That Girl Who U Want

im sorry that i cant be that girl who u want.

im sorry that i will never be the one who will wait for u as you walk all over me and countless other girls

im sorry that u wont ever be satisfied with just me. plain old me.nothing extra. just me. no excuses. no magic

im sorry that u only want me wen i dont want you,

but most of all

im sorry that i even tried to make you love me

An Addams Apology

Gomez,

You will probaby never know just how sorry I am that you think I don't love you. I am sorry that I have hurt you so. Because I have no other choice I will respect your wishes.

If you only knew.

Morticia.

That We Can't Be Together

I'm so sorry for you that we can't be together right now. I'm sorry you have to wait. I'm sorry that my issues get in the way of our communication and I wish I could get through all this quicker..if only because you are so wonderful and deserve someone great.

Everything I Want

I'm sorry that you still haven't come back to me.

I'm sorry you have this new girl who doesn't care about you.

I'm sorry that I'm too afraid to say hi to you.

I'm sorry that you're still everything I want.

I Want You to Love Me

I'm sorry I want you to love me. I 'm sorry that I have these feelings for you that are not fully reciprocated...it kills me. I'm sorry you keep contacting me and leading me on only to become indifferent later. I'm sorry I love you and I'm sorry you make me feel like a fool for wanting your love in return.

I Always Tease You

I am sorry I always tease you about breaking up with you. You should know that I can't live without your love in my life.

That I Was Stupid

im sorry that i was stupid and passed up my chance of a lifetime. i cant get you out of my head and it is driving me crazy because of my stupidity. i am sitting here nearly in tears for fear that i may never get that chance again. i kno that u look at this site, because u told me, so please read this one. i miss you so much and being friends really isnt going to cut it for me. i just wish that i could go back in time and change a few things. im sorry that i couldnt realize that you were who i needed and that he wasnt ever going to be right for me. please give me another chance, because right now, you are the only one that i want to be with forever and ever

I'll Be Sorry Every Day

I'll be sorry every day for the rest of my life, that i never opened up and let you get to know me. And i'm even more sorry that you have now left this earth with being convinced you ruined our family when you got sick. I wish every day that i had said what was truely in my heart, i should have told you it was never your fault, and that you were the world's greatest dad, but i guess its a little too late. I love you with every ounce of love i have and i wish i could tell you how amazing you really were.

The Therapist

I'm sorry I was not a good enough Therapist for you. Sometimes you just have to figure it out for yourself. You treated me like a car mechanic; begged me to fix you. I'm more like a teacher teaching you how to fix your car. I'm sorry you have to suffer the pain of self-responsibility like the rest of us.

You are Everywhere

Im sorry that everytime your name comes up in a group I cannot be mature and say nothing and have to make an obnoxious comment. Its because now that youre finally out of my life i need it to be for good. I cannot handle the fact that you are everywhere.

While You Were in Iraq

i'm sorry that while you were in iraq, i fell for another man.

I'm Sorry I'm Young

I'm sorry I'm young.

I'm sorry that you don't know how I feel about it.

I'm sorry for ignoring you and lying to you.

I'm sorry that we are so far apart.

I know how you feel, and I know how you act to hide your pain.

I'm so sorry for pretending and leading you into misery.

But nothing can be the same again.

I'm sorry.

Afraid of Intimacy

I am sorry that I am so afraid of intimacy and that my fear has driven me away from people I genuinely love with everything I have. So many times, I've sabotaged friendships and I'm just so tired of my willingness to throw things away, things I would never throw away if I thought about it for one second. I'm sorry to everyone I've hurt because of these issues. I have two absolutely wonderful people in my life that care a great deal for me and I want desperately not to hurt either of them with this stupid stuff. All of that is in the past and I have been working very hard to cultivate a new future for myself. Taking responsibility is something that was necessary. I have told the people all of this but I have yet to forgive myself.

I am so sorry that I am so hard on myself. Maybe if I could lighten up on me a little, I would be able to progress a little in my life. So, there it is: I am sorry and I forgive myself for my bad decisions.

That You've Come Back

I'm sorry that you've come back.

I'm sorry that you want to start talking again.

I'm sorry that you didn't realize what this would do to us.

I'm sorry that you're too young to see what a mistake you've made.

I'm sorry I still love you.

I'm sorry that I want you to feel this misery.

I'm sorry that I would rather punch you than hug you.

I'm sorry that whenever I see your face, I can only see the smug look you've given me over the past few months instead of the apologetic smile.

I'm sorry that I'm playing your game right now and acting completely cold towards you when I really just want to break down in your arms.

I'm sorry that I won't just be straightforward with you because I know you'll see it as weakness and discard me again.

I'm sorry I haven't stopped cutting.

I'm sorry I still think about suicide.

I'm sorry that I wanted you to see me with him.

I'm sorry for my regrets and my apologies because I know they mean less to you than when I tell you to go to hell.

The Boy I Want it to Be

I'm sorry that every time a boy likes me, I freak out and ruin everything because it's never the boy I want it to be. I don't give them a chance.

That I Always Apologize to You

I'm sorry that I always apologize to you on this website even though I know you hate the fact that people send in apologies instead of telling the people in person.

Sorry I Cheated

I am sorry I cheated honestly, i cant sleep at night and im sorry I feel guilty just cause im scared ill get caught.

I am sorry that I dont remember what i said when I was drunk but i really wish I did because i remember it was a really good confersation.

I am also sorry I pretended to care you had an eating disorder. I honestly dont give a shit youre ruining your life but im glad youre getting help.

You Were Worth It

I'm sorry I told you I would never love you when I was afraid. I regret that choice everyday and wish I could take it back. Now you have someone else, but I can't seem to let go. I don't want to let go. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry things went the way they did. You're the only man I've ever truly loved, and now all I can do is cry to the many guys who made you feel insecure about us. It was always you - never them. I'm most sorry that every tear I've shed out of hurt has been completely worth what I had with you. I would do it all again. You were worth it. I'm sorry I wasn't.

Make Me Believe in Us Again

I can't believe that the moment that I managed to move on, you decided to come back. I don't think there's anything left for you to come back to, but if you really want me, please show me, and please don't quit here.

After what you've done to me, there will be hell to pay before we can start over. I'm not saying this to be spiteful and I'm not doing it to make you feel what I've felt - nothing like that. No matter how badly I want it, I simply can't imagine having a relationship after we've suffered so much because of your actions. You'll have to make me believe it's possible. It's all on you, now.

I'm sorry to ask for something so huge, but please make me believe in us again.

About Your Haircut

I'm sorry I was bossing you around about your haircut. I wish I could force my monthly hormone surge to apologize, but I can't, so I'm doing it. It was so silly...I'm sorry. And anyway, your hair turned out great! Maybe that lady knows what she's doing after all!

A Complicated Life

I'm sorry that my life is so complicated. You mean the world to me, and I'd never do anything to jeopardize our friendship. I'll always remember every second we've spent together. I love you.

If You Want Me...

I'm sorry that I can't get over you. Every time I see you I think about hooking up again. I can't help but think that you are thinking the same thing, I see how you look at me.

I know that you are worried about what your friends might think. I know that some of your friends don't like me. That is why I am not going to make the first move any more. If you want me, you have to do something about it. Sorry.

Nervous

we were alone in the hall yesterday, and i'm sorry that i didn't say anything. right after you left, i thought of the perfect thing to say.

but i didn't say it because you make me nervous, and i don't know if you'll ever know just how nervous you make me.

I Just Don't Care

i don't want to hang out with you.

i'm sorry. i just dont care.

If I'm Ruining Your Life

I'm sorry that I can't get over you. I know it's starting to get annoying. And I'm sorry that I had my friend call you. I know it was ridiculous. I'm sorry if I'm ruining your life, I just don't know how to let go.

Relapse

i'm sorry i've relapsed so many times. i know it must be hard for all of you to watch me slowly self-destruct. i'm sorry i've been into treatment numerous times and nothing has worked for me. i'm sorry i'm about to relapse again even though you are willing to send me to long term treatment. i can't leave my pets behind and just go. they have no one else. i'm sorry to disappoint you but i haven't hit rock bottom yet. i know that might be death for me but i don't really care anymore.

For Not Calling

I apologize for not calling. Yes, it was rude and I am sorry if I put you in a bad spot with your friends. When they see this they'll know how far my tail is between my legs. I think you know how I feel about you and I don't want this to come between us. So here I am embarassaing myself in public...

I Left You For Her

I'm sorry I left you for her. Not a night goes by where I don't think about where you and I would be if it wasn't for her. When I ended up with neither of you, it was what I deserved. Now I have to settle for someone else knowing that my one perfect match is out there with someone else.

That I Never Told You

I'm sorry that I never told you how I felt and now it's too late. I wish I could stop talking to you and thinking about you and what we possibly could have been. I hate that I have these feelings for you. I'm sorry that I love you and that you will never know.

Our Friendship is Not the Same

I'm sorry we got so silly on drink and ventured into that "unspeakable" territory. I wish I could forget how amazing that night was but I can't. I know we can never be together. I'm sorry our friendship has changed forever. I really miss you and think of you everyday. I will always love you and will never forget.

Can't Stop Waiting for You

I'm sorry that I can't stop waiting for you. I deserve better, but I love you and I can't help myself.

Because You Lost Me

C,

I'm sorry because you lost me. We were good together but nowadays my interest for you it's almost completely gone... and I believe, I know, it's your fault.. you should have taken care of me.. you say that you love how I am with you.. sorry, but I can't say that back... but it's ok. I knows things will go well for both of us in our lifes..

Giving Up the One Thing

i'm sorry i'm giving up the one thing that i love in this world for the unkown path ahead. i hope i am making the right choice.

A Plateaued Relationship

i'm sorry that our relationship has reached a plateau. i'm sorry that i don't want to be with you any longer but am too scared to leave. i haven't known anything else as we were high school sweethearts. i'm sorry i have to make the choice between being miserable and unhappy and staying married or letting go of you and being free. i don't want you to go fight in iraq and die. that's not what i meant to happen. love is not the problem. it never was. i will always love you. we just are not an ideal match for each other. i'm sorry that i'm breaking up our little family. if it makes you feel any better i will never be the same.

People Suck at Saying They're Sorry

i'm sorry people suck at saying they're sorry and they feel the need to apologize through an abstact public venue!

That You Exist

im sorry i wore that skirt...and im sorry i ever bought that playboy bunny toungue ring...and im sorry i left my drink for one second without my hand on top of it...im sorry you thought i was pretty...im sorry i hadn't slept in 4 days...im sorry that i never eat and that im underweight and always sick... and im sorry i was even out at all that night...and im sorry my friend met a guy and left me alone...and im sorry that when i passed out after finishing my drink that you caught me...and im sorry that you had intentions...and im sorry that now im damaged goods...and im sorry that you raped me and didn't murder me after...im sorry that i have to be the one who's sorry instead of you...and im sorry that you exist because it makes it impossible for me to...and im sorry that being sorry can't fix this or fix me.

I'm Still Doing It

Im sorry two months ago I apologized to myself on here for getting hurt so many times by so many different boys. Believing them everytime. Throwing away my amazing love on people who will never care enough to return it.

Im sorry Im still doing it.

And Im sorry Im liking it.

My Beautiful Green-Eyed Girl

My beautiful green-eyed girl,

I'm sorry that although we're friends again now, we'll never know what pure magic we could have created together.

I was in love with you and you were falling in love with me. I wish you'd told me that at the time. Your fears stopped you, and my heart was broken in the process.

Fear is natural, it's how we respond to it that makes us courageous.

If we moved beyond friendship right now, I couldn't trust that your fears wouldn't stop you again. I don't think my heart could cope with the anguish if they did.

Who knows what will happen in the future, honey. Perhaps there is a "happily ever after" with our names on it, but right now, all I can do is be your friend.

We've both moved on and are dating again. Perhaps in this structured platonic environment we can be free to love each other as much as we like.

I hope this new girl you're seeing is as beautiful, sweet, intelligent, gutsy, funny and as truly spectacular as you deserve.

xx

I Tried to Love You

I'm sorry that I tried to love you for 3 months when I should know by now that if I don't love someone at the first kiss, I won't ever love them.

I'm sorry that I was snide about suggesting your next course of action.

I hope you've found someone good for you by now.

That We Aren't Friends Anymore

Im sorry that we aren't friends anymore. I feel really bad. Like crying almost. You thought I was your best friend, and I never really knew. And I was selfish and wanted you to want my friendship while I tried to be popular. But now you are popular. I hope thats not why I want to be friends again. I have pictures of our fun times together at parties and places on the wall.

I think you also really hurt my feelings a few times. And that made me think you liked me even less.

Some day (very soon) we'll be best friends forever with everyone else too.

Im really trying to understand this. But friendships confuse me.

Not the Man You Wanted

I'm sorry that I can't tell you this to your face. I know I told you that I didn't feel like this anymore but I lied. I still need to dress like a woman, wear makeup and jewelry and feel like I can live my life as a woman. I've gone back on hormones and am taking antiandrogens. That's why my breasts are bigger and I can't get much of an erection anymore. When you leave the house, I put on a bra and panties under my clothes. When you're out of town, I wear your makeup. I am terribly unhappy in our marriage. I am not the man you wanted and never can be. This is hell for both of us. I'm sorry.

Sorry I Ever Met You 2

I'm very sorry I ever met you and befriended you. You're crazy. I wish you would just stay the fuck out of my life because I have had the decency to stay out of yours.

I'm very happy that he chose to be my friend over yours, it just shows I'm better than you'll ever be. I'm also soo very happy that he tells me everything you tell him.

You're a stupid slut and I don't care what happens to you and I hope you know that what goes around, comes around.

Lack of Guilt

I'm sorry that I'm not sorry. I have guilt for my lack of guilt. You might hate me forever, but I still love myself. I know I made the right decision.

Sorry I Wasted it All

i know there's been times when i've dissapointed you, but i knew those things are just part of growing up.

And i know theres been times when i've dissapointed myself, but you know those things were just part of growing up.

But now im dissapointing both of us and theres nothing i can do about it and im so sorry. I feel like i've ruined my future. Ive been given everything, every oppertunity and im still not good enough. im sorry i wasted it all.

My Instincts

I'm sorry I was such an idiot and believed what you said to me.

I'm sorry I didn't listen to my instincts from the start.

I'm sorry I have messed up so much of my life for you - when really I was just a game for you.

But at least you didn't win.

Unsavable

nothing will ever be the same again, im sorry.

you trusted me and i broke it.

im sorry that i have lied, been wrong, done wrong all for the sake of me.

prehaps youre right, drugs ARE spiraling me out of control. but i need to learn that on my own.

im sorry that i am unsavable.

I'll Never Say it to You

I'll never say it to you, and I'm sorry for that. Samuel, I still love you. I don't care what it takes, but I sincerely hope that you can find some other girl who's beautiful, inside and out, with no burdens and issues, someone who's perfect for you in all the ways I wasn't. I want you to love her. I want you to be happy. I'm sorry I cry when I think of how happy you'll be.

Sorry I Listened to the Voices

I'm sorry I listened to the voices instead of you. I pray that your grandparents can find it in their hearts to forgive me some day.

Fire and Rain

im sorry i played with fire and made it rain! i cant help it because im supergirl. im sorry my hips dont lie while drinking a milkshake. there will be better days. i cant help im so luky and beautiful. i cant help that i wanna love you. Take me out. tell me what you do on sunday mornings because im irreplacable. dem jeans are savin me.

I Posted Bad Things

Im sorry, i posted bad things to you on other sites. I just miss the hell out of you baby, i do care about you i didn't mean to be arrogant to you i wish i could be with you is all. I want to love you most of all.

Your Fears

I'm sorry your fears stopped us that night. Your always in my thought's I really want to be with you also. I just want to see you again. I say your name at night and think of only you. I told you that, I miss you a whole lot. j

That I Didn't Listen to You

im sorry that i didnt listen to you. honey you mean everything to me. If you had only said something about that sooner i would have understood. I really don't want to loose you. You are my everything and to loose you I would just go completly crazy i mena just mad. so please dont go im begging you

Things to Hurt Each Other

I'm sorry that we both did things to hurt each other and ruin our great relationship...I'm sorry we couldn't see past each other's trangressions until it was too late...and I'm sorry that I'm ready to move on and you are not.

There will be someone else out there for you, I promise.

Wasted Time and Energy

Mom...

I'm sorry I waste so much of your time and energy. I really don't think I'm worth it, but I know it isn't just about me - it's the kids too, and I'm sorry you practically have to raise them.

I wish I could go back and do some things differently, even though some things about me and my life wouldn't change, a lot of them would, and you wouldn't be in the position you're in. None of us would.

You deserve more than this, and I'm going to find a way out of this somehow, I promise. And as soon as I'm able to, I will definitely pay you back for everything you've ever done for me.

I love you, mom..

I Was So Impatient

I'm sorry I was so impatient with you. You were going through a hard time and didn't want to be rushed into a relationship. I should have just waited and been there for you, then maybe things would have turned out differently.

Jealous of Me

im sorry that everyone is jealous of me and im sorry if i say mean things to people.i dont really mean it, its just how im funny. im sorry for being soo selfish and just taking things and not giving anything back. im also sorry if i told you i liked your sweater because after i would just go and tell other people it was ugly.....Im Sorry <3

That I Cheated on You

I am sorry that i cheated on you and was not honest. I can never give back the years that I took from you and i am even more sorry that you feel they were wasted. I really did and do love you. I love our children and our life and only now know how stupid i was. You are moving on now and as such i cant expect you to think of me as a viable option for your future - you do desirve better than i can ever be and i hope you find it. Thank you for letting me see the kids and be a part of there life i know that it hurts you to have to see me and you allow it anyway. I am sorry to the kids for destroying there faith in thier father and forever changeing our relationship for the worse. i never wanted to hurt them or you and i will go to my grave being sorry for all the pain i have caused everyone.

My Fears

I'm sorry I let my fears stop me. You're right.

I wish I could be with you.

For Not Apologizing Sooner

Fred, I am sorry for not apologizing sooner. You are finally coming around and talking to me, and my heart is again filled with joy. I promise you I will never let my foolish ways get in the way of our love again.

You mean the world to me, and I would give everything I have for an opportunity to spend the rest of my life with you.....

Just Let Go and Trust Me

I'm sorry you feel you don't have enough to offer me.

I'm sorry you don't realize that I know you're not perfect, and I still accept and respect you for the wonderful woman you are and will always remain to me.

I'm sorry you let your fears stop you.

I'm sorry you can't allow yourself to just let go and trust me, and trust what we could be together.

From a Husband and Father

I am sorry for not being the husband, and father that i should have been. If i could turn back time, I would give it all to you and the kids. My life has been hell since. I finally see all that my life has done to me, as well too you and the kids. You did the best you could under the circumstance and i betrayed everyone. Saying this i know that we can never be at peace about what took place by my choice's I only hope,you continue to have peace with each other as you did when i was sent away.It torments my soul that my son, can't be proud of his own father and that the shame in which he feels i feel,too him the champ of my life i cry at night for our lost life together,I was always very proud of you. No matter what, you never let me down.It was i that let us all down. GOD!!! I'm sorry for that. to the girls i wish things would have been different for us that, you also would of known the love of a good and decent father. Im sorry i turned out to be the monster that we are all taught to watch out for never in my life would i have thought that i could be that person.I will carrie it to my dying day. to you wife im tormented each and everyday that i took this path without regards to you and what your feelings where.I really loved you, but got caught up in my own sickness of life, but what torments me is that i had it all and destroyed my life and that of innocens and our trust of each other.Let no other ever take that liberty with your life again. I can go on and on, but the pain i feel it's tormenting me as i try and type this two you, I miss my son!!!! god and my girls our family.

I AM SORRY I AM SORRY......JTC

Good Enough for Me

I'm so sorry that you can never be good enough for me. Sometimes I try so hard to see the good, but I just can't erase what you did from my mind. I'm sorry but I hope that both of us can change for the better.

To Mum

Mum,

I'm sorry we fight when we're together. It's something I should have grown out of in my adolescence, but even 15 years later, I allow myself to regress when I'm with you.

I'm sorry I don't tell you I love you every time we speak - you're a beautiful and sweet lady who deserves the greatest amount of respect. I do think you should cut back on drinking though.

I appreciate everything you've done for me, and everything you would do for me. One day I hope to be like you.

I will try harder.

That You Left

I'm sorry that you left.

I'm sorry that I've told all my friends I want nothing to do with you because you hurt me more than I ever thought possible, but we're emailing and texting almost daily at the moment.

I'm sorry that you can't summon the courage to go after what's in your heart instead of running away from me.

I'm not sorry I remembered how it feels to love again.

Still a Lesbian

I'm sorry I flirted with that guy and let him touch me. I'm not sorry I'm still a lesbian.

My Entire World

I'm sorry I never told you I loved you when we were together. You made my heart sing and you were my entire world. xx

Sorry Your Feelings Changed

I'm sorry your feelings changed and mine didn't. Casual means casual, and we put rules in place to protect us both.

I'm sorry I didn't return your call from Thursday. I feel guilty every time I talk to you because you fell in love with me and still have feelings for me.

I'm sorry I can't be a better friend now, but our friendship will never be the same.

Our Fairytale is Over

C,

I'm sorry you never thought you were good enough for me.

I'm sorry you resorted to kissing that girl in front of me to push me away.

I'm sorry that letting me go is your greatest regret.

I'm sorry I'll never give you another chance.

I'm sorry our fairytale is over.

L

Almost Enough

im sorry that it was long ago and far away and so much better than it is today. because really im making the biggest difference that I have ever made and its almost, almost enough.

Still Married to You

i'm sorry i'm still married to you. i love you very much but you don't make enough money to keep me happy. it'll hurt both of us deeply this week when i ask you for a divorce. it's the only way. i'm so sorry.

That I Made You Lose Faith

I'm sorry that I knew that everyone in your whole entire life had done nothing but hurt you and abandon you, and I did the same thing and you never even saw it coming. I'm so sorry that I was such a selfish and screwed up person. I loved you more than you will ever know, and I don't know why I did what I did. I miss you every day and it kills me when I see you and you just look right through me, but I don't blame you. I'm sorry that I made you lose faith in love and in people and I hope that someone can convince you otherwise one day. If I had it to do over I would change everything.

The Drunk Kiss

I'm sorry I got drunk and tried to kiss you. I hope we can still be friends. Oh, and I hope your cat is okay.

Sorry Jack

Im sorry Jack for everything,

Im sorry for every lie I told you no matter how small. Im sorry for trying to put someone else before you when I knew in my heart you were what I wanted. Im sorry that you cant chose me and that we cant be together the way I need. Somedays Im sorry that I love you. Im sorry that I feel like you hate and blame me now. For all the bad things that are happening in your life. For creating together the life that is inside of me, that you can only look at as a mistake. Im sorry you cant feel what I feel. Im sorry that I feel like I cant live without you, and that I cant move on no matter how much you tell me to. Im sorry that you cant love me the way I do you.Most of all Im sorry for every hurt Ive ever caused you.

Afraid to Get Hurt

I'm sorry that you're right L that I'm afraid to get hurt.... and because of that, I don't throw myself into relationships. It's not completely that either. I can't maintain my friendships, so how do you think I can maintain a relationship? If I can't make myself happy, I don't think I have the heart to disappoint someone if I can't make that person happy. If I was someone else or have that extra something else that I seem to be missing.. I don't know. I probably would even ask you out. But I don't know.

Love You Till the End

im sorry b...its never meant to happen like that...its all my fault...ill take everything you'll say to me..let's talk ill listen...i wont forced you to love me..but at least lets talk..love you till the end

For Cutting You Out

I'm sorry for cutting you out of my life. You see, I've never been able to let people in. I always keep a distance. I maintain ties with someone until it gets inconvenient for me, then I sever them. This is the way I've always been.

So, I'm sorry. You were nothing but kind to me, and you tried to keep our friendship going. But I got tired of you, so I stopped being your friend. You'll probably never hear from me again; once I'm done with someone, I never go back.

If it's any consolation, I'll probably never know what it's like to love someone, and I'll probably die totally alone.

I Miss You Both

I'm sorry what happened last year did.

I'm sorry that we may never be able to be friends.

I am sorry I still care so much for you and the child we lost.

I'm sorry I miss you both

To Mel

Mel,

I'm really really sorry :'(

I love you.

We Can't Be Together

I'm sorry we can't be together. If my situation were any different I would jump at the chance to be with you. You're perfect for me. I'm sorry I cannot just give up my life and start over with you. I can't do that to him and I'm too afraid to take that risk.

I will always wonder the rest of my life if we should have been together...if you were the one.

I'm sorry I can't fill that spot.

Believe me, I want to.

Ruined Everything

I'm sorry I ruined everything.

I'm Sorry I Don't Feel Guilty

I'm sorry I don't feel guilty. I wish I did. I'm cheating on you with a coworker. Actually, that's not true. Cheating is making a bad decision one time and knowing that it was wrong and stopping. I am having an affair: a full on affair of the heart, mind, body and soul. I am in love with the person I'm having an affair with. I would leave you and the kids for her, but she's in the same situation, and to make a move of that magnitude would have far reaching effects. At least we're being "rational" about that.

When I spend time with you, my heart is not in it; when we are intimate, I close my eyes and make love to her. I haven't sent you an email in months, while I send her 10 a day...

I wish I felt guilty, so that maybe her and I would break it off so that all our lives could return to normal. But I don't feel guilty, I just don't.

I have no idea what the future holds. You and I have so many "plans" but I'd drop them and you in heartbeat if she would just say the word.

I wonder what the long term effects of this will be. Where will my head and heart be in a year? Ten years? Will you know? Will her husband know? If we both leave our respective spouses for each other, will our relationship (hers and mine) survive the turmoil?

The funny thing is, you have noticed changes in me as a result of this relationship. If you stopped for a minute and put two and two together, you'd already know..

The Point of No Return

I am so sorry for letting time go by and not keeping in touch with you when things at home brought me down. Thinking I could bring myself out of the depths, I neglected the very essence of our friendship and failed to share with you what was bothering me. You once told me to always share whether in good times or in bad and that we can't always do things on our own. I feel I have reached the point of no return. Hopefully, someday I will have to courage to take that step and begin to rebuild the friendship I foolishly let slip away.

What I Never Dared to Tell You

I'm sorry I hurt you, and if I could do this all over again, I would choose a different way. A way which tells you how much I really care, and what I never dared to tell you. I love you.

To Madre

Madre,

I'm sorry that you feel bad about the way you raised me. I think you did a wonderful job, even if you don't agree. I had a happy childhood, and have matured into a well-rounded, happy, healthy, amazing adult. Thank you mom.

I'm Glad You're Safe

I'm sorry I can't/won't say it to you, but welcome home. I'm glad you're safe.

Can't Get Over You

A-

I'm sorry I can't get over you.

All the Female Officers

Michele B.,

i'm sorry i've had a crush on you for 2 years now and have never done anything about it. i don't think we'll ever be together in this lifetime but i wanted you to know that all the female officers break my heart. if our paths ever do cross again maybe i'll get the courage to ask you out. i'm so sorry about being this shy. i wish i wasn't.

Your Younger Sister

I wish I could tell you how sorry I am that I cheated on you for months with your younger sister. And that I still fantasize about her today even though it been like 10 years.

Too Weak

Mom...

I am sorry we never had the magic connection that you and my sister did. I think we just were not compatible personalities. I would have liked to have the idyllic mother-daughter relationship with you but I always felt you didn’t really like me. I am sorry I don’t spend more time with you. I know it must be lonely for you locked up in the house all day with only your homemakers for company. I am sorry I am too weak to watch you waste away before my eyes. I am sorry the disease has wasted your body so much yet leaves your mind mostly in tact...mostly. I I am so, so sorry that you were stricken like this mom. You don’t deserve this. I am sorry I cant make these words leave my lips….I love you.

Love and Finances

Baby I'm sorry that we are both going through a financially difficult time right now...I'm sorry that I'm three years older and have different needs...I'm sorry that we've only been dating for 3 months (even though it already feels like more)...and I'm sorry I can't speed up time...but I really want to live with you...to fall asleep in your arms every night and wake up to your face every morning...to cook for you...to take showers with you...to have crazy loud sex everyday...please save your money so we can get our own place!

Saving a Girl in Iran

I am sorry that none of my friends did anything after I tried to spread the word about a petition about saving a girl in Iran whose life is on the line. I'm so emotional about this because it's a human life here. I'm a guy and I think life is precious. I'm so angry that I don't see any of my friends' names after mine. I'm sorry I'm the only one of my friends who cares this much. It shouldn't be like this. We should all care, even if this is on the other side of the world.

Why You Suddenly Hate Me

I'm sorry that I don't know why you suddenly hate me. I'm sorry I care. It sucks that I can't trust anyone because they're all afraid or they're in your corner. But you know what? A simple explanation as to what I did to make you hate me all of a sudden might clear this all up. I'm sorry we made out. I'm sorry I told you how I felt about you. I'm sorry you regret ever making out with me. I'm sorry you probably think I was stalking you- which I wasn't! I'm sorry I can't get over you. I'm sorry you've put so much space between us that even if you did stop acting like a spoiled, childish infant and realize you're being petty and you still want me- it would probably be too late.

That My Apology is Too God-Awful

im sorry that my apology is too god-awful to even be able to post...and i sorry that im the most terribly selfish awful girl on the planet! and im sorry that i haven't committed suicide...yet.

My Depression

Freddy, I am sorry that my depression made me treat you like garbage. I would give anything to be well, and to have not hurt you.

A Terrible Girlfriend

I just dont know what to say. Im sorry. I am a terrible girlfriend, and I know it. You know it but deny it because you say you love me. Things are wonderful compared to 6 months ago. I am a much better person than I used to be, I have turned my life around and yet there is still so much fear. How could you forgive me? What could I possibly say to wipe the slate clean, and get these memories out of our relationship?

For So Many Things

I am sorry for so many things...hundreds of things.

Im so incredibly sorry for cheating on you. You still have no clue, and it kills me sometimes. I went behind your back, two or three times with the same guy...I was planning on leaving you for him, I wanted to be with him so badly until I realized how idiotic I was being. I don't know what happened, maybe it was when I actually tried to break up with you that did it. I couldnt believe what I was doing. Watching your face. Shoving you away. I didn't want you to touch me, I was ashamed. You tried so hard to hold me that night, to get me in the car. You wanted to talk, I couldnt. I couldnt stand your anger anymore, how violent you used to get. You hated him, you thought you knew what was going on but I couldnt even look at you to deny it...and oddly enough, it was him that brought me back to you. When he started attacking you, something deep within me rose up and literally, verbally kick his ass. No one talks about him that way, no matter how correct it is. NO ONE. Wow, why am I being so protective? Do I still care? I still love him?

Im so sorry. I cant marry you yet, I will keep on saying no until I tell you where I really was those nights so long ago. I feel so lame typing this out online, on some website. I will always care for him, to be honest. Even now I think about him sometimes, because he touched my life. I did want to be with him at the time as he knew what he wanted out of life, and you didnt. He worked hard, you didnt. He never yelled, you did. I thought he was saving me from someone who only hurt me, to find out...I was just running away. I was afraid to communicate, that is why you yelled. You dont have anger problems, you only got frustrated when I put my walls up. Im sorry its been difficult. Im sorry Im so fragile, and have never trusted you. I have never trusted any man since "it" happened, and Im so sorry it has affected you this way. Thank God all of this was over a year ago...and yet, I cant get it out of my head. I cant shake off the thought I need to tell you the truth...but I know you will leave. I am sorry for being so selfish and keeping this to myself. I cant help it. I want you for me now.

O I am so incredibly sorry. Some days it is hard to look you in the eyes, because over a year has gone by, we have built trust up in each other, and have such a wonderful life...I dont know why we pulled through, I dont know how we are still together after everything. When you cheated on me, I wanted to die...at least you told me. I still cant tell you. How could I explain it to you? "I thought I was going to leave you for him, even though I wanted to marry you." It doesnt make sense, I cant explain it other than I was confused, stupid, afraid. He wanted me more badly than you did at the time, and I loved it. I just ate it up. A mature, "older" man who had already "grown up." Finally, someone who called me beautiful every chance he got.

I almost threw away love for compliments.

I am so sorry. I do not know how you could ever forgive me, because I cannot forgive myself.

Taking My Life

I am sorry that I expressed to anyone that I have thought about taking my life. Now they all look at me like a poor, pathetic, crazy person.

Lame Excuses

sorry we use lame excuses of holidays to communicate with each other. i miss you sorry you suck.

Sex with Your Husband

i'm sorry i had sex with your husband. he couldn't even get that hard and i don't even like men. i am really, truly sorry. please forgive me.

For Being a Heroin Addict and Alcoholic

i'm sorry for being a heroin addict and an alcoholic. i'm sorry i've aged my parents. i'm sorry i got married too young and cheated on you several times. i'm sorry i'll never get the courage to leave you and come out as a lesbian. i'm sorry i'll never have enough money. i'm sorry i don't have my own house. i'm sorry the litterbox isn't clean. i'm sorry to smash your dream but you'll never be a cop. i'm sorry i couldn't say "no". i'm sorry i'm bipolar, or borderline or whatever you want to call it. i'm sorry i can't hold a job. i'm sorry for always borrowing money. i'm sorry i need to leave this county and move to where no one knows me so i can get a fresh start. i'm sorry i'll probably never get the balls to do that and will die soon. i'm sorry i lived past 23. i'm just plain sorry for everything.

The Unreturned Phone Call

Michael,

I am so sorry I didn't return the phone call to your friend Lee about the car he had for sale. I hope he made the sale to someone else and was then able pay his wife's tuition to school. I didn't think about you, Lee and his wife and I realize how selfish I was in not returning his phone call immediately and letting him know I was not interested in purchasing the car.

You took the time to help me, trusted me to behave in a respectful manner toward your friend and I let you down miserably and I'm embarrassed that I behaved in this self serving manner. I'm painfully aware every hour and every day that I've ruined our friendship beyond repair and I deeply regret letting everyone down.

t

Sorry I Dumped on Everyone

Sorry i dumped on everyone--

I'm sorry i dumped on everyone over the years. I didn't know who or what i was and then what to do about it.

I'm sorry it took me 30+ years to figure out i am transgendered and get to the point i am a strong enough person to make the transition.

I just hope i can be a better person now with this change...

Weight Off My Shoulders

I am sorry that I believed my mother when she told me that I was stupid, fat, ugly and worthless. I am sorry that I allowed this to become sexually active at 13. I am sorry that I dumbed myself down and used my body to get sex in order to feel better about myself. I am sorry that I made some horribly bad choices that led to me dropping out of college and fulfilling my mother's prophecies. I am sorry that I became a whore and a slut. I am sorry that I never told about being molested as a child. I am sorry that I never realized that there were people in my life who I could have talked to about my problems. I am sorry that I took after my mother when it came to saving face and doing what appeals to others.

I am sorry that I did not apologize for this sooner. I might not have been so needy and gotten married to a man who is a really nice person, but lazy, unfocused, disorganized and without goals. I am sorry that we have a child now although I love our baby more than life itself.

I am sorry that I do not have the strength to ask for a divorce. Maybe because I am not sure if that is the way to go. Our baby would be devastated.

I am not sorry that I am learning and putting into practice taking care of my whole self. I am sorry I did not do it sooner. I am not sorry that I am accomplishing my goals, just sorry that at my age, I am just figuring it all out.

This has been some serious weight off my shoulders. I am not sorry that I did this.

That You Are Who You Are

Im sorry that you are who you are and that who you are makes me want to drive my car into a tree or a telephone pole because i want you so damn much.

To My Body

I'm sorry to my body.

Sorry for neglecting to care for you properly. For stuffing you too full of food because I felt out of control of my life. For neglecting to exercise you properly. I'm sorry its so hard for me to get my eating under control. I'm sorry for the times in the past that I made myself throw up because of my bingeing. I'm sorry that I'm 100 pounds overweight and I know it sounds like an excuse, but it's so hard to stop eating when I feel so sad about everything. I keep trying and failing. I really am sorry.

Such High Standards

I'm sorry that I have such high standards for dating. And I'm sorry that I have such low standards for hooking up with people. I see things I like in everyone, but I also see things I dont like in everyone.

I'm sorry that I havent been able to find someone who is right for me, and I'm sorry to all the guys who are trying. Its starting to seem like there is no hope for a relationship with me.

Sorry that I'll hook up with you but probably not date you.

Sorry People Are So Screwed Up

sorry people are so screwed up. the longer i am here on the planet the more messed up i feel, and the more messed up others appear, to me. sorry people aren't happy and that when we are legitimately and deeply unhappy other people try to force us to pretend that everything is fine. sorry that i was once one of those people (who tried to make others pretend everything was fine), until i started to get a clue. sorry that i left my boyfriend for someone else w/whom i -thought- it would work out, and that two years later, my ex canceled plans with me, drove to get drugs after over a decade of courage, hard work, and drug- and alcohol-free abstinence, relapsed, and died. sorry that our friendship was cut off before it could be fully repaired and trust regained. i am so sorry that people live in such incredible pain.

Nothing for Which I Should Be Sorry

I am sorry that I have nothing for which I should be sorry...

Yes, I have cheated on hot wonderful girlfriends; I have lied to my parents and everyone around me. I said I had a brain tumor and that was why I was having headaches. But that wasn't true! It is so bizarre that they found an actual tumor when they did the MRI and I can't tell you how weird it was to have brain surgery and a subsequent brain hemmorhage, on Sept. 11th, 1995. To then lie in a coma for three days still didn't make me feel sorry for telling you that string of lies that was really just a front for the fact I couldn't stand to continue the altogether incredible life we had made for ourselves on Kaua'i. I just could live without intercourse though. Blowjobs are great and everything but I couldn't help that you had that bizarre "vulvar vestibulitis" that prevented us for boning 6 times a day like normal lovers do.

Sorry for not having anything for which I should feel sorry about...

Can't Handle This

Im sorry i can't handle this. im turning my phone off and shutting off my computer. I need it all to stop everything.

To Crystal

I'm sorry to Crystal for telling people in 8th grade that she was a lesbian, which she had confided in me about. I'm so sorry for painting it as a negative. I was afraid and I didn't understand, not that there is any excuse.

I'm Sorry I'm Losing You

I'm sorry I am not what I was when we met. Careless, Happy, Posiitive, and most importaintly enjoyable company. Sorry I've let this depression get the best of me. I'm sorry this Medication makes me feel and act like an empty shell. I'm sorry I'm losing you.

The Buzz

I'm sorry I let the Buzz control my life. Im sory i left your father on his birth-day to get high. IM SORRY that my past will make you split your time between your mother and your father. But most of all Im sorry that God picked me to be your mother. But dont you worry, you mean more to me than any buzz. See you when you arrive.

Sex with a Low Life

I am sorry I had sex with a low life, 23 years ago, that gave me an STD for life. I am sorry I have to feel like a skank everyday of my life and not worthy of ever being loved. I am sorry I just want to be loved...

I'm Sorry I Can't Get Pregnant

I'm sorry I can't get pregnant. I'm sorry I have to see pregnant women and women with children all the time. I'm sorry I feel like a failure of a woman. I'm sorry I found out today that it isn't only my fault we haven't conceived.

I'm sorry this made me feel a little better. Like it wasn't all me.

I'm sorry I have thoughts like I've had today.

Messed Everything Up

I'm sorry i messed everything up; we could have been so happy together. You thought i didn't have feelings for you, but i really did, and still do. I should have never dated him, knowing you were the one I truely liked. Next time i know to follow my heart and not worry what other people might think of me.

To My Parents

I'm sorry to my parents for having these parties when they're not home. Actually, it's pretty funny that I am getting away with it, too. Yes!

Sorry I Ruined It

I'm sorry I ruined it for my two best friends. And I'm even more sorry that the other ten people didn't even care.

I'm sorry I scared you and ran off like that. I shouldn't have. But I don't ever know what else to do. I need some help.

The Need to Apologize

I'm sorry I keep feeling the need to apologize, like it's all my fault when actually, it's not ALL my fault. I'm sorry you're an immature jerk who still believes in the "silent treatment"- grow up. You're middle-aged.

Breathlessly in Love

hey I'm sorry that after all this time I still love you, and even after all these years, and after we both have great relationships with significant long term others, when I'm near you I feel electriciy, my heart pounds, my palms sweat, and I feel lightheaded. I feel so guilty every time I talk to our other halves, I feel like they can sense the electricity and I try not to make eye contact for fear that my eyes reveal my feelings. I feel like a tightly coiled spring about to give when you're near, I can't explain it. I think you are so awesome, in every way, you're smart, and funny and I feel that we have this deep intimate connection. You haven't let growing older dampen your great crazy teenage spirit and energy. The last time I saw you, you looked more radiant and beautiful then ever.

Mostly I feel guilty so I guess I'm issuing a pre-emptive apology to our significant long term others.

Sorry that I'm breathlessly in love with you.

For My Boss

I'm sorry I wish for my boss to go to jail for his DUI.

Actually, not really sorry because he deserves to go to jail.

I'm just sorry I have lowered my ethics to work for that disgusting pig.

I'm Sorry We Had Sex

To my ex boyfriend:

Seven years ago you broke my heart when you left..I had to learn to live without you and somehow I did..Life was good..Then Vegas happened..I am sorry we had sex..

I hope you don't think I want you back..It was only sex..I realized that I am a better person without you and your chaos..

I am also sorry for telling you about your brother..

Take care

For Lacking Enough Self Respect

I am sorry for lacking enough self respect to just do the right thing and realize that you do understand. I am sorry for the lies, the deception, and letting you believe I am someone that I am not. I will never truly understand why I have done the things I have.

I will always love you. Long after you stop loving me.

Space

i'm sorry i take up so much space.

Sorry I'm Not Undisciplined

I'm sorry I'm not undisciplined about working out and eating puff pastry until I'm a fat and then complain all the time that I'm fat and that you hate me for being skinny and having some goddamn willpower.

That I Like Other Guys

im sorry that you have so much invested in me, while i see you only as a fling, something fun.

im sorry that i like other guys and that ive cheated on you, when you think everything is perfect.

youve put me in the quite the dilemma.

im the only one you see and if i were to leave you, it would [quite literally] send you over the edge.

so what am i do? tell the truth and hurt you, or keep lying and hurt myself?

To Those Who Write Suicide Notes

I'm sorry that this world can be so cruel that it makes it difficult for people to learn to love themselves...instead of seeking that love in others or in things...I'm sorry that people get to that point where they don't see what the point is to keep on living...But I've been there...for nine years I suffered...for really no reason at all other than myself...I can't tell you how to love yourself and see that life is worth living for...but all I can say is to please try...Depression is such a lonely state, but when you realize that everyone feels, suffers, and thinks the same things...then you don't have to suffer alone...You learn to see the beauty that is life and that things change...they always do and if you have a positive mentality...they change for the better...Please find that inner strength of yours because I know it is there and hang on with all your might because there is someone that loves you very much (and you can find that love for yourself)

Until Something Better Comes Along

I'm sorry but I know ill never love you, but im going to start this anyway. You said everything to me that i've always wanted to hear, just not from you. Im sorry im horrible but your convinent and we'll waste time until something better comes along.

Sorry I Have a Crush on You

i'm sorry i have a crush on you. you're my best friend. but you're so hot!

The Anthill

i'm sorry i kicked over the anthill that one time. i still cry about it sometimes. i swear.

That I'm a Lesbian

friends and family:

i'm sorry that i'm a lesbian and that i have an eating disorder and that i'll never tell you either.

Cyber Sex

i'm sorry i read your text messages. i'm sorry that you spend all your time having cyber sex; i'm sorry that you've thrown away your chances of getting into a good school. i'm sorry i can't help you. i'm sorry you resent me for being the younger sibling. i'm sorry your heart was broken. i'm sorry you can't get over it.

i'm sorry

For Being Alive

i'm sorry for being alive but it's something i can fix.

That People Feel Bad...

I'm sorry that people feel bad for masturbating. Don't feel bad. Its normal.

Cheating and Transformers

I'm sorry you could cheat on me without it really bothering you, and that the first and only time I did I couldn't stand the thought of being able to do that to you. Sorry I lied to you about why I wanted to break up, just didn't want to put it out there like you did for me.

And I'm sorry that the Transformers Movie is coming out in July instead of earlier.

Your Stupid Friends

I'm sorry that I hate your stupid friends.

To a Dear Sister

I'm sorry, dear sister, that you can't love me. I try very hard to please you, but it just makes you more and more critical. I hope you do very well in law school.

You Are Not Weak

RE: "That I Cry"

I am sorry that you think of yourself as weak.

Here is what someone said to me once when I was feeling 'embarrassed' about having cried in front of someone, and worried that they would now see me as 'weak':

"What I would say to him is this: do not make her feel that for her to cry shatters some cherished image, diminishes your veneration, when it should, in fact, only enlarge it. Few things take as much awe-worthy courage as being vulnerable. Few things require as much real strength as opening yourself up to a fellow human being, showing the emotions we're 'not supposed to' reveal, and reaching out, from your heart to theirs."

You are not weak.

Someone Else's Husband

i'm sorry i slept someone else's husband. although shes a bitch and she doesn't deserve him....its was messed up for me to lead him to believe i was into him as much as he was into me. and now i regret ever replying to his sweet sweet worrds.

Cut Deeper

I'm sorry I cut myself again today.

I don't know why I thought things might be different this time, with this guy. He was sweet, called me baby and sweetheart, kissed me so tenderly, made me feel like something special. And then he got his blowjob and walked out the door, the second guy in three months to do that.

I can't figure out what I'm doing wrong. I just want it to stop hurting and cutting is the only way I know to relieve that kind of pain.

I hate myself. I wish I was brave enough to cut deeper.

I'm Sorry Jesus

I'm sorry Jesus

I'm sorry that I can't stop pleasuring myself to the picture of Rachel Ray on the Triscuits box.

That I Spent New Years Eve Alone

I'm sorry that I spent new years eve alone, with my younger brother, drinking champagne and watching movies. It was lonely and I went to bed feeling lousy and depressed.

I couldn't help thinking that this is not the way that things should be. People look at me and they think my life is perfect. They envy me, but they have no idea how lonely I really am. If they only knew...

Why is it that we (kind, generous, intelligent, and beautiful people) are alone?

I know you are wonderful, and I hope you didn't spend new years alone...

Not Without Conscience

To Barbara Olin, Jodi Shields and Jackie Ferrence:

I was 18, and had no clue as to how self centered I was. I do know that I loved you all, but alas, not enough, nor in the way a friend should know.

I took from each of you, trust,loyalty, and compassion, and cashed those gifts in on a binge of self indulgence and greed.

It's been close to 30 years, and there is NOT one day I wake that I have not thought of how stupid a boy I was, and what freindships I threw away.

I know it is too late to seek forgiveness, but I need to somehow announce to the universe, that I am truly sorry, and that I am not without conscience as a grown man.

I do hope that time has been kind to all of you, and that Kharma has been fulfilled.

From an Objectivist

I am sorry that you are closeminded.

I am sorry that you can't accept me for being gay, and because of that you and I grew farther apart.

I am sorry, parents, for not being a Christian. After I was beaten by a group of ministers for not being american (sorry for that) and after being touched by a priest (sorry for being male), I just don't feel it anymore.

Finally, I apologize to all for being an Objectivist.

I Got So Drunk

I am soory I got so drunk and made you feel uncomfortable. I am sorry for the ex who had a blood transfusion that went wrong and now his bones are brittle. i feel sorry that he destroyed my heart and now he is a mess and addicted to pain killers and I am sorry I got over him. I am sorry I never want to see him again.

Anything Right

I'm sorry I can't do anything right.