To the Decent People of AA

Admitted to God, to myself and another human being the exact nature of my wrongs! I want to apologize to some of the truly decent people who attend AA for leaving your "fellowship". The closest I am going to get to Step 4 is this website. I don't believe in your doctrines but each to their own. The nature of my wrongs was drinking, period. It hurt me and a lot of other people, period. This is my completed step and I won't be spending any more time mulling it over. I have a life to live and I am going to get on with it.

To Everyone on My MSN List

To everyone on my msn list (particularly my twin);

i'm sorry for always signing in and out. I cant help it that my wireless sucks and nobody has a clue on how to fix it. i know its annoying. im sorry.

Still Bitter

I'm sorry for wishing that you would never work out with any of your girlfriends after we broke up. I'm sorry that I am actually still bitter. It does not help that I actually wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. I'm sorry.

Not Good Enough

I'm sorry for not being good enough for you.

I'm sorry you never loved me like I love you. I'm sorry I allowed you to hurt me the way you have. But I am not sorry I met you.

To My Half Sister

I realize you don't want anything to do with me, but I find it hard to apologize when you are so much like me. You don't realize I was hurt too. If I was to email you would you forgive me for not understanding how you felt. Forgive me for not being there.

Blackout

I obviously said something to you that has caused you to want nothing more to do with me. I don't even know what it was as I was in a "blackout". Yes I drank, I drank a lot, but now I don't. If I could turn back time I would. Just to let you know you are still always in my heart my friend.

Uncertain

i'm sorry for being uncertain about what i want from us anymore. i'm sorry you broke up with me and showed me what life is like without you - if you hadn't done that, i never would have seen it and now I wouldn't be so undecided.

For Stealing Your Money

I'm sorry for stealing your money. I really didn't mean to but I had no other way to get money that quickly to pay off my bills. I hope you both can forgive me.

Not Conflicted About Israel

I'm sorry that I'm not conflicted about Israel - and that as a Jew, an American Jew (obviously deeply tied to Israel), I find myself with little to no remorse over her actions in fighting an enemy of both the United States and Israel (I'm sorry if you can not remember far back enough to know that Hezbollah killed 200+ Americans in Beirut). I am truly saddened by death on all sides, but when push comes to shove I'll side with the people on my side of the border. And again, I am truly sorry if you don't see it my way - Erin go Bragh --- I mean Long Live Israel! (I'm sorry that some people don't understand my affinity for the Irish)...

Hugs, Kisses to All....

Social Studies Teacher

im sorry my social studies teacher is a dick, and i'm supposed to be researching child labor right now. please forgive me.

War

I'm sorry I am not at the rally opposing the current war today. I'm sorry that I am conflicted about Israel, and uncomfortable in certain contexts expressing my concern. I'm sorry that as a Jew I am deeply tied to Israel, and deeply ashamed of her actions. I'm sorry that the hatred of a government and its military aggression, often becomes a hatred of all people's under that government. I'm sorry that I can't do more to bridge that gap. I'm sorry that people's homes are being destroyed and children are living in fear. I'm sorry that young men are forced to serve in the army. I'm sorry that countries continue to hate each other.

I'm sorry that people continue to kill each other. I'm sorry that I'm not doing more about it, except submitting an anonymous apology.

High School Apology

I was a horrible friend our senior year in high school. We were supposed to be the best. I can't believe that I wrote you that horrible letter. It was so immature of me, and I know you didn't deserve it. I can't give you any reason but that I was severely depressed and considering suicide at that time in my life. I know you never knew that but I wish that I could tell you now. I want to call you and talk it out, but I'm afraid that you've already moved on when I guess that I haven't. This is one of the things in my life that I feel the worst about, tossing you away for nothing. Please forgive me. I miss you!

So Real

I'm sorry I called and worried you, I'm sorry you saw that kiss, I'm sorry there was a kiss, I'm sorry I dont know why, I'm sorry I cant explain, I'm sorry I can't tell you that I really think I love you, I'm sorry that we never made it, I'm sorry that I am not the person you are, I'm sorry It's so real, I'm sorry that you deserve better and got this, I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry.

For Hurting Such a Good Person

im sorry for thinking of my reasons during our breakup and not yours. i realize that your reaosns were rational, but misinterpreted on my part. now you are not here with me to spend life together as we had promised eachother. now i sit and wonder if you are thinking of me in the same way but arent strong enough to pick up the phone... i hope we can be together soon, and talk abt things...for now im just so sorry i hurt such a good person like you for being so selfish.

My All

I'm sorry I haven't given it my all.

For Not Running After You

I'm so sorry. I made out with you when I didn't love you completely. I'm sorry that when that girl walked in and ran out, I ran after her and not you. I'm sorry I lied repeatedly about it afterwords. It happened 6 years ago and it still withers me every time I think of it. My bad. Really.

The Dancer

I'm sorry I'm not much of a dancer. Wishing to be better at these things won't make it happen, and I am sorry that's all I seem to be doing these days. Some day, perhaps sometime before I get too old, I shall dance the samba.

Country to Country

i'm sorry my country nuked your country.

Finally Be Happy

I'm sorry that I've spent so much of my time in college doing things that were not worth my time, and that soon my time will be up. I'm sorry that all the times I could have chosen to be happy, I did not.

If I can apologize and forgive myself, then maybe I can move on and finally be happy with myself.

Falling in Love

i'm sorry i fell in love with you when you told me not to. i didn't listen. i couldn't help it. you are absolutely wonderful.

I'm Sorry I Couldn't Stop This

I'm sorry I couldn't stop this.

I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me. I'm sorry I didn't know how to talk to you. I'm sorry I wasn't more explicit. I'm sorry that I took your word for it when you said you were being careful, that I wanted to avoid awkward discussions.

I'm sorry I didn't take you to the clinic myself to get you condoms. I'm sorry we only talked once about HIV before it was too late. I'm sorry I didn't have the right words to say or things to do to keep you safe. I'm sorry that I didn't see the urgency, that I let myself believe it couldn't happen to someone I loved.

I'm so sorry you live in a place without access to the drugs that could save you. I'm sorry that you can't get a visa to come here. I'm sorry that drug companies here are making money while you're dying.

I'm sorry you've got AIDS. I'm so sorry that you're still just a kid and you're dying, and there is nothing I can do about it.

I'm sorry that sometimes I get sad when we talk. I'm sorry that sometimes I lose patience with a health care system that is beyond broken. I'm sorry that sometimes I don't know how to convince you to do what you need to do to take care of yourself.

I love you so much. I'm sorry that some days, I can't focus on the love, because all I can think about is how much I'm going to miss you, and how guilty I feel that I let this happen.

I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I'm sorry that I'm starting to let you go.

To An Ex

I'm sorry... I used my ex-girlfriend's password to check her online photo album to see what her life is like without me. I'm sorry I was glad when I didn't see you more happy without me. I'm just so very sorry. You dumped me, and I'm not that kind of ex-. I'm sorry I even wanted to look. I'm sorry that every time I think I'm over it, I think about all the ways I'm not. But most of all, I'm sorry there was a time you trusted me with that information and now you can't.

For Trying to Seduce You

i'm sorry for trying to seduce you when i knew you were with someone else. i was being selfish. i was just real needy.

Sperm

i'm sorry that i resent you for not being able to give me sperm. i know it's not your fault that you are a woman and that we are lesbians, but i want a baby!!!!!!!!!

That You Were Ever Born

I'm sorry I didn't throw you out of the house and divorce your sorry ass sooner. I'm sorry I worked like a dog to make the marriage work while all you could do is lie, cheat and steal. I'm sorry I didn't send you to jail for all of it. I'm also sorry that you'll never figure it out. Duh, drinking your favorite cocktails while driving to work everyday? Duh, I hate cigarettes, don't smoke and won't hang out with those who do, but it's OK to smoke dope when the wifey-poo wasn't looking. Duh, stealing MY hard earned money to buy stocks for yourself behind my back? Duh, Mr. I-can't-get-it-up for my wife but it's perfectly acceptable & so much fun to spend late night hours on internet ponography when she's not looking? Duh, making a lifestyle assumption that lying is acceptable because the marriage counselor once commented, "people lie for different reasons"....I can't figure out who was the bigger fool, you or him. Duh, constantly accusing ME of the things YOU were doing behind my back?

Is it too late for your mother to have an abortion? I'm so sorry you were ever born.

I feel so much better now!

Who I Am

I'm sorry that I was too scared to talk to your friends and to give you head (I just wasn't that good at it at the time) I know that if we had met later in life maybe we would have worked out better, we probably would have been perfect. Except that I had an "F"-ed up childhood and must not have gained the best social skills there. Sorry I just wanted to sleep with you right away, I know we should have waited, but I just moved out of my house and I was young and stupid. Sorry I had like 8 one night stands after you, but I was depressed and sorry for telling them to get the "F" out afterwards. I never even liked any of them. I guess I could blame why I had no respect for my body on when someone I was forced to trust got me drunk tried doing stuff to me when I was passed out, or I could blame my constent doubt of myself on my mom who refused to believe my story. Really I am sorry to my current boyfriend that I still think of my past boyfiend (that would have been perfect for me) sometimes and wonder what he's doing. I know it never would have worked out between us though, because he had a really tiny... I'm serious It was very small. I guess I'm mostly sorry for being who I am.

Apologies and Non-Apologies or: The Perils of Love

I'M SORRY

...that I never got the chance to tell you how much of a lying whore you are to your face. I much rather would have yelled at you in a crowded room about how you lied to me for all those months, telling me that you never cheated on me, when you had been cheating on me all that time.

...I ever asked a slut like you to marry me.

...that it's not the dark ages, when infidelity was punished more severely.

...that I changed to be the person I thought you wanted me to be, and ended up as someone who I despised.

...that I thought about changing my entire life so that yours would be better.

...I tried to be the best man you ever knew in your life, and I got cheated on and left because of it.

...that when I asked for my ring back that first time, I didn't just keep it and kicked your lying ass out on the street.

I'M NOT SORRY

...that you left me, because if you hadn't, we'd be married and that would have been the biggest mistake of my life.

...that you didn't stay until I got that money that was coming to me. My original plan was to give it to you, so you could go back to school. Instead, I bought a bunch of useless shit that I didn't need (and was really expensive), paid off two of my credit cards, and spent the rest of it drinking in bars.

...that as shitty as my life was at times, it makes me enjoy what I have now even more. Because of you and the breakup, I lost my apartment, my job, my self respect, and myself. Now, I have a pretty nice place all to myself, I have a job that I love and that pays me twice as much as I was making before, I've found that I can get through anything that life throws at me as long as I just keep my head down and keep moving, and I've discovered who I really am inside, and that's not going to change for anyone, ever again.

But what I'm really NOT sorry about is giving those creditors that are looking for you all your friends and family's phone numbers, in the hopes that they will reach you and suck you dry. No matter how bad your life is right now, it's about to get worse.

Asking Nicely

I'm sorry I don't know how to ask nicely.

For Acting Like a Dick

I am sorry for acting like a dick and for those who have been hurt by me. I just tryed to be social. I just wanted to interact with the crowd.

I tryed to be someone else but that brought me hell.

I'm sorry

Driving Away

I'm sorry that I hurt people. I drove my fiance away, I drove my teenager away, and I drove my ex husband away (though he probably deserved it).

For Leaving

i'm sorry i had to leave. i didn't want to. i was forced to by circumstances beyond my control. i miss seeing you very much. i think about you all the time. i know it's hard, but i just wish you would talk to me directly. i am coming to see you again as soon as i possibly can. i hope you will still be wearing the leather bracelet i gave you.

An Attack

I am sorry for attacking you 17 years ago and then lying about it to the police and to everyone else. I am sorry for getting away with it, and then rubbing that into your face.

For Mistakes I've Made

I'm sorry that i'm afraid to speak. I'm sorry that i'm worthless and useless.

I'm sorry that i couldn't speak to you and now i've lost you.

I'm sorry about that time i kissed him, i'm sorry about how i acted.

I'm sorry about everything i've done,a ll the mistakes i've made.

For Deliberate Sins

This apology is to our Heavenly Father; I'm sorry for all the times I've disappointed you, for all my careless mistakes and especially for my deliberate sins. Please forgive me, but let me not forget. As through remembrance, I might not choose such a repetitive course. Through Jesus Christ's name, AMEN.

An Advance Apology

I'm sorry that I don't have anything to apologize about. I'll keep this site in mind if I ever do anything naughty in the future though. Hell, I may even do something just so I can post again, if that's wrong then please accept my apology in advance. Sorry.

A Litany of Apologies

I'm sorry that I'm not everything that you think I am.

I'm sorry for all of the little lies.

I'm sorry that you're not everything she was to me. BFF for 10 years is too long of time to be able to replace.

I'm sorry I tell things to your friends that I don't tell you.

I'm sorry I get mad/irritated over stupid shit.

I'm sorry I drink everyday, often hiding it from you.

I'm sorry I'm not better.

I'm sorry you don't like to hear about my past cause it's made me who I am today.

I'm sorry I'm getting fat.

I'm sorry when I'm sad and can't figure out why.

I'm sorry when I close myself off, sometimes I just need to be alone.

I'm sorry I can't just say this to you instead of posting it on an anonymous website for the world to see.

I love you with all my heart

and all my soul,

forever and ever.

For Wearing Your Ring

I'm sorry for wearing your turquoise ring without your permission. As a result, it was taken by someone who refused to give it back and now I have no idea where it is. I lied to you about knowing what happened to it. I know it's gone because of the choice I made to wear it, but I just didn't dare tell you,so I lied.

Sorry!

How I Really Feel About You

I'm sorry I never could tell you how I really feel about you. You broke my heart and you'll never know how much I really love you. I'm sorry I wasn't the person you thought I should be or the person you wanted me to be. I'm sorry you feel like I was a too needy and I'm sorry we couldn't truly understand each other. In some ways I'm sorry I ever met you; on the other hand I can't imagine how different my life would be if I hadn't met you. I'm sorry you won't let me tell you these things and I'm sorry that our once intense friendship is now only casual conversations about mundane life. I still love you despite everything you did and said to me, though I have no idea why I still love you. I'm sorry your life has been so hard and you think mine has been so easy. I'm sorry that things that are difficult for you are easier for me. I'm sorry you can't love me because I'm not like you. I'm sorry loving anyone is so hard for you. I'm sorry for what happened to you and I'm sorry I can't take it away.

Dancing the Jig

I'm sorry I danced a jig in front of your house at three in the morning when everyone was asleep. I thought it would be funny. Then, when I was walking home, dancing in the streets, I got hit by a car. You were driving.

For Letting Your Down So Badly

I'm sorry I let you down so badly. badly is a verb. I couldn't even let you down properly. :( I had to do it. He insulted me. I just reacted. I only took this job for you in the first place. Please try to understand. I cost us everything I know. If I could do it all again, I would. Except this time I'd stitch him in the face, not the chest....

Lamps Out

I'm sorry I punched your lamps out. It was a pressure situation. You didn't help.

Sorry

For Stealing from Your Store

im sorry that i stole from your store...not that it really hurt you, but after the $600 in fines and the fact that its on my record now, and i can't ever go back to actually BUY anything in your store, it was a very hard lesson to learn, and in the end, I'm really just sorry for myself.

For Not Being There

I'm sorry I wasn't there with you on that dark bus in Cancun.

I'm sorry they were.

I hope, as much as was possible, I was there for you afterward.

That Things Didn't Work Out

i am sorry i didnt make out with you when i had the chance. sounds shallow i know, but every night for a year now i've been dreaming about us kissing on a park bench just like we used to talk about, but now i know you like someone else, even though he told me personally he doesnt like you, but i cant afford to break your heart by telling you this. even thought you broke mine, twice, through text messages. I am truly sorry things didnt work out for us.

Great Expectations

I'm sorry I'll never be good enough for you. And I'll never be able to tell you that either.

For Being Shallow

I'm sorry I'm not more attracted to you physically. Youre all I could ask for in a woman, yet I can't help but wish you were thinner. I'm sorry for being shallow.

For Not Dreaming of Only You

I'm sorry that the night I told you I dreamed of only you, that I instead had erotic dreams for part of the night. The other half was all about you.

I'm also sorry that I'm such a jerk that I still masteurbate even though I think you the most beautiful woman in my eyes, both in body and soul.

I truly don't deserve you, and yet you still love me. For this I am eternally grateful.

Marriage

i'm sorry i didn't marry you.

For Making You Cry

I'm sorry for making you cry. I love you, but I'm not in love with you...

To My Former Employer

I'm sorry I stole from the company, at the time I felt underpaid and overworked and justified it in my mind as fair. I thank G-d I was never caught but the guilt of knowningly doing something so wrong haunts me to this very day, and it was over 15 years ago. I wonder if it was my bipolar or just a basic personal flaw in character that made me do it but either way I am sorry.

For Cheating on You

I'm sorry I cheated on you and then lied about for years. You always deserved better. Thank you for staying with me for 18 years even though I'm insane.

An Apology for Violence

i'm sorry for stabbing you... you gave me no choice, i didnt want to... the first time... the last 18 were kinda fun tho... sorry still.

For When We Were Kids

I'm sorry I was mean to you when we were kids.

I'm sorry we made you cry in sixth grade by calling your best friend imaginary.

We didn't mean to make you cry.

We were insecure and stupid.

I'm really sorry.

Can You Hear Me Now?

I'm sorry for stealing your wireless.

Our 'We' Could Not Be

I'm sorry that my calling the police to ask you to leave resulted in you going to jail.

I'm sorry about my part in all of our fights.

I am sorry neither of us was the person we thought, and therefore the 'we' we tried to create could not be.

The Egoist

i'm sorry for being so egotistical and warrior like.

Sorry That I'm Going to Break Your Heart

I am so sorry that I am going to break your heart. You are a nice guy and you're deserving of a good girlfriend but I just don't love you anymore. I know I swore up and down that I didn't care about him, and I didn't want him, but I do. Maybe it's not even that I want him so much as I don't want you anymore. I can't look you in the eye without feeling guilty. I'm sorry it worked out this way..

For My Cat

Please forgive me Molly (my Cat of 15 years)who I put down by myself instead of a Vet who would probably not let me take her home and bury her in my back yard. She trusted me as I fed her Tynols and and trans. She was sick and skinny like a skelton and I put her to sleep, All I can say is that it did not happen as fast as I wanted it too. but I stayed by her side until it was over and made a nice grave site out back of house for her. It haunts me so much and I miss her and am so sad about it. Never hurt an animal in my entire life. Love animals. So why did I do it. I do not know and wish I could come to peace with it. It still makes me cry. PLEASE PLEASE FORGIVE ME

For Everything I Did to You

I'm so sorry I lied to you and your family for so long. I couldn't lose you.

I am so happy that we're best friends but it hurts so much that we can't be more.

Maybe one day you'll want to be with me again...

I'm so so so sorry for everything I did to you.

For Loving You

i'm sorry i love you but i love someone else more even though you deserve it and she doesn't.

Sorry for Myself for What You Did

i can forget all the times i asked you to pay more atention to me rather that the cats... and you never did.

i can't forget how many times i asked you to come with me to join a couple friends and have fun.... and you never did.

i can't forget how many times you tryed to fire things up beetwen us... and you push me away.

and after all that ... i still love you and miss you like the first day, and now i'm crying in my apartment alone and been miserable thinking that you are with your new love... and hating you for the times we talk and you stil say you love me and care for me.

you are my wife, the person i want to spend the rest of my life with ... til you did this to me... how can you? after all i have done for you.

i feel sorry for myself... just cuz i can't forget you... i can't belive how stupid i am

My Selfish Acts

I'm sorry that I was masturbating the night before the September 11th attacks. I feel like I somehow caused the attacks through my selfish acts. I truly apologize for this.

For Being Selfish

Im sorry for being selfish. I should have thought of you and what you like to do for fun. I am constently only thinking about things that will be good for myself. I hope you can forgive me.

Apology to Us All

I'm sorry that we all have to use an anonymous website to really say what we want to say.

For Breaking Our Trust

I'm sorry I had to physically restrain you for twenty long hours in order to get you to a treatment center, and that it broke the trust you had in me.

I'm sorry that I never heard from you again. Please forgive me for having no other options.