I Felt We Were Such Tight Friends

im sorry i didnt know my friendship was less important in your eyes all of these years. i felt we were such tight friends. i let myself trust without doubt...i know better and yet it was real and i can have no regrets, we had the best of times good and bad, you are so special and always will be. i will hold the memory of a close friend in my heart always. be happy my friend. i cant help but want the best for someone i cared about for so long. this hurts more than i can allow myself to feel. i am broken. i wish you knew the friend youve always had in me, the friend you pushed away. i really know you...the real you. its so damn hard to accept the harshness of it all...why should i be spared? i guess i believed in you, your heart, your soul. seemed so pure...so genuine...best friends thru it all. i have fought to hang on for so long, so unlike me with friends. its the very thing that gave me the strength to go on...to understand you, to not let go of a friend that i value so much. i juat cant fight anymore, it makes no sense and i have to accept it...friendship is or it isnt...i have no choice but to just go away. its what you want from me. i miss you already...ive missed you for a while now. your true friend