Is That Not Bravery?
A 32 year old wrote a message on here thinking they were weak, and apologizing for being so. When we are born, all of us has a strength inside, a courage that allows us to confront a world we have never seen before. Some have to dig deep to find it, like the 14 year old girl with an abusive father; or a 3x divorced woman who cannot move on emotionally from an abusive relationship.
The heart is a vast hurricane, that can be harnessed with perseverance, but which cannot fully be controlled; it is in our ideas, hopes, desires and even apologies, that we tap into our inner selves and determine what aligns with our compass of right and wrong. Few people hope to be divorced, or to be tricked by someone they love. It is moving beyond these erroneous actions of others that we may find bravery.
A child, who stands up to his father to keep him from beating his mother... is that not bravery? A woman on the sidewalk sees a parent strike their child and does something.. is that not bravery? A boyfriend forgives his girlfriend after cheating on him.. is that not bravery? A girl allows a boy to love her, even though she doesn't love herself.. is that not bravery? A wife leaves her husband after he has hit her yet again.. is that not bravery? We have one life to live, and many things to be sorry for, but facing it and realizing there is something better... is that not bravery?
I applaud all who dare to write an apology here, for it is the first step, one may hope, to atoning for what they have done to the person it concerns. A life full of regret is not brave, it is sad.. actionable regret is lonely.. a truly isolated place to reside in the world. I would talk to you, but I have no greatness of mind to pass on.. only an ear to listen. My diary is my ear, and someday if I ever have children - they will truly know me as few else do.
I love you.. all.. regardless of what you have done, or not done.
I am sorry I cannot be there to hold your hand when you cry. Or to catch you should you fall. We all need help from time to time...
As a postscript I might add: no I am not religious, just a sociologist of sorts, and what I hope most of all.. a good person - like you.
The heart is a vast hurricane, that can be harnessed with perseverance, but which cannot fully be controlled; it is in our ideas, hopes, desires and even apologies, that we tap into our inner selves and determine what aligns with our compass of right and wrong. Few people hope to be divorced, or to be tricked by someone they love. It is moving beyond these erroneous actions of others that we may find bravery.
A child, who stands up to his father to keep him from beating his mother... is that not bravery? A woman on the sidewalk sees a parent strike their child and does something.. is that not bravery? A boyfriend forgives his girlfriend after cheating on him.. is that not bravery? A girl allows a boy to love her, even though she doesn't love herself.. is that not bravery? A wife leaves her husband after he has hit her yet again.. is that not bravery? We have one life to live, and many things to be sorry for, but facing it and realizing there is something better... is that not bravery?
I applaud all who dare to write an apology here, for it is the first step, one may hope, to atoning for what they have done to the person it concerns. A life full of regret is not brave, it is sad.. actionable regret is lonely.. a truly isolated place to reside in the world. I would talk to you, but I have no greatness of mind to pass on.. only an ear to listen. My diary is my ear, and someday if I ever have children - they will truly know me as few else do.
I love you.. all.. regardless of what you have done, or not done.
I am sorry I cannot be there to hold your hand when you cry. Or to catch you should you fall. We all need help from time to time...
As a postscript I might add: no I am not religious, just a sociologist of sorts, and what I hope most of all.. a good person - like you.
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Thank you. A kindred soul indeed. I have written many times on here, trying, to get beyond the massive amount of pain that I experience every time I look back on 14 years of marriage and companionship with my ex husband (whom I worshiped) that left me for my best friend, no less.
I have tried to be brave but never thought of myself as such. I just figured I was a very well compartmentalizing person who can get through anything with the right amount of organization to my thoughts.
To that end, here is a brave rundown of my life since my divorce and mainly I am leaving this here because I need to:
I no longer drink, I quit cold turkey. I still collect wines. I also don't associate with anyone who drinks, smokes, or abuses their bodies for the sake of a fleeting good feeling under the guise of a party.
I no longer take any medication for the so called bipolar disorder I was being treated for with the doctors office that my ex husband wanted me to go to. AND I AM FINE. It just turns out my attitude didn't bend the right way with my ex's thought of how women should submit to him. (And he was an atheist). According to my wonderful Dr Calhoun, I suffer from a well defined ptsd related depression from being mentally abused.. I never even thought I was mentally abused until I talked to my doctor.
My ex husband committed the worst crime of all and got away with it, he convinced me I had an illness that we needed to control, when in reality he wanted someone who was a puppet. From what her friends tell me, she is indeed that puppet for him.
I now work for a fantastic employer, one of the largest in my state, at a fantastic rate of 14.50 an hour...Not bad at all for a high school 9th grade dropout who's been married twice, and manages to attract losers who wants to be users of weaker minded people.
On the downside, I do not have female friends I consider close and the man I now love, I keep at arms length where he appears to be happy at, hoping one day to let my heart be encompassed in love again that is pure and true...
I return to this website from time to time, to see if I can offer anonymous advice to anyone who is in a situation similar to mine and my best advice is still this:
Chin up. Keep up the good fight, and life is nothing if not a fight, to not let this world drag you down, and to find strength within to keep moving forward.
Good luck to us all.
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