm also sorry you're stupid. What a deadly combo.
What Happened Last Night
I'm sorry about what happened last night. I am not sure how things went the way that they did, but I am sorry for saying things that obviously upset you. I like you so much, I just want things to work out between us. But why dont you trust me? You act as if I have some other motive besides just wanting to be around you. What can I say? You make me smile, you make me happy. But then you turn around and act like a complete jerk. I just dont get it. So I'm sorry....sorry that you dont trust me, and sorry for what I said.
Sorry You Are Miserable
I'm sorry you are miserable most of the time. I'm sorry you have a disease that decides how you feel every day. I'm sorry that I don't want to be apart from you even though I feel it's bringing me down in school and emotionally. I'm sorry I'm starting to feel less and less like spending the rest of my life with you.
Oh Darling Roommate
I'm sorry I freaked because you've been treating me like I'm incompetent, oh darling roommate. Yes, I put too much water in the pot. I get it, but I really am not an idiot. Also, please stop doing everything for me-I am an adult-I would appreciate it a whole lot more if you'd just let me screw it up! Stop taking my plants and dumping out the extra water out of them- there really isn't extra water in them-because the very next morning they are dry as rocks! I'm sorry you thought I did exactly what dominique does. She acts the way she does because you treated her the same way! DUH! I'm sorry I can't live up to this image you have of me. I'm sorry I'm childish-I just can't take your shit! I'm sorry that I'm not ready to be the adult in this situation because I am, all to often, and I think it is your turn to take a look at yourself! I also think, dan, that you aren't the authority on maturity. I think you are a sad little fuck! And I'm sorry that I am really attracted to you. And James, I'm sorry you had to apologize for me several times, but it wasn't your place at all. When I'm ready, I will. I'm not ready yet. Accept it! I'm sorry too often I don't treat you right because I'm wrapped up in myself. I'm sorry I'm not %100 honest when I say I support you going into the military. Truth is, I'm terrified of losing you and you are the love of my life! I could never find anything better. I'm sorry I bring up that you cheated. Truth is, I don't think about it that much. And I really don't see it as a big deal. And damnit aimee, I hate that you do,because you are a hypocrite. You cheated on ryan how many times? Just because he doesn't know doesn't mean you are in any position to judge. I'm sorry you don't approve of my relationship, even though I know its because you can't stand your own. I'm sorry I thought about you killing yourself-and finding that I really wouldn't care all that much. I'm sorry that it really wouldn't phase me at all if I never saw you again. I'm sorry that I have to be the one to apologize just so I can sit in my own house for two weeks. James, I'm sorry I'm the one who is going to break up our little family. Yeah, mostly I'm just honestly sorry to James.
4.21.2007
For Not Having Fixed Our Region
I am sorry for not having fixed our region completly. I did the best I could and I loved every single second of my term and the past four years. I wish i could have done more. It's in your hands now. You can do what I could not (im sorry i dont really believe that) but i sure as hell hope you try.
respectfully submitted with undying love.
respectfully submitted with undying love.
Sorry I Haven't Said Anything
I am sorry I haven't said anything to you. You deserve it. I think you're waiting, though I can't be sure. The gift of your speech is such an easy one to give but it seems like it's one I'll never receive.
You Make Me So Nervous
I'm sorry you make me so nervous, but I'm even more sorry I make you so nervous.
I'm also sorry that your default conversational topic when you're nervous is always bread. Admittedly, it's kind of cute, but mostly, it's weird.
I'm also sorry that your default conversational topic when you're nervous is always bread. Admittedly, it's kind of cute, but mostly, it's weird.
Mass Murder
I'm sorry that this world has come to terms with death so much that a mass murder isn't even posted about on a board MEANT for apologies.
That I Dream
I am sorry I think about you when I shouldn't. I am sorry I want you when it is not allowed. I am sorry I have told you I loved you, and wished I could be with you when it is forbidden. I am sorry I stare at you to memorize every curve of your face and where every freckle is. I am sorry I let it hold me back and that I compare everone to you - and none come close - and that everyone sees it in my eyes. I am sorry I can't get it out of my mind... and that I dream.
Your hair is winter fire
January embers
My heart burns there too
Your hair is winter fire
January embers
My heart burns there too
I'm Sorry to the Girl in the Mirror
I'm sorry I let her down, she had so much potential.. physically, mentally, socially but I really let her down. I turned her into a mess and now she's a wreck from my actions, everything I've done and there's no one else to blame. I'm the reason she cries at night, the reason she hurts so badly and I'm so sorry.
I can't even bring myself to look at her anymore becuase of it. I'm embarrassed at the horrible job I did of looking after her. I just look at her and she's so sad, all the time, even when there's nothing to cry about I can see a sadness lingering behind her eyes that breaks my heart becuase its my fault. She didn't deserve this, she was just a shell with so much potential but I managed to break her every hope, motivation, dream and reason to live, laugh and love from the inside out.
She didn't used to be like this. So very few people know that, she used to be so happy, like every other child but somewhere down the line she was broken down. And it wasn't the bad relationships and it wasn't her being "unfortunate" in any way. It was me.
So I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I can't even bring myself to look at her anymore becuase of it. I'm embarrassed at the horrible job I did of looking after her. I just look at her and she's so sad, all the time, even when there's nothing to cry about I can see a sadness lingering behind her eyes that breaks my heart becuase its my fault. She didn't deserve this, she was just a shell with so much potential but I managed to break her every hope, motivation, dream and reason to live, laugh and love from the inside out.
She didn't used to be like this. So very few people know that, she used to be so happy, like every other child but somewhere down the line she was broken down. And it wasn't the bad relationships and it wasn't her being "unfortunate" in any way. It was me.
So I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
4.20.2007
That Screwdriver
I'm sorry I drank that screwdriver last night. I'm sorry I let my brain take over when it was not fully engaged. I'm sorry I forgot the importance of saying I'm sorry I was wrong, instead of being right. I'm sorry I forgot to take a step back. I'm sorry I almost threw it all away. And I'm sorry I've made such a mess of things.
An Apology to Come
I kept on letting my anger build up without doing anything about it over the past few months. Last night pushed me over the edge when you didn't even acknowledge that I was talking to you guys. But I'm not sorry yet. Maybe if you guys would grow up like the rest of the earth does, I wouldn't have said those things. Learn to take responsibility, and to stop acting like children, and then you'll get my apology.
-RJD
-RJD
4.18.2007
How Much You're Hurting
I'm sorry he won't do whats best for you.
I'm sorry you feel the need to live your life publicly.
I'm sorry you need the internet to feel confidant.
I'm sorry you need to feel powerful half a world away having no real idea of whats really going on.
I'm sorry you're a addict in denial.
I'm sorry you can't see how much you hurt those around you.
I'm sorry you can't see how much you're hurting.
I'm sorry you feel the need to live your life publicly.
I'm sorry you need the internet to feel confidant.
I'm sorry you need to feel powerful half a world away having no real idea of whats really going on.
I'm sorry you're a addict in denial.
I'm sorry you can't see how much you hurt those around you.
I'm sorry you can't see how much you're hurting.
I Can't Control My Anger
I'm sorry I can't control my anger. I'm sorry I can't bite my toungue and refrain from screaming at you when learn information that enrages me. I'm sorry I can't stop reading your blog or the blogs of your pathetic attention seeking blogging girlfriends. I'm sorry you're an alcoholic, and a freeloader, I'm sorry I can't be happy knowing you loved me more then all of them. I'm sorry I don't feel the slightest bit bad about knowing you told me you only told her you loved her to apease her. I'm sorry I won't stop until I prove I'm better then all of you, because I don't need a BLOG to make me feel important. Loooozah's!
To Luvoo
To Luvoo,
I'm sorry that our relationship isn't a safe place for you to fall. I'm sorry for seeing in you so much potential and hope that it suffocates you on occasion and stifles your own hopes and potential dreams. This is not what I am here to do.
I'm sorry that I'm older, that your experiences to date have been too much with me and not enough with yourself. I hope that this changes. I want it to, for both of us. I'm sorry that this pushes you away, and makes you question the extent of your ability to love.
I'm sorry for the two pregnancies, for the health issues, for keeping you here, in a place for which you have no passion. I'm sorry if all of these things have whittled away at your passions and I hope that you find them again.
I'm sorry for my impatience, my wants and wishes for steps way ahead of our current strides. This isn't fair. I know this. I'm sorry that I have pushed you beyond your comfort zone, into regions and emotions you are not ready to have.
I'm sorry for my jealousy, which is sometimes founded and sometimes not...whichever it is, at the end of the day, it doesn't matter a lick. Because it isn't generous, it isn't productive, it isn't who I want to be.
I'm sorry for sending olive branches via the internet, for hiding behind words instead of embracing action, for keeping you in a place where you don't want to be.
I'm sorry that all of this has meant that you have fallen out of love. I'm most sorry that this happened because of me.
P.
I'm sorry that our relationship isn't a safe place for you to fall. I'm sorry for seeing in you so much potential and hope that it suffocates you on occasion and stifles your own hopes and potential dreams. This is not what I am here to do.
I'm sorry that I'm older, that your experiences to date have been too much with me and not enough with yourself. I hope that this changes. I want it to, for both of us. I'm sorry that this pushes you away, and makes you question the extent of your ability to love.
I'm sorry for the two pregnancies, for the health issues, for keeping you here, in a place for which you have no passion. I'm sorry if all of these things have whittled away at your passions and I hope that you find them again.
I'm sorry for my impatience, my wants and wishes for steps way ahead of our current strides. This isn't fair. I know this. I'm sorry that I have pushed you beyond your comfort zone, into regions and emotions you are not ready to have.
I'm sorry for my jealousy, which is sometimes founded and sometimes not...whichever it is, at the end of the day, it doesn't matter a lick. Because it isn't generous, it isn't productive, it isn't who I want to be.
I'm sorry for sending olive branches via the internet, for hiding behind words instead of embracing action, for keeping you in a place where you don't want to be.
I'm sorry that all of this has meant that you have fallen out of love. I'm most sorry that this happened because of me.
P.
Sometimes Take You for Granted
im sorry that i sometimes hurt you and i dont even care when you mean the world to me and i love you, im sorry i sometimes take you for granted, i shouldn't,,,
He Liked Me More Than You
I'm sorry he liked me more than you.
I'm sorry he wanted to be with me and not you.
I'm sorry you couldn't accept that. I'm sorry you are jealous of me.
I'm sorry you look so desperate.
I'm sorry you are such a fool and will get hurt again by him.
He doesn't want you and never will.
I'm sorry he told me this and you will never see the truth.
I'm even more sorry I wasted so much time wanting to be your friend and caring what you thought of me, you really were not worth it.
I'm sorry he wanted to be with me and not you.
I'm sorry you couldn't accept that. I'm sorry you are jealous of me.
I'm sorry you look so desperate.
I'm sorry you are such a fool and will get hurt again by him.
He doesn't want you and never will.
I'm sorry he told me this and you will never see the truth.
I'm even more sorry I wasted so much time wanting to be your friend and caring what you thought of me, you really were not worth it.
Uncomfortable Situations
I'm sorry that my feelings for you sometimes put you into uncomfortable situations, but I am NOT sorry for feeling them.
You Lost Your Best Friend
i'm sorry you lost your best friend because of me. he loves me though, and for this to work, he had to stop speaking to you. you were a temptation, a reminder of the past, and he chose to let you go. i know you're angry that he won't return your phone calls or texts or emails, and i told him you should at least be told of his decision, but he decided not to communicate with you at all. i'm not sorry he chose me over you, but i am sorry you had to be the one to lose.
That I Hate Your Mother
I am sorry that I hate your mother. I was betrayed by her and I am not willing to go back and mend anything. I know this is hard for you and your family, but I do not care.
I am sorry that this didn't work the way we both wanted it too.
I am sorry that this didn't work the way we both wanted it too.
That I Have Come to Love You
I'm sorry that I have come to love you although I know I shouldnt have. 19 years may be too much for you, but I decided that it is okay and that we should at least give each other a chance. I'm waiting, and we only have 3 months left. C'mon...
Your Breath on my Cheek
I remember the night that we were the last ones in class. Jay had left. It was only you and I. We had all of those uncomfortable but exciting possibilities. Had.
I think of you still. I have dreams of you. They are sweet and happy.
We left the room that night still with unanswered questions, back in the solid footing of 'safe.' I'm sorry that I never felt your breath on my cheek.
I think of you still. I have dreams of you. They are sweet and happy.
We left the room that night still with unanswered questions, back in the solid footing of 'safe.' I'm sorry that I never felt your breath on my cheek.
To Hear You Say My Name
im sorry that you hurt me but i still would give anything to hear you say my name or just hear your voice im sorry you made me feel as low as i could possibly feel but sometimes my tears fall for you i shouldnt care but i still do and i cant live like this... i'm sorry i see you everywhere i go and picture your face when i close my eyes... i'm sorry that i constantly think about you when you probably dont at all..
4.16.2007
Expecting a Lot
im sorry but i am expecting a lot out of you for this...i asked because i love you and even though were not on good terms this goes far beyond one single night. please dont dissapoint me...please use this as a way to tell me and everyone close to me how much you too care. im sorry ill be mad if you dont do a good, meaningful job
That I Get So Mad
I am sorry that I get so mad at the people closest to me.. turning their lives into a stay in hell.I have tried to get them to accept that they can stop me from losing it just by telling me the truth when I ask a direct question... give me the straight truth! not some Bull shit...
I know it is still my fault for losing my temper regardless !
I know it is still my fault for losing my temper regardless !
To Zimbabwe
I'm sorry, Zimbabwe, that the world doesn't give enough of a shit about Africans to have to balls to euthanize that sorry sonofabitch you have been saddled with as President to off the bastard. I'm sorry no one supports the opposition, sorry Tsvangirai got beat up, sorry International Sanctions appear to be doing the same thing the ZANU-PF is doing, which is starving people to death.
To Your Wife B.
I apologize to your wife B.
She should hate me and she doesn't.
I still can't believe I fell for all your lies for over 7 years.
To think I almost destroyed my marriage of 31 years.
I am wiser now.
And I am smart and sexy and I don't need you P. to make me feel that way.
She should hate me and she doesn't.
I still can't believe I fell for all your lies for over 7 years.
To think I almost destroyed my marriage of 31 years.
I am wiser now.
And I am smart and sexy and I don't need you P. to make me feel that way.
4.15.2007
You Don't Have the Guts
I'm sorry that you don't have the guts to dump her. I'm worth it and I think you know it. I'm sorry that this is going the way it is. I'm going to be sorry when she finds out. I'm sorry that you are dating someone so screwed up and that you think thats what you deserve or that she the best you can do. I'm sorry that she has you trained that well. I'm sorry that you are a disappointment now. I'm sorry that you staying with her makes me think I'm the one that isn't worth it.
The Runaway
Hey...
I'm sorry that I ran away. You didn't even write his name, and for that I may never forgive myself.
I hope you can forgive me for what I did to you.
I'm sorry that I ran away. You didn't even write his name, and for that I may never forgive myself.
I hope you can forgive me for what I did to you.
I'm Sorry You Hurt So Badly
I'm sorry I didn't help you. I didn't know you were hurting. I would have done anything to save you.
It must have been easier for you to go than to stay. I hope you weren't scared. I hope it didn't hurt.
I miss you. I love you. I feel you around me sometimes and now I don't cry as much. I know you loved me and everything I need of you is inside of my heart.
I'm sorry you hurt so badly. I wish I could have helped you. I would have moved heaven and Earth.
It must have been easier for you to go than to stay. I hope you weren't scared. I hope it didn't hurt.
I miss you. I love you. I feel you around me sometimes and now I don't cry as much. I know you loved me and everything I need of you is inside of my heart.
I'm sorry you hurt so badly. I wish I could have helped you. I would have moved heaven and Earth.
That Sandwich
I am sorry to you, my friend, because I ate that sandwich in the refridgerator that you were saving to give to your dying dog. I didn't know, and it looked to delicious and I was hungry too. Besides, your dog is dead now so get over it. Maybe if I hadn't eaten that sandwich, he would still be alive. whatever.
My Parental Units
Mom and Dad,
I want to apologise to you for all those times I refused to listen and cooperate. I felt it was my job as a teenager to rebel against my parental units, but I never appreciated all you did more than right now. I must have been such a difficult child to handle, and then with 3 others to raise. I guess I wanted to stand out, but now I know I picked the worst way to do it. I love you more than anything, and I don't know what I'd do without you guys. I owe you my life, and for that, I can never repay you.
I'm sorry.
I want to apologise to you for all those times I refused to listen and cooperate. I felt it was my job as a teenager to rebel against my parental units, but I never appreciated all you did more than right now. I must have been such a difficult child to handle, and then with 3 others to raise. I guess I wanted to stand out, but now I know I picked the worst way to do it. I love you more than anything, and I don't know what I'd do without you guys. I owe you my life, and for that, I can never repay you.
I'm sorry.
I Just Hate Myself
i'm sorry that i say i love you, when really, i just hate myself. i'm sorry that i get mad at you for not loving me back, because i know that if you did, i would just hold on to it until i started to find some other kind of momentary happiness. i'm sorry that i'm going to hate you soon. i'm sorry that you're going to think it was because you've hurt me so much, and you're going to feel terrible. and really, everything i've felt, good or bad, regarding you has been entirely my fault.
i'm sorry that once i fully come to terms with the fact that i do not love you, i'm not even going to want you as a friend. and i know that through all of this, i've become an important part of your life.
believe me, you'll be better off when i'm gone.
i'm sorry that once i fully come to terms with the fact that i do not love you, i'm not even going to want you as a friend. and i know that through all of this, i've become an important part of your life.
believe me, you'll be better off when i'm gone.
4.14.2007
The Biggest Pain in the Ass
I want 2 apologise to you Asim H*, for being the biggest pain in the ass imaginable. I want to apologise for thinking to far ahead into the future and being so negative about us and I want to apologise for upsetting you and breaking your heart. I no I need to take life as it comes but I've been totally thinking im going to lose you. Now I have lost you it seems surreal. You dont understand how I feel. Everytime i've truly been happy in life, something has gone wrong. I dont know what to say. Im totally lost for words. But I really do love you Asim H*. I hope you can find it in your heart to accept my apology.
99% of the Time
i'm sorry that i continue to torture myself by staying with you.
my "big brothers" are right. you make me miserable 99% of the time.
i just love you too damn much.
either clean up your act or mess up real bad. i'm begging you.
my "big brothers" are right. you make me miserable 99% of the time.
i just love you too damn much.
either clean up your act or mess up real bad. i'm begging you.
From a Wife
I am sorry that I haven't been all that you need. Making our marriage work is the most important thing in the world to me. We have had an un-ending stream of stress and not so easy issues to deal with. I love you and I am sorry that I haven't made this past week any easier. Your Wife
All the Love Wasn't Enough
I'm sorry that a few of you gave me all the support you could manage but it still wasn't enough.
I'm sorry that in the end all the love wasn't enough. I'm sorry I'm leaving this mess for everyone else to deal with.
I'm sorry I gave up.
I'm sorry that in the end all the love wasn't enough. I'm sorry I'm leaving this mess for everyone else to deal with.
I'm sorry I gave up.
Pay Back
I'm sorry I didn't pay back your fifty dollars. I know you need it for doubleshots and snacks, and I have no right to keep your money. I ate out at expensive restaurants with my girl friends several times in the last week and I also purchased a thirty dollar tooth whitening kit. For that I am sorry.
I will pay you back when I get paid on the 25th.
I will pay you back when I get paid on the 25th.
4.12.2007
I'm Sorry I Flirt with You
im sorry i flirt with you. i know youre happy and were over and that is completly ok because i never let us become anything real and it was my fault. you had to move on. im sorry i still like talking to you and joking
To My Loved One
I'm sorry that I've been hurting you so much in the past, and lately I've been under a lot of stress. I've been taking it out on you so much, and to myself as well.
I want things to be better for us, baby. I wouldnt care to put you aside and I know that I've been a careless person towards you. I want this relationship to work out.
I want things to be better for us, baby. I wouldnt care to put you aside and I know that I've been a careless person towards you. I want this relationship to work out.
The Woman on the Internet
I'm sorry that I have hurt you in the past by talking to another woman on the internet. I know I'm responsible for my own actions, but I still feel I was driven to it by you. Now things are much better between us, but I am still talking to her. I'm sorry to continue to hurt you, but I'm so drawn to this other woman that I can't help myself. I will always love you, but in the end, it might be too late. You probably won't know for a long time though.
Sorry is Just a Word
i can choose to hate others
i can choose to my parents for my existence
but the only one i hate, is myself
for not cherishing life
for messing up
for wallowing in self pity
for losing control
so im sorry to those who tried so hard, so much, to help me, yet get nothing in return, their efforts only wasted on someone worthless.
but sorry doesnt mean a thing.
"sorry" is just a word.
i can choose to my parents for my existence
but the only one i hate, is myself
for not cherishing life
for messing up
for wallowing in self pity
for losing control
so im sorry to those who tried so hard, so much, to help me, yet get nothing in return, their efforts only wasted on someone worthless.
but sorry doesnt mean a thing.
"sorry" is just a word.
I'm Sorry, God
I'm sorry, God, that I didnt live up to what you wanted of me. I'm sorry I quit listening. I'm sorry I lied. I'm so sorry.
Still in Love 2
I am sorry i am still in love with you. We were together for about a year and a half and then out of the blue you just ended it. I hate you but i am so sorry i still love, more than i ever have. I am sorry that i miss you so much but you played with my mind.You just used me and then one fine day decided to throw me away. I am sorry to still be in love with you after all this. I know i will move in and i am so sorry that we are not even friends anymore. I was just so used to you and now you are gone.
I am sorry, but i can't get over you. I want to so badly, but i can't.
I am sorry, but i can't get over you. I want to so badly, but i can't.
Not a Very Good Boss
I'm sorry, but I just don't think you're a very good boss. You're a wonderful person. You're funny, personable, and kind. But you're also terrible at advocating for your staff. In your efforts not to micro-manage, you've succeeded in not managing at all. I made/saved over $1 million for our company last year and you barely acknowledged it. I love this company and I adore my colleagues, but if you don't shape up, I'm going to have to ship out. Sorry.
Sorry I Don't Like Games
I've accepted the reasons you "can't" be involved with me (despite their stupidity). Your friend asked me out, and I am trying to date him. No one Ever asks me out. I'm not attracted to him yet but it doesn't help that Your hands go on my behind (or WhereEVER) in an entirely too familiar way and you try start conversations when he's around. I ignore it, but he doesn't and I can't stand that he cares and that you do it. What is Wrong with you two? I may be pretty and soft, but I won't be forever, and meanwhile, I'm not a toy to play with or win.
I Don't have to be ANYTHING including civil to you. If I don't like your friend more on the next date, I will let him know as gently and firmly as possible, privately, and he can say or not say whatever he wants to to anyone who asks. Then I will give him space to find someone else who will appreciate him for the wonderful guy he is when you're not overshadowing him. And I don't have to be "fair" "logical" or "rational" about any of it. Logical feelings are only another way of lying. I'm sorry I don't like games.
I Don't have to be ANYTHING including civil to you. If I don't like your friend more on the next date, I will let him know as gently and firmly as possible, privately, and he can say or not say whatever he wants to to anyone who asks. Then I will give him space to find someone else who will appreciate him for the wonderful guy he is when you're not overshadowing him. And I don't have to be "fair" "logical" or "rational" about any of it. Logical feelings are only another way of lying. I'm sorry I don't like games.
For Everyone That Knows Me...
I'm sorry for being such a bitch to you all. Being needy when I'm down and then pushing you all away when things go wrong.
I'm sorry for my fantastic children, who need me, yet I'm too busy nurturing my misery and they don't deserve that.
I'm also sorry to Kevin, the best man in the world who treats me right. He loves me unconditionally, yet I've pushed him away too.
My doctor diagnosed me today as having bi-polar 2...now I have the reason as to why I am the way I am. Now I know I didn't do this on purpose.
I have to make it all up to you and I know that the past year, I've been a total nightmare to be with.
I'm sorry
I'm sorry for my fantastic children, who need me, yet I'm too busy nurturing my misery and they don't deserve that.
I'm also sorry to Kevin, the best man in the world who treats me right. He loves me unconditionally, yet I've pushed him away too.
My doctor diagnosed me today as having bi-polar 2...now I have the reason as to why I am the way I am. Now I know I didn't do this on purpose.
I have to make it all up to you and I know that the past year, I've been a total nightmare to be with.
I'm sorry
4.10.2007
That I've Cheated in the Past
I love you so much, and I want to get married to you - I'm sorry that I've cheated in the past. But I'm not the type of person you should get married to. I've cheated on you again, recently and I just want to forget about what I've done. I dont want you to find out, ever.
If I told you, I dont know what I would do... I know I'll lose you for good this time. So it's best if I just let it all go now, so I can be happy with you once more.
If I told you, I dont know what I would do... I know I'll lose you for good this time. So it's best if I just let it all go now, so I can be happy with you once more.
Goodbye Dear
im sorry im such an asshole. never listening to loved ones like yourself. i still love you but i guess that dosen't matter now. i'll never be the same now. i should have listened to you but i didnt. ill never be the same and you'll never talk to me again. as i lay down. i wonder why i was ever born. goodbye dear.
10 Fold
I'm sorry to see your ex broke up with you over a month ago for another man.
But I think it was your fault too, because you drove her away by controlling her every move, insulting her every chance you get, and then hitting her. You treated her like shit and that's exactly what you had coming to you. She was a great person and I did fall in love with her. I hope the other man treats her better than you did to her. You shouldnt even have a girlfriend after this one.
Remember that you tried to drive my fiance and I to a break up? Well, your dumb ass got what you deserve 10 fold this year.
But I think it was your fault too, because you drove her away by controlling her every move, insulting her every chance you get, and then hitting her. You treated her like shit and that's exactly what you had coming to you. She was a great person and I did fall in love with her. I hope the other man treats her better than you did to her. You shouldnt even have a girlfriend after this one.
Remember that you tried to drive my fiance and I to a break up? Well, your dumb ass got what you deserve 10 fold this year.
An Apology for the World
My apology is for all of the whole world, for my part, however small it may be, in helping to create and maintain a society in which the average person feels the need to apologize to someone/anyone to exonerate themselves for all the same basic mistakes that every person in the world makes over and over again. I also apologize deeply to the world itself for my part in not paying attention to its needs when we all should have, since we were all too wrapped up in doing things like making sure everyone's emotional needs were properly nanny coddled. I also apologize to anyone who reads this and gets offended in any way, but then again if you are offended you might want to think why.
The Use of Parents
mom-
im sorry that you think that i use you. i dont mean to. i swear. its just that i dont know how best to do some things. you know that. i know that youre the only person who has stuck with me all these years and i thank you. thank you
dad-
im sorry that you are just now realizing that i use you. dont try and be involved because it is way too late. way too late. you decided to get out of the picture, and you cant just pick and choose when you wanna reenter. its not fair to us. i realize that you went off and found something 'better' and made a new family and replaced everyone. but in case you didnt notice: you left us. we recovered. you kicked us out. we recovered. you found someone new. we recovered. you replaced me. we recovered. you got everything that we always wanted together with your new family. we recovered. you are now trying to replace the only person left who youre walking over. and guess what. she recovered. even before you did it. what now. who do you honestly think you are to walk back in our lives and try to be involved now. how do you figure that you are that goddamn important. we made a new life without you after you did the same. you cant have it both ways. i realize that you are now figuring that out. im sorry. i know it must hurt. but you hurt us. and didnt care. you shattered our lives, made us start over, and didnt batt an eyelash. you didnt lose one wink of sleep. i cant ever forgive you for that. sure, go live in your little fantasy world and tell everyone that everything is great and wonderful and perfect. but you have to live with yourself at night. look to you side. see that woman. thats what you left your family for. not so hot after the face is gone eh? the shine worn off now? new things get old quick. look down your hall. what do you see. a new kid. a replacement for me. and yet another. replacing the last of your old memories. and what happens after this? are you going to start over again? just keep making new families. so now as your sitting there wondering whats going on in those first childrens lives, think of this. you arent. you arent happening in our lives. you never will be. its over. you cant fix it now. ITS TOO LATE. GO CRUSH SOMEONE ELSES LIFE. PLEASE.
im sorry that you think that i use you. i dont mean to. i swear. its just that i dont know how best to do some things. you know that. i know that youre the only person who has stuck with me all these years and i thank you. thank you
dad-
im sorry that you are just now realizing that i use you. dont try and be involved because it is way too late. way too late. you decided to get out of the picture, and you cant just pick and choose when you wanna reenter. its not fair to us. i realize that you went off and found something 'better' and made a new family and replaced everyone. but in case you didnt notice: you left us. we recovered. you kicked us out. we recovered. you found someone new. we recovered. you replaced me. we recovered. you got everything that we always wanted together with your new family. we recovered. you are now trying to replace the only person left who youre walking over. and guess what. she recovered. even before you did it. what now. who do you honestly think you are to walk back in our lives and try to be involved now. how do you figure that you are that goddamn important. we made a new life without you after you did the same. you cant have it both ways. i realize that you are now figuring that out. im sorry. i know it must hurt. but you hurt us. and didnt care. you shattered our lives, made us start over, and didnt batt an eyelash. you didnt lose one wink of sleep. i cant ever forgive you for that. sure, go live in your little fantasy world and tell everyone that everything is great and wonderful and perfect. but you have to live with yourself at night. look to you side. see that woman. thats what you left your family for. not so hot after the face is gone eh? the shine worn off now? new things get old quick. look down your hall. what do you see. a new kid. a replacement for me. and yet another. replacing the last of your old memories. and what happens after this? are you going to start over again? just keep making new families. so now as your sitting there wondering whats going on in those first childrens lives, think of this. you arent. you arent happening in our lives. you never will be. its over. you cant fix it now. ITS TOO LATE. GO CRUSH SOMEONE ELSES LIFE. PLEASE.
Person That I Am Not
I'm sorry for not showing the kind of person that I am not... I'm such an emotional wreck and I seriously need help dealing with life. I cant take life's problems on others, so I delibrately hurt myself over and over, to say that I have a happy life. I try to smile, but it's so hard to smile when you're alone and you have no one to turn to.
To Our Customers
to our customers: we are sorry jessica a* on the service desk is very rude to all customers and has a lousy attitude. and we are sorry management refuses to discipline her.
That I Pushed Everyone Away
I'm so sorry for all the times that I pushed everyone away from me. I dont mean to be so rude, and there are times that I am. I want to be loved, and be strong for myself. It's so hard to be that kind of person, with the mental issues I have.
Personally, I think it's because of my past. My past hurts me so much that I distrust people now. I dont like having friends and my past is overwhelming me so much. I wish I can just let it all go and be happy with life, instead of letting this black cloud hanging over my heart. I'm always alone in this world because of the past. But I know eventually, it will make me strong, and have a better future
Personally, I think it's because of my past. My past hurts me so much that I distrust people now. I dont like having friends and my past is overwhelming me so much. I wish I can just let it all go and be happy with life, instead of letting this black cloud hanging over my heart. I'm always alone in this world because of the past. But I know eventually, it will make me strong, and have a better future
Your Sordid Crush
I'm sorry I ever found out about your sordid crush on your brother's wife. I hope you get over that shit.
Not the Kind of Daughter You Would Want
I am sorry that I'm not perfect to you mom and dad. I've tried my best to be everything you want, but you still push me like I'm some reject, not doing anything in life. I'm working and in college, and you still want me to do more stuff. As if homework piled to my neck isnt good enough. I wont be a doctor, I want to be a teacher or a journalist, and you guys really need to respect that. I'm sorry that I'm not the kind of daughter you would want. I am a tomboy, you been knowing that for years. I'm not some girly girl that you can just go to the mall with. I'm sorry that you dont like my fiance, either. So what if he's not white? So what if he just went to trade school? So what if he's 2 years older than me? And so what if he doesnt make decent money? Money is NOT everything in a man. I love this man, since high school. This man treats me like a queen, and he is a kind human being. If that dont make you happy, I dont know what will.
You're Not a Horrible Person
I'm sorry that I've hurted you so much in the past. I havent been living a good life, I'm not proud of what I did. Instead of helping you, I turned away, thinking you would be okay. I know things between us are deep, we were more than friends, we were lovers and brother and sister as well. We were that close to each other, no one really understood what went on between us, in or out of love.
Recently I hurted you again, and I feel like a fool for doing that to you. I'm not proud of myself for all of the stuff I said to you the other day. You're not a horrible person. I really wish I can take it all back. I'm so sorry.
Recently I hurted you again, and I feel like a fool for doing that to you. I'm not proud of myself for all of the stuff I said to you the other day. You're not a horrible person. I really wish I can take it all back. I'm so sorry.
Thank You Enough
To: From Someone Who Has Been There
I'm sorry i'll never be able to thank you enough.
chris.
projectwhat.
blindingsun.
I'm sorry i'll never be able to thank you enough.
chris.
projectwhat.
blindingsun.
It Will Be Special
babe
im sorry that i cant be what you want me to be. granted, i try, but i just cant be everything that you want me to be. you know that i would do anything for you, but i hope that you know that i mean within reason. i dont mean im just gonna spread for you or be you piece of ass. please dont try and make me that. i know as well as you do that me and you really care about eachother, and i dont want to lose that over something as stupid as a boner or wanting something. i realize that you do. and i will give it to you in time. trust me. please dont this means that i dont care about you or want what you want. trust me. i want it. but i dont want it to be wasted on some stupid whim. please understand. it will be special. i promise.
i promise
im sorry that i cant be what you want me to be. granted, i try, but i just cant be everything that you want me to be. you know that i would do anything for you, but i hope that you know that i mean within reason. i dont mean im just gonna spread for you or be you piece of ass. please dont try and make me that. i know as well as you do that me and you really care about eachother, and i dont want to lose that over something as stupid as a boner or wanting something. i realize that you do. and i will give it to you in time. trust me. please dont this means that i dont care about you or want what you want. trust me. i want it. but i dont want it to be wasted on some stupid whim. please understand. it will be special. i promise.
i promise
Self Apology
I'm sorry I don't have much confidence. I know I'm still young, and that my friends all tell me the same thing, but I just can't look at who I am and what I've done and be happy about it. I've tried to better myself, but I can't stick with it. This is who I am; I can't change though sometimes I want to so badly.
-RJD
-RJD
4.09.2007
That She Broke Your Heart
Im sorry that she broke your heart but some where inside of me i think that u deserve it. im sorry i care so much but im not sorry about how we are now. im glad we had become friends and i love you with all my heart dd. not only am i sorry but im thank ful...thank you for picking up my lost pieces and re-entering my life for the greatest friendship i could ask you for...now i see the 2 years spent together wasnt a waste i love you
An Apology for Two People
I have an apology for two people.
To the first, I'm sorry I felt so safe with you. When we first met, I could tell you anything. You were the first person that I could be completely open and honest with about whatever I needed to get off of my chest. I loved you, and you loved me. And then you disappeared for two years. I thought about you every day until a few months ago when I heard from you again. But it was different now. You were so excited, so happy to talk to me again. And then you talked less and less, and about a week later you stopped alltogether. Just like that, you were gone again, but this time I knew it was going to happen. I trusted you and I loved you more than anything, and once you knew that again after your two year absence, you left me for good. My deepest regret is that I let myself care so much for you when you didn't care about me. If you ever read this, then I don't ever want to hear from you again.
To the second person - I'm sorry I'm falling for you. In my eyes, you're the perfect girl, but someone already has you. I wish we could be together, but I have to accept the fact that it won't happen. I want you to know that I hope you have a happy life, and that I'll always cherish our friendship, even if it means burying my feelings for you. I need to say this one time, even though it won't be to your face because I don't want to ruin our friendship. I love you.
-RJD
To the first, I'm sorry I felt so safe with you. When we first met, I could tell you anything. You were the first person that I could be completely open and honest with about whatever I needed to get off of my chest. I loved you, and you loved me. And then you disappeared for two years. I thought about you every day until a few months ago when I heard from you again. But it was different now. You were so excited, so happy to talk to me again. And then you talked less and less, and about a week later you stopped alltogether. Just like that, you were gone again, but this time I knew it was going to happen. I trusted you and I loved you more than anything, and once you knew that again after your two year absence, you left me for good. My deepest regret is that I let myself care so much for you when you didn't care about me. If you ever read this, then I don't ever want to hear from you again.
To the second person - I'm sorry I'm falling for you. In my eyes, you're the perfect girl, but someone already has you. I wish we could be together, but I have to accept the fact that it won't happen. I want you to know that I hope you have a happy life, and that I'll always cherish our friendship, even if it means burying my feelings for you. I need to say this one time, even though it won't be to your face because I don't want to ruin our friendship. I love you.
-RJD
Why Can't I Be You
im sorry i cant hate YOU
im sorry i cant relate to YOU
im sorry i cant understand YOU
im sorry i cant believe in YOU
im sorry i cant feel sorry for YOU
im sorry i cant be strong like YOU
im sorry i cant love YOU
im sorry i cant give YOU advice
im sorry i cant help YOU out
im sorry i cant give YOU hope
im sorry i cant give YOU strength
im sorry i cant help YOU see
im sorry i cant help YOU be
im sorry i cant see YOU through
im sorry i cant be YOU
im sorry i cant relate to YOU
im sorry i cant understand YOU
im sorry i cant believe in YOU
im sorry i cant feel sorry for YOU
im sorry i cant be strong like YOU
im sorry i cant love YOU
im sorry i cant give YOU advice
im sorry i cant help YOU out
im sorry i cant give YOU hope
im sorry i cant give YOU strength
im sorry i cant help YOU see
im sorry i cant help YOU be
im sorry i cant see YOU through
im sorry i cant be YOU
From Someone Who Has Been There
To: My Heart Came Undone
From: Someone who has been there..
When the pain outweighs the resources, that is when suicide seems the easiest answer...But here it is...I'm sorry you feel you must do that. Its completely your choice, we have the choice to let life kill us, or go naturally by virtue of living a long life. I know. I've hung myself 6 times and no one knows it. I fail each time and I don't know why. It has to be a sign and I don't believe in coincidences anymore. I haven't in a year tried to kill myself though because the last time, I woke up after passing out from it, with my ex's belt still attached to my throat, still attached to the hook above the closet, realizing, that the braided belt had broken. I realized, there must be a reason. Maybe you are that reason. Maybe the gamble of love and happiness coming back to me again is...after all..life is nothing but a gamble..But since my last attempt last September, I have posted a lot on the things that led me to those deep deep points, and I know how it feels, wanting to commit suicide and doing the research on how to be successful and feeling myself quite the failure for getting even that wrong. The thing is...I am failing at the things I *should* be failing at, because life is trying to point me in a different direction. It might be doing that to you as well. You should know this, love and feelings of deep love affect your addiction centers in your brain..the withdrawal you go through when someone has broken your heart, is the same level of withdrawal and shows up in the same area as addicts going through withdrawal. If you don't believe me, look it up on medical websites, its true. Its why it hurts so much, to feel so badly that we are unraveling. The thing is..some of this is chemical and some of it can be combated with your mind, you don't have to give up. If you give up, you have let whatever it is that is bedeviling you, win. At some point, you have known happiness, my friend, which is why you can feel as badly as you do now, because you have known happiness, and the happiness has left...but you can know happiness again..You aren't alone, and you don't have to be miserable. Don't give up on you, you are the only one in the world who can save you now...All we can do is encourage you to be brave enough to stay and fight. I am on the wall of whether I am believing in a higher spirit or an afterlife but I view suicide as this now... If there is no afterlife, then I gave up a fabulous one time offer to make a difference in this world and not let myself die...And if there is an afterlife, then whatever higher force exists is not gonna be happy that I gave up, when they devoted so much time into deciding to take a risk and make me. And if there were not bad problems or bad people in the world, there would be nothing for us to use as comparison to be able to see the good in ourselves. Don't give up. Fight. Stay. Live.
From: Someone who has been there..
When the pain outweighs the resources, that is when suicide seems the easiest answer...But here it is...I'm sorry you feel you must do that. Its completely your choice, we have the choice to let life kill us, or go naturally by virtue of living a long life. I know. I've hung myself 6 times and no one knows it. I fail each time and I don't know why. It has to be a sign and I don't believe in coincidences anymore. I haven't in a year tried to kill myself though because the last time, I woke up after passing out from it, with my ex's belt still attached to my throat, still attached to the hook above the closet, realizing, that the braided belt had broken. I realized, there must be a reason. Maybe you are that reason. Maybe the gamble of love and happiness coming back to me again is...after all..life is nothing but a gamble..But since my last attempt last September, I have posted a lot on the things that led me to those deep deep points, and I know how it feels, wanting to commit suicide and doing the research on how to be successful and feeling myself quite the failure for getting even that wrong. The thing is...I am failing at the things I *should* be failing at, because life is trying to point me in a different direction. It might be doing that to you as well. You should know this, love and feelings of deep love affect your addiction centers in your brain..the withdrawal you go through when someone has broken your heart, is the same level of withdrawal and shows up in the same area as addicts going through withdrawal. If you don't believe me, look it up on medical websites, its true. Its why it hurts so much, to feel so badly that we are unraveling. The thing is..some of this is chemical and some of it can be combated with your mind, you don't have to give up. If you give up, you have let whatever it is that is bedeviling you, win. At some point, you have known happiness, my friend, which is why you can feel as badly as you do now, because you have known happiness, and the happiness has left...but you can know happiness again..You aren't alone, and you don't have to be miserable. Don't give up on you, you are the only one in the world who can save you now...All we can do is encourage you to be brave enough to stay and fight. I am on the wall of whether I am believing in a higher spirit or an afterlife but I view suicide as this now... If there is no afterlife, then I gave up a fabulous one time offer to make a difference in this world and not let myself die...And if there is an afterlife, then whatever higher force exists is not gonna be happy that I gave up, when they devoted so much time into deciding to take a risk and make me. And if there were not bad problems or bad people in the world, there would be nothing for us to use as comparison to be able to see the good in ourselves. Don't give up. Fight. Stay. Live.
I'm Sorry I Hate You
I'm sorry I hate you. I've never hated anyone in my life. You're the first one, and I'll always feel badly about that.
Saying Sorry to Myself
I'm sorry I pretend I'm ok when I'm not, that I pretend nothing bothers me and put on this smile and then cry myself to sleep, I'm sorry I can't get his face and his voice out of my head and that whenever I'm feeling down, or even an ounce of sadness I think about what we had and use it as the reason for my tears. I don't even know who I am apologizing to, I'm saying sorry to myself, because I'm stuck in this ridiculous fucking rut.
Sorry I Can't Take Back MySpace Messages
it took a lot of time and energy to attempt to forget your impact on my life, and realize you wouldnt be there anymore.
Then I found out you were in a hospital and I just KNEW. I felt all your bad days when I was in florida. I KNEW something was off with you. I KNEW exactly where you were and why. Before anyone.
I bet I was the only one to come visit you. I gave you my monkey and a letter and some pictures. Im sorry you havent called me yet. Your out. Im sorry I sent those angry myspace messages before i knew everything and now youve just read them. Im sorry i miss you and my monkey.
im sorry i can't take back myspace messages. because now once again im sure ill have to try to forget you again.
Im sorry I dont want to.
Then I found out you were in a hospital and I just KNEW. I felt all your bad days when I was in florida. I KNEW something was off with you. I KNEW exactly where you were and why. Before anyone.
I bet I was the only one to come visit you. I gave you my monkey and a letter and some pictures. Im sorry you havent called me yet. Your out. Im sorry I sent those angry myspace messages before i knew everything and now youve just read them. Im sorry i miss you and my monkey.
im sorry i can't take back myspace messages. because now once again im sure ill have to try to forget you again.
Im sorry I dont want to.
Two-Faced Bitch
I'm so sorry. I wrote this girl a really bitchy email from someone else's email account with my friends and it was so mean and horrible. And now everybody knows but I just can't come clean. I really jsut don't want to be hated. I am such a two faced bitch though. I am manipulative and I hurt people. I only have one friend that I never betray and that's downright pathetic considering I have many friends. But I just hurt and backstab them again and again and lie all the time. I am never really happy anymore, knowing that I actually do not really have a consiounce of however you spell it. I double play people and the worst part is no one even thinks I am a bitch because I am so good at hiding it and winning sympathy even from the people I hurt. I'm so sorry H.
I Am Not Ready
i'm sorry that after a year and a half of you being the best part of my day, i am not ready to just abandon this because i'll be going to school 45 minutes away.
its not that far. we can make it work.
if you want it to that is.
otherwise i'll just be heartbroken instead.
its not that far. we can make it work.
if you want it to that is.
otherwise i'll just be heartbroken instead.
The Betrayal Cut Too Deep
I'm sorry that I want so much to trust you, but can't. The betrayal cut too deep. I love you, but it would take an enormous leap of faith to believe that you won't fuck me over again.
The Biggest Lie
I am sorry people but the biggest lie is "there's someone for everyone." Np there isn't. There are just certain kind of guys females don't want. I'm sorry to tell you that people.
Stupid to Believe
I'm sorry I was stupid to believe Natalie K when she lied that the other girl "she likes you she really really likes you she really really really likes you" that I got fit and lost weight for 3-1/2 months. I'm so sorry Natalie lied. I'm sorry Natalie is a heartless bitch! Rot in hell Natalie K*!!!
That I Have to Pay Girls
I'm sorry that I have to pay girls to hug me. I'm sorry I have to pay girls to go to the movies with me. I'm sorry I have to pay girls to sit and chat with me at the coffee shop. I'm sorry I was ever born.
If I Scare You
I'm sorry if I scare you.. I don't mean to, really. I mean I guess you already figured that but I really hope I don't, I could really readily understand if I did but I hope I don't. You know I'm really just sorry for being sorry for so much.. becuase it comes off so "poor me" which is really a joke becuase I have so much, sure I want things too. Well correction I want "A" thing, no guesses as to what it is. But I really do have so much so I shouldn't be whining all the time.. sorry about that and thanks for putting up with me.
I'm sorry I can't be normal, I just can't, I'm weird, I'm paranoid, overprotective, rude, jealous, emotional and clingy and I can't change any of that. The only thing I can hope is that you can deal with it and I apoligise in advance for all the times I'm going to drive you insane becuase of it.
I'm sorry I still can't let it go and it doesn't look like I'm going to, not soon anyway. I'm sorry I'm thinking about using somebody with the intention of continuing telling them lies about thinking about them and wanting them when you're all that's on my mind. I'm sorry to her, I'm sorry if we do end up in a relationship for her not being the only girl for me or even the most important one. I'm sorry for just having the intention of using her to get over you. She's a person too... and you just can't mess with people's hearts like that, I know that. But at the same time it's always going to repeat the same scenario like when I'd just met her, this sexy, smart, funny girl but all I can think about at night is who's kissing you or even looking at you. It drives me crazy and there's something twisted about that.
I'm sorry, I will do the right thing, I won't do wrong by her if we end up as something more but I can't promise that I can forget you or even stop thinking about you like this becuase that'd be a lie. I love you.
I'm sorry I can't be normal, I just can't, I'm weird, I'm paranoid, overprotective, rude, jealous, emotional and clingy and I can't change any of that. The only thing I can hope is that you can deal with it and I apoligise in advance for all the times I'm going to drive you insane becuase of it.
I'm sorry I still can't let it go and it doesn't look like I'm going to, not soon anyway. I'm sorry I'm thinking about using somebody with the intention of continuing telling them lies about thinking about them and wanting them when you're all that's on my mind. I'm sorry to her, I'm sorry if we do end up in a relationship for her not being the only girl for me or even the most important one. I'm sorry for just having the intention of using her to get over you. She's a person too... and you just can't mess with people's hearts like that, I know that. But at the same time it's always going to repeat the same scenario like when I'd just met her, this sexy, smart, funny girl but all I can think about at night is who's kissing you or even looking at you. It drives me crazy and there's something twisted about that.
I'm sorry, I will do the right thing, I won't do wrong by her if we end up as something more but I can't promise that I can forget you or even stop thinking about you like this becuase that'd be a lie. I love you.
That I Have So Many Issues
I'm so sorry I hurt you. I'm so sorry that you gave up everything for me just to watch me become addicted to all the things you've kicked. I'm sorry that I am a failure, I'm sorry that I'm going crazy, I'm sorry that I have so many issues, I'm sorry I made you cry - I know you thought I didn't see, but I did. I'm sorry that I have hurt you, I'm sorry that I'm not a better person, but mostly, I'm sorry that I did such a good job of hiding all my horrible problems from you until we were married with children and a mortgage. I feel like you weren't fully informed. I'm sorry, baby. I don't deserve your love.
I Think That's Everyone
To my babysitter from when I was four: I stole your empty plastic cigarette case. I brought it back the next day but I never apologized for taking it. I am sorry.
To the little boy who gave me dandelions on Easter when I was five years old: I am sorry I threw your flowers on the ground. That wasn't nice. I thought you were cute but I didn't want the other little girls to make fun of me. You're probably still cute.
To the boy who gave me a Valentine's card in fifth grade: I am sorry I stopped being your friend even though I really liked you. I mean liked you, liked you. But I guess I just wasn't ready for a relationship. I am especially sorry that I called you names in front of the kids we walked home from school with, humiliating you. I hope you don't hate me.
To the redhead girl in sixth grade: I am sorry I told a sarcastic joke at your expense. I do not remember what I said, but I do remember the look on your face. You were never anything but nice to me and I was a jerk that day.
To the morbidly obese girl at my high school: I am sorry that I would whisper to my friends about how much your fatness grossed me out. Even more, I am sorry that I let it gross me out. True you were the largest person I have ever seen in real life, and you would eat three snickers bars during our french class and chew with your mouth open, but you must have had real problems to be so enormously big. I hope you were able to figure it out and feel better.
To the girl who thought I stole her boyfriend: I didn't steal him but I still owe you an apology because I would have if I could. Yes, I liked him first, but you were a nice person, and when I realized you were a couple, I should have stopped talking to him.
To the girl whose boyfriend I really stole: I am sorry. It was a rotten thing to do. I really liked him, sure, but he was spoken for and I should have left him alone.
To the mean girl from high school: I am sorry that I cannot stop hating you even though it has been years since we saw each other. I am sure somewhere deep down you are a good person. I am sure you have grown and matured. I just can't make myself think friendly thoughts about you. Maybe I haven't grown and matured enough. I am sorry.
To my brother: I am sorry that we used to be mean to each other when we were little. I am sorry that you never knew how smart you are because I already had the title of the smart one. You are brilliant and I love you. I am sorry I ever called you names.
To my mom: I am sorry that I used to give you attitude when I was a teenager. I was a jerk. I love you.
To my dad: I am sorry that I never gave you enough credit for being a good listener.
To the store I took a trial size baby powder from without paying. Yes, the lines were out the door long and I was in a super hurry. Yes, the powder was only fifty cents and I put that much money in a donation jar on the way out. But, no, I didn't really pay for the powder and that was wrong. I am sorry.
To my sister-in-law: I am sorry I wasn't friendlier to you when we first met. Sure, I was civil, but that wasn't nice enough because my brother loves you. I am sorry I was jealous of you taking up his time and getting all my Christmas presents. They were your presents. I see that now.
Okay, I think that's everyone. I feel better now.
To the little boy who gave me dandelions on Easter when I was five years old: I am sorry I threw your flowers on the ground. That wasn't nice. I thought you were cute but I didn't want the other little girls to make fun of me. You're probably still cute.
To the boy who gave me a Valentine's card in fifth grade: I am sorry I stopped being your friend even though I really liked you. I mean liked you, liked you. But I guess I just wasn't ready for a relationship. I am especially sorry that I called you names in front of the kids we walked home from school with, humiliating you. I hope you don't hate me.
To the redhead girl in sixth grade: I am sorry I told a sarcastic joke at your expense. I do not remember what I said, but I do remember the look on your face. You were never anything but nice to me and I was a jerk that day.
To the morbidly obese girl at my high school: I am sorry that I would whisper to my friends about how much your fatness grossed me out. Even more, I am sorry that I let it gross me out. True you were the largest person I have ever seen in real life, and you would eat three snickers bars during our french class and chew with your mouth open, but you must have had real problems to be so enormously big. I hope you were able to figure it out and feel better.
To the girl who thought I stole her boyfriend: I didn't steal him but I still owe you an apology because I would have if I could. Yes, I liked him first, but you were a nice person, and when I realized you were a couple, I should have stopped talking to him.
To the girl whose boyfriend I really stole: I am sorry. It was a rotten thing to do. I really liked him, sure, but he was spoken for and I should have left him alone.
To the mean girl from high school: I am sorry that I cannot stop hating you even though it has been years since we saw each other. I am sure somewhere deep down you are a good person. I am sure you have grown and matured. I just can't make myself think friendly thoughts about you. Maybe I haven't grown and matured enough. I am sorry.
To my brother: I am sorry that we used to be mean to each other when we were little. I am sorry that you never knew how smart you are because I already had the title of the smart one. You are brilliant and I love you. I am sorry I ever called you names.
To my mom: I am sorry that I used to give you attitude when I was a teenager. I was a jerk. I love you.
To my dad: I am sorry that I never gave you enough credit for being a good listener.
To the store I took a trial size baby powder from without paying. Yes, the lines were out the door long and I was in a super hurry. Yes, the powder was only fifty cents and I put that much money in a donation jar on the way out. But, no, I didn't really pay for the powder and that was wrong. I am sorry.
To my sister-in-law: I am sorry I wasn't friendlier to you when we first met. Sure, I was civil, but that wasn't nice enough because my brother loves you. I am sorry I was jealous of you taking up his time and getting all my Christmas presents. They were your presents. I see that now.
Okay, I think that's everyone. I feel better now.
I Was a Selfish Coward
To My Child-
I am sorry I was a selfish coward and let you go. I love you now and I realized that too late. I am sorry for the abortion. I am sorry for being too weak to stand on my own two feet and do what I knew was right. I pray I will meet you someday. I would give anything to undo what I've done. I am sorry for letting your father use my body for his own needs. I am sorry I didn't keep you. I love you.
-N.
I am sorry I was a selfish coward and let you go. I love you now and I realized that too late. I am sorry for the abortion. I am sorry for being too weak to stand on my own two feet and do what I knew was right. I pray I will meet you someday. I would give anything to undo what I've done. I am sorry for letting your father use my body for his own needs. I am sorry I didn't keep you. I love you.
-N.
4.08.2007
Sorry I Have Cheated
I am sorry I have cheated on you numerous times. I am sorry I complain all the time and act like this life isn't good enough. I love you and I want to make things right. I love you baby.
Blind Heart
Im sorry
I still have feelings for the asshole I once fell in love. I will even forgive what he has done, I will even forgive what he is doing to me. Is this a generous heart or is this a blind heart? I don t know I still love him. I m sorry
I still have feelings for the asshole I once fell in love. I will even forgive what he has done, I will even forgive what he is doing to me. Is this a generous heart or is this a blind heart? I don t know I still love him. I m sorry
4.06.2007
Lap Dog
When I was a kid our neigbours who speak the same language often visited us. From my bedroom I took a peak and saw my folks watching adult movies. Soft porn on TV. Not knowing any better anytime they came over I always sat this girl--about 8 to 10 years younger--on my crotch.
She had no idea what I was doing and neither did I. But at that young age watching happy people on TV I thought it was the right thing to do.
That girl moved to Europe but I want to apologize sincerely from the bottom of my heart for forcing you to sit on my lap. Do you forgive me?(if you know who I am you can reply in my blog---I use my birth name real name). I'd love to hear from you. And if I don't then I'll understand,.
She had no idea what I was doing and neither did I. But at that young age watching happy people on TV I thought it was the right thing to do.
That girl moved to Europe but I want to apologize sincerely from the bottom of my heart for forcing you to sit on my lap. Do you forgive me?(if you know who I am you can reply in my blog---I use my birth name real name). I'd love to hear from you. And if I don't then I'll understand,.
The Bastard
I'm sorry my mother died and I'm sorry my father--I mean THE ASSHOLE--is still living. Hey God you took the werong one off the face of the earth, Anyone who everyday of their life tells his son "you are so ugly looking no girl in her right mind will ever want you" does NOT deserve to live. Hope the bastard dies soon! Long overdue!!!!!!!
That It Has Taken Me a Year
A,
I'm sorry that it has taken me a year for it to really sink in that you are a conniving selfish bastard who has only been using me.
You front like you are confident but inside you are a selfish diminuative man who lacks confidence and seeks to make himself look better by constantly criticizing others.
I hope some day you will manage to get out of your head and come to terms with how others see you - before you raise your innocent children to grow up just like you.
S
I'm sorry that it has taken me a year for it to really sink in that you are a conniving selfish bastard who has only been using me.
You front like you are confident but inside you are a selfish diminuative man who lacks confidence and seeks to make himself look better by constantly criticizing others.
I hope some day you will manage to get out of your head and come to terms with how others see you - before you raise your innocent children to grow up just like you.
S
That Your Wife is Such a Beast
I'm sorry that your wife is such a beast that nobody wants to hang out with you.
On the other hand, you might try getting some fucking balls and telling her to get lost.
I mean really. She's an awful person.
On the other hand, you might try getting some fucking balls and telling her to get lost.
I mean really. She's an awful person.
The Gifts of Happiness and Love
I am sorry that I can't help everyone in the world to feel loved and happy. I would, if I could. But I can't. Happiness and love are choices we each have to make for ourselves, and work toward, using our own power and will. Give yourself the gifts of happiness and love, no matter how hard it is or how long it takes you to do it, because no one else can give those things to you.
The Redhead
I'm sorry I can't tell the redhead I love her. I'm 25 years older. The age difference doesn't bother me but it would make life a living hell---literally--for her and I don't want to do that to her. I'm sorry I can't tell her because she thinks no one loves her and if she knew someone loved her--the real thing--it would build her self-esteem. She thinks no one loves her. Boy is she wrong.
Guaran-damn-tee
I'm sorry if someone thinks I replied to their reply to my apology. I may have the same first initial but I guaran-damn-tee you that reply wasn't by me.
Steamboat Willie
I'm sorry I been able to send the apology letter I've been writing for over a year. I'm sorry I can't tell you how much I miss you. I'm sorry I moved on without looking back. I'm sorry Steamboat Willie is sad.
I Am Sorry I Called
I am sorry I called. There was no one else i thought i could call...but you let me down too. Im sorry im not strong enough to ignore you. Im sorry im not going to school with you next year-im also proud of myself for making that decision. one day youll get what youre missing (or not) im sorry things could not have been different and im sorry well never get our chance. im sorry that i truly hope you get what you deserve, i know its not mature so sorry- i wont call again
Can't Accept Your Apology
I'm sorry that I can't accept your apology. I would have happily done so, had it been a REAL apology, and not just another attempt to get my attention long enough to slap me around, blame me for everything and lay a guilt trip on me, and then try to make me jealous. I'm sorry you think I'm too dumb to get it, and I'm sorry to disappoint you with my lack of jealousy.
I'm sorry you're so obsessed with me that you feel you have to find somebody who is superficially like me, so that you can project whatever deficiencies he has onto me, and thus get your "revenge" on me for not being your doormat. I'm sorry you felt the sadistic need to TELL me about him. I'm sorry to see that you really are that kind of person, the kind I feared you were, underneath the mask.
But I'm not sorry for shutting you out of my life. I'm only sorry that I HAD to.
I'm sorry you're so obsessed with me that you feel you have to find somebody who is superficially like me, so that you can project whatever deficiencies he has onto me, and thus get your "revenge" on me for not being your doormat. I'm sorry you felt the sadistic need to TELL me about him. I'm sorry to see that you really are that kind of person, the kind I feared you were, underneath the mask.
But I'm not sorry for shutting you out of my life. I'm only sorry that I HAD to.
That You Lack the Courage
I'm sorry that you lack the courage to tell me the truth, that instead, you continue in this elaborate charade of yours, as if I don't know who you are. I've even given you clues to suggest I know who you are, but you ignore them, choosing to keep on playing this game and piling on more stones to the widen and reinforce the wall between you and my heart. I'm sorry that you can't see you're only making it impossible for me to ever give you my trust, again.
Why don't you try telling me the truth, for a change? And do it without couching it in insults and manipulative guilt trips? I've known your true identity from day one. Stop playing the game. Prove to me that the love you once professed to hold for me is real, that the value you claimed to put on our friendship is not faked, and admit to me your deception. If you don't, I'll stop talking to you in this role, too. I can only play the game for so long, before I tire of it.
Why don't you try telling me the truth, for a change? And do it without couching it in insults and manipulative guilt trips? I've known your true identity from day one. Stop playing the game. Prove to me that the love you once professed to hold for me is real, that the value you claimed to put on our friendship is not faked, and admit to me your deception. If you don't, I'll stop talking to you in this role, too. I can only play the game for so long, before I tire of it.
The Person You Wanted Me to Be
I'm sorry I couldn't be the person you wanted me to be. I tried, but it wasn't enough for you. I'm sorry you can't love me as I am, and that you can't see how much I love you and wanted you to love me, back. I'm sorry you can't understand why I feel the way I do, even though I tried to tell you so many times.
Sometimes, I'm even sorry I dared to HOPE that you could love me, because my hope is what allowed you to hurt me. I'm sorry I couldn't teach you how to love, or how to be there for the person who needs you the most, instead of being there for the person who does the most for you.
I couldn't teach you anything, because you can't teach someone who does not want to learn. I'm sorry to see you've closed your mind and heart to real love. And I'm sorry that I can never let you get close to MY heart, again. You've lost my trust. I can't give it, again. The pain is too much to bear. I'm sorry.
Sometimes, I'm even sorry I dared to HOPE that you could love me, because my hope is what allowed you to hurt me. I'm sorry I couldn't teach you how to love, or how to be there for the person who needs you the most, instead of being there for the person who does the most for you.
I couldn't teach you anything, because you can't teach someone who does not want to learn. I'm sorry to see you've closed your mind and heart to real love. And I'm sorry that I can never let you get close to MY heart, again. You've lost my trust. I can't give it, again. The pain is too much to bear. I'm sorry.
You Weren't the Right One
To an ex.
I'm sorry that I was with you because I wanted to prove to myself that I could be in a relationship for a long period.
I'm sorry that you weren't the right one for me, even though you are a kind, interesting and generous man.
I'm sorry that you still recoil from me when I reach to hug you hello, and that indicates to me that you still have feelings for me.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I was with you because I wanted to prove to myself that I could be in a relationship for a long period.
I'm sorry that you weren't the right one for me, even though you are a kind, interesting and generous man.
I'm sorry that you still recoil from me when I reach to hug you hello, and that indicates to me that you still have feelings for me.
I'm sorry.
What I Cannot Tell...
Sorry that I cannot tell you about the love in my past. I love you too and will stay by your side forever; but I cannot tell you about the one who stole that big chunk of my heart.
I know you are fully devoted to me and I am sorry that I feel how I feel.
I am sorry I loved someone who did not love me. I am sorry I cannot let it go.
I know you are fully devoted to me and I am sorry that I feel how I feel.
I am sorry I loved someone who did not love me. I am sorry I cannot let it go.
My Heart Came Undone
I'm sorry that while you were away my heart came undone, and tomorrow i'm going to slit my wrists.
a year earlier than planned but i cant take the amount of pain and evil and insincere people in the world anymore, i simply do not have the emotional or phyisical resources to deal with the future anymore,
i'm sorry that my sister and nephew are prolly the only people who will notice, and i'm sorry that selena will never get to meet me.
I'm sorry that they wont play bjork at my funeral,
and i'm sorry that i never got to meet Jesse Puente and Mutt.
laters world. i hate you. mostly.
a year earlier than planned but i cant take the amount of pain and evil and insincere people in the world anymore, i simply do not have the emotional or phyisical resources to deal with the future anymore,
i'm sorry that my sister and nephew are prolly the only people who will notice, and i'm sorry that selena will never get to meet me.
I'm sorry that they wont play bjork at my funeral,
and i'm sorry that i never got to meet Jesse Puente and Mutt.
laters world. i hate you. mostly.
4.05.2007
If I Don't Do the Right Thing
I'm sorry If I have to break it off. I really thought you were the one, but now I see that I "chose" you insted of falling in love with you. I'm so dissapointed that my judgement isn't better. I'm not even sure I'm able to quit you. It would really feel like a defeat for me. Sorry if I don't do the right thing.
4.04.2007
But You Have a Girlfriend
You are so intelligent, nice to be with, charming, with a lovely smile, body and eyes that make me want to jump you! and I know very well that you like me so much too......... but you have a girlfriend...I'm so sorry about that.
I Can't Have Kids
I'm sorry that I don't know how to tell you I can't have kids..Its not that you won't love me or stay with me..you're not the ex after all..But I don't know how to tell you that my body will abort..Its done it three times and everytime is a nightmare..and I am just too old to risk my life for a child I won't see grow up. And I am terrified my kid would inherit my family's insanity, and frailness of mind. I'm sorry it seems like all the people around us are having babies, and none of those people even deserve or want them, or care how they will turn out while we do..I'm just sorry. I wish I could fix me for you. I wouldn't ever do it for me alone, you know. I wouldn't. But you make me worth being. I'm sorry I am so confused tonight.
4.03.2007
For Keeping up the Charade
I'm sorry I cheated on you. I'm sorry that for one night I fell for all the compliments that part of me knew were just pick-up lines. I'm sorry I got drunk and my mind went blank and I'm sorry I haven't told you after all these years. I guess I'm hoping I will forget it happened and then it will go away.
I'm sorry for keeping up the charade that I deserve you.
I'm sorry for keeping up the charade that I deserve you.
Never Having to Say I'm Sorry
I'm sorry for all the people who have left apologies here, saying how sorry they are for loving someone.
Nobody should ever be sorry they loved someone else. Even if it was wrong, even if it didn't work out, even if it was painful, it was love, at some point. And we all deserve to be loved, unconditionally, and unapologetically, by someone who doesn't have to love us, but choses to love us.
Even if only for a day, a moment, or a lifetime.
Love means never having to say I'm sorry.....for loving you.
Nobody should ever be sorry they loved someone else. Even if it was wrong, even if it didn't work out, even if it was painful, it was love, at some point. And we all deserve to be loved, unconditionally, and unapologetically, by someone who doesn't have to love us, but choses to love us.
Even if only for a day, a moment, or a lifetime.
Love means never having to say I'm sorry.....for loving you.
How You Smell
I'm sorry but I like how you smell. Not you+cologne, though that is nice, or you plus clean clothes again, preferable. I’m actually ok, no, Delighted with just you, sweaty, smelly in disgusting unwashed gym clothes. You when you definitely haven’t washed your hair or showered in two days. It’s slightly disgusting, but what am I supposed to do about it? It’s pheromones or something… I can’t control it. So when you say every girl friend you've had has bought you new clothes, soaps and cologne, I think... but Why? You're just fine as is. Sometimes you look dumb or smell funny, but I still like it because you smell and look like yourself and that's wonderful. Maybe that's why you'd never date me. I'm sorry... maybe you should just find a girlfriend who likes you.
To My Cat
I'm sorry that I don't let you outside. I feel so guilty that you are locked up in a house all the time, looking out a window, watching life happen. It's just that the poster at the vet says indoor cats are healthier/live longer, and I'm afraid that you'll get hit by a car, attacked by a dog, or worse, tortured by the little weirdo kids in the neighborhood. I hope all the toys and cat trees I buy you make up for that a little. I promise, when we get our own place I'll buy you another cat to play with so you won't be bored. And maybe someday we'll have a house on a big chunk of land and you can roam around safely.
Love,
Mom
Love,
Mom
I Can't Be a Stand In
I'm sorry I treated you so lightly today, I feel bad about it now. When you said were sick over the weekend and I asked if you were still contagious as I backed away, I was just staving off the urge I had to check if you had a fever by kissing your forehead. I wish I could have brought you soup and ginger ale, held your head when you were sick and done your laundry so you had clean sheets to sleep in. I desperately want to take care of you. I know you want to take care of me too, but you want to take care of Every attractive female within a 10 foot radius. That's a serious problem.
Then when you asked if I was coming to class and I said no and didn't wait for you to finish speaking, I was just trying to stave off more information exchange. I don't want any personal info about your life, I don't want to know any more about you... it's just not safe for me emotionally. You've got to understand the Second I let my guard down around you, bad things will happen. I'm just protecting myself. I'm sorry if it hurts you, but wouldn't if you'd just leave me alone. Go tell it to your Real girlfriend... I can't be a stand in. I'm sorry.
Then when you asked if I was coming to class and I said no and didn't wait for you to finish speaking, I was just trying to stave off more information exchange. I don't want any personal info about your life, I don't want to know any more about you... it's just not safe for me emotionally. You've got to understand the Second I let my guard down around you, bad things will happen. I'm just protecting myself. I'm sorry if it hurts you, but wouldn't if you'd just leave me alone. Go tell it to your Real girlfriend... I can't be a stand in. I'm sorry.
A Day Earlier
I am sorry that I didnt read this blog page a day earlier. I am sorry that I dont know how to reach the person who wants to commit suicide or already has, today.
I am sorry they feel this way. I am sorry therapy didnt work out for this person. Im sorry that I feel so helpless right now about this very sad situation.
If you are still around, please post a blog... I will pray for you in the meantime.
I am sorry they feel this way. I am sorry therapy didnt work out for this person. Im sorry that I feel so helpless right now about this very sad situation.
If you are still around, please post a blog... I will pray for you in the meantime.
A Horrible Life (Sometimes)
I'm sorry that sometimes I feel like I have a horrible life, when I know very well that there are people out there with problems worse than mine.
Self Centered
im sorry im self centered sometimes. I just don't understand myself and i need someone who does-and thats you. Im sorry i don't care about your problems. I care about you i just cant listen to you complain. I know you put up with me and im trying to let you vent to me...ill keep working.until then please keep helping me
That I Was Revived Last Summer
i'm sorry to all my friends that i'm mean, and selfish, and crazy and terribly sad.
i'm sorry that i recognize my talents and my gifts of happiness to you. i'm sorry that i don't care if i waste them. i'm sorry i have done nothing but seriously consider suicide for the past year and a half. and i'm especially sorry that i was revived last summer, becauser you'll only have to go through it again.
i am trying, i'm going to keep trying, but i guess i just know that eventually, it will be for nothing, and for that i'm sorry too.
i'm sorry that i recognize my talents and my gifts of happiness to you. i'm sorry that i don't care if i waste them. i'm sorry i have done nothing but seriously consider suicide for the past year and a half. and i'm especially sorry that i was revived last summer, becauser you'll only have to go through it again.
i am trying, i'm going to keep trying, but i guess i just know that eventually, it will be for nothing, and for that i'm sorry too.
The Phone Break Up
I am so sorry that I broke up with you over the phone. It was the wrong way to do that. When we met we were the best thing that could have happened for each other. We healed each other in so many ways. I will always be greateful for that. And I am glad that you have been able to move on.
If we had continued there would have been no real reason to break up but that's not a really good enough reason to stay together. We would have been without passion in a short while. But I think that you were smart enough to see that coming anyway. That must have been why you let it go so well...
If I had been more mature, more sensitive and less self absorbed I could have made it easier on you and for that I apologize eternally.
Now, years later I think of you and smile - and hope that you are able to do the same. I have never told anyone the things that you asked me to keep secret, and never will. Know that....believe it..trust in it. Please.
Thank you for healing me and making it possible to move on too...you are the BEST man I have ever met and your son is lucky to have you as an example.
Again, I am sorry for how it ended.
If we had continued there would have been no real reason to break up but that's not a really good enough reason to stay together. We would have been without passion in a short while. But I think that you were smart enough to see that coming anyway. That must have been why you let it go so well...
If I had been more mature, more sensitive and less self absorbed I could have made it easier on you and for that I apologize eternally.
Now, years later I think of you and smile - and hope that you are able to do the same. I have never told anyone the things that you asked me to keep secret, and never will. Know that....believe it..trust in it. Please.
Thank you for healing me and making it possible to move on too...you are the BEST man I have ever met and your son is lucky to have you as an example.
Again, I am sorry for how it ended.
You Will Never Fall So Flawlessly
I'm sorry I will not re-visit,
I'm sorry that you will never fall so flawlessly into my better graces once more,
I'm sorry the snow doesn't melt the way you want it to,
I'm sorry your eyes remind me of nothing but ww2 battlefields, covered in mines and shot down airbourne infantry,
I'm sorry you thought that I would disgrace your honour.
Blindingsun.
I'm sorry that you will never fall so flawlessly into my better graces once more,
I'm sorry the snow doesn't melt the way you want it to,
I'm sorry your eyes remind me of nothing but ww2 battlefields, covered in mines and shot down airbourne infantry,
I'm sorry you thought that I would disgrace your honour.
Blindingsun.
For Giving Up On You
Sorry for giving up on you, I didn't think I would but I did. I guess it was just too hard for me.
But who knows, maybe if things don't work out with me and him now... maybe our two paths will cross again one day.
I don't know how a friendship between us will work, but I hope that it does somehow. Let's get past this shame, or whatever you want to call it.
Anyways, do your best in this life, you're almost out on your own when this year is over. Good luck, and I really do hope the best for you.
Bye (for now?)
But who knows, maybe if things don't work out with me and him now... maybe our two paths will cross again one day.
I don't know how a friendship between us will work, but I hope that it does somehow. Let's get past this shame, or whatever you want to call it.
Anyways, do your best in this life, you're almost out on your own when this year is over. Good luck, and I really do hope the best for you.
Bye (for now?)
4.01.2007
I Thought You Were My Friend
I'm sorry I thought you were my friend. I'm sorry that you are just a selfish bitch who only cares about herself. What goes around comes back around and you will get yours. Don't think I don't have enough on you to make you look as stupid as you tried to make me look.
I'll Never Be the Same
A-
I'm sorry and I don't even know what I'm sorry for.
I know I did something fairly recently that caused you to want to get as far from me as possible. I have no idea what it is but it must be something horrible. If it makes you feel better I'll never forgive myself and I'll never be the same.
J-
I'm sorry and I don't even know what I'm sorry for.
I know I did something fairly recently that caused you to want to get as far from me as possible. I have no idea what it is but it must be something horrible. If it makes you feel better I'll never forgive myself and I'll never be the same.
J-
Life Can Get Better
I apologize to the human two steps below.
I am so sorry the world is not a place you feel you can bear to live in any longer, and that you are thinking of killing yourself. I am deeply sorry. Life can get better than it is for you right now. I don't believe that I know you, and yet I care about your life. Please call your therapist, and tell her / him how sad you and angry your are, outright. Or if you cannot do that, talk to a friend or a family member that you trust. If you cannot do that, call your local suicide hotline.
There is no other soul in the world like you. How sad it will be to lose your special gifts before you know what they are.
I'm sorry you are feeling alone.
I am praying for you -- no matter what you do.
Love
I am so sorry the world is not a place you feel you can bear to live in any longer, and that you are thinking of killing yourself. I am deeply sorry. Life can get better than it is for you right now. I don't believe that I know you, and yet I care about your life. Please call your therapist, and tell her / him how sad you and angry your are, outright. Or if you cannot do that, talk to a friend or a family member that you trust. If you cannot do that, call your local suicide hotline.
There is no other soul in the world like you. How sad it will be to lose your special gifts before you know what they are.
I'm sorry you are feeling alone.
I am praying for you -- no matter what you do.
Love
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