That I Can't Talk to You

im sorry ash that i cant talk to you.

im sorry that u or me or both of us are letting him get between us. i know that however strong i try to be about the situation, if i saw u or him i wouldnt be able to even look either of u in the eye. and i wish it wasnt like that. cos i dont think i have anythin to be ashamed of. im mostly sorry that u wouldnt choose me over him. but im not sorry that as a result of ur actions, ur losing most of ur friends. that was ur choice gurl.

every now and then i think about talking to u or him, but i dont know if it is worth it. cos i know i dont trust either one of u anymnore. but i just miss having as many friends as i used to have.

and i think i need to say sorry in advance for talking to ur friend. cos i know i will be going out with her on wednesday, because she invited me, and i know that u are going to get so so cut when u hear that we all went out together and u werent invited. but i actually like her. and i'd like to be friends with her. i talk to her like we've known each other for years. but i know ur going to interpret it as me being a bitch n trying to steal ur friends.

im sorry i had to find out like this who my friends were. love u n, f, b, m, t!