I'm sorry:
That I was to much of a chump to dump you when you were a bitch to me all the time
That I believed you when you said you didn't cheat on me with my cousin
That I believed you when you said the guy you were hanging out with after work was "just a friend"
That I didn't pull out in time when I knew didn't take your pill consistently
That I married you when I didn't want to
That I worked 2 jobs and bought a house so our beautiful son could grow up in our home instead of a daycare
That I told you that I loved you when I didn't. That is the ONLY time I ever lied to you
That I thought that if I was good to you respectful and honest that some day I to would actually feel loved
That I thought our marriage could ever last and we could give our son the loving family life neither of us ever had.
That I let the relationship go on till the resentment built up so much that I hated everything about you while you probly thought I would let you walk all over me for the rest of our lives.
That I hated you so much that I didn't feel bad about it when I had sex with your best friend on our living room floor while you were passed out in our bedroom. That was the only time I ever cheated on you.
That I enjoyed enjoyed it so much.
That I didn't tell you about it when I filed for divorce 9 months later when I actually had proof that you were cheating on me agian.
That you turned into such a bar whore after we split up
That our son will now grow up in a broken home like we did
That I am not the confident man I was when I left you
That I am not the father I thought I could be without some one to fight with all the time
That I look at you and your new boyfriend and wonder were I fit in in my son’s life
That I feel that your new boyfriend is a better father figure than I could ever be again. I used to be a good dad
That I have become such a worthless piece of shit. Without a family of my own I am nothing.
That I wasted 5 1/2 years of my life with you
That I have so much hatred in my heart that I cannot let go
That I ever met you
That every day I wish I would die. A dead father is better than a father that you cannot be proud of and look up to but rather are just ashamed of. That is how I feel about my own and I feel as though I am becoming more like him every day
